I Always End Up Never Happy With My Art

I got 300+ and rolled TWICE and didn’t get anyone both times

They’re so fake for that 😒

They’re on an aquarium date trust

Happy birthday to my oct babies

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Can you tell I love kenji miyazawa

Some important lines from stormbringer about Chuuya's feelings on Dazai at the time.

Please read fully before getting angry. This isn't just Soukoku hate I promise.

"I told you, Chuuya."

He looked up in the direction of the sudden voice. It was a familiar voice, one that belonged to the person he hated most in the world.

"Your birth itself was a mistake. We're the same. Is there really a point to suffering through all that pain for a life that isn't even real?"

This isn't Chuuya talking to someone else here, this isn't pride or embarrassment making him hide his hidden affection, its a description of his genuine feeling. Verlaine who just killed his friends, N who is currently torturing him, neither of them are as hated by Chuuya as Dazai is.

but it isn't that simple.

Chuuya wanted more than anything to slice off the ear the voice was whispering into. He could see Dazai's wavering shadow by his side, and he wanted to gouge out his eyes.

This visceral anger to his vision of Dazai feels...too strong of a reaction. I know Dazai has done some fucked up things to Chuuya, but none of them should be so bad that he would hate him this much. and that what made me realise Chuuya doesn't hate Dazai, he has tied Dazai to what he hates most about himself.

A crippling feeling of isolation, being so far above everyone around you it feels like your a different species (Dazai in intelligence, Chuuya in combat)

Dazai gave into that, and let it swallow him. So to Chuuya, who fights so desperately to stay alive and connect with people despite his origins. He seems like the worst person in the world.

This line really cements this

"Thats just proof that you at least somewhat believe what I'm saying. because deep down inside, you're the same as me."

"Shut up, shut up, shut up! I'm me! I'm not some piece of shit like you!"

Dazai is everything Chuuya has tried to suppress in himself for years and years.

I firmly believe Chuuya grew to care for Dazai after years of working with him, its just the kind of person he is, but I fundamentally disagree that he never hated Dazai.

Ultimately , this post was to point out how their dynamic changed and shifted over time, and how there's more to them then some people think

Good ORV Analytics

I've come across many good analysis of ORV the past few years, and I can't pick which one to pin on my profile. If you're interested, check them out! Some of them may just be small excerpts of people's opinions, though :)

(This will be continually updated!) The Relationship Between Sooyoung, Dokja, and Joonghyuk; Self-Sacrifice As Their Love Language

Han Sooyoung and Kim Dokja's Relationship To The Apocalypse (short)

ORV's Epilogue (short)

Kim Dokja's Story Fragments (short)

Personal Intrepertation Of ORV (short)

TWSA and Kim Dokja

YooHanKim and Sooyoung's Importance (short)

Kim Dokja's Tragedy

Yoo Joonghyuk's Contradiction

Kim Dokja's Tendencies; The Thin Line Between Self-Sacrifical and Suicidal

Us As A Fragment Of Dokja (short)

Kim Dokja Is Fucked Up (short)

Dokja and Sooyoung's Special Bond (short)

Han Sooyoung's Paradox (short)

I'm well aware most of these analysis are only towards the trio of the novel.. I wish we can see more of the other characters :(

My oc nd a wip

I've had a chat with a woman named Suad and she's trusted me to share her story with you all.

Suad is a young engineer from Gaza who was excelling in her field, and had recently been told that she is pregnant. She had a bright future ahead of her until disaster struck and Israel and their constant bombings destroyed everything she holds dear.

She and her husband are now living out of a tent like many Gazans now. They have had to struggle to find food and water, and not only this, but Suad is also trying to nurture an unborn baby without access to adequate food and the prenatal care that a pregnant mother needs.

She is fundraising now to get herself, along with her husband and their family members out of Gaza. They require $20,000 to get out of Gaza and an additional $8,000 for transfer costs and living expenses in Egypt.

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As of right now, they have made only $2,732 of their goal and their situation is urgent. Suad is now nearly 9th months along and will be giving birth to her child very soon in very dangerous conditions for both herself and the baby.

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This is the first genuine interactions I’ve ever had with my dad(he’s never texted me before)