"Ugh, I'm Fine"

THE CLOUD LOOKS LIKE A KITTY OMG

The Lightning tonight is unreal

There's this house in my neighborhood that reminds me of something, something beautiful but it doesn't feel beautiful it's almost scary. This picture feels the same.

dream of suicide

I’m having weird dreams. Dreams where I don’t remember who my boyfriend is, all I know is I like this purple haired weirdo and I’m in love with someone I can’t think of. I’m having dreams of guns pointing at me. I just want them to pull the trigger.

 I do the same stuff everyday. I bounce back and forth with a bubbly smile on my face and out of nowhere I break for a few minutes to a few hours. There is no warning and no reason. I’m perfectly fine. I just want to die sometimes. 

I imagine when I look at tall trees or buildings of me falling off. I imagine a bullet randomly going through my head. I imagine losing my boyfriend. I don’t try to. It just comes to me. And now it haunts me when I sleep. I am a walking disaster. 

I constantly ask, when does it end? I constantly say, I want to go home. But I am home, I’m homesick for a place that doesn’t exist, or maybe its the afterlife and that is my home, maybe that’s why I can be perfectly fine and the next moment I just want to die, shaking on my hands in knees, imagining the bullet going through my head one last time. Until the day I am killed, I will live in hell. I can’t wait to go home and for the pain to finally end. 

kawaii 

I'll name my daughter penis and we will call her penny so whenever someone asks what penny stands for she has to explain how mom wanted her daughter to be named after a body part and really her name is penis.

ya know what’s kind of weird? some people name cats “whiskers.” that’s a cat’s body part. that’s so wild. i’m gonna name my son leg