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Is not enough.

#Abdullah

Let your love be stronger than your hate or anger. Learn the wisdom of compromise, for it is better to bend a little than to break.

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‎“Everything (that happens) is by way of al-Qadr, even when you place your hand upon your cheek.”

Sometimes you've got to run away to see who will run after you.

Sometimes you've got to talk quieter to see who's really listening.

Sometimes you've got to step up to fight only to see who's standing by your side.

Sometimes you've got to make the wrong decision only to see who's there to help you fix it.

Sometimes you've got to let go of the one you love, just to see if they love you enough to come back to you.

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A story doesn't exist unless it's Told you.

𝗡𝗲𝘄 𝗬𝗲𝗮𝗿'𝘀 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗮 𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗮𝘆 𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗼𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗹𝗶𝗳𝗲. 𝗛𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘀𝗼𝗺𝗲 𝗶𝗱𝗲𝗮𝘀 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲:

ℍ𝕖𝕒𝕝𝕥𝕙 & 𝕎𝕖𝕝𝕝𝕟𝕖𝕤𝕤:

* 𝗘𝘅𝗲𝗿𝗰𝗶𝘀𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝗴𝘂𝗹𝗮𝗿𝗹𝘆.

* 𝗘𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗲𝗿 𝗯𝘆 𝗶𝗻𝗰𝗼𝗿𝗽𝗼𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗳𝗿𝘂𝗶𝘁𝘀, 𝘃𝗲𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲𝘀, 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘄𝗵𝗼𝗹𝗲 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘀 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗱𝗶𝗲𝘁.

* 𝗗𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗸 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗿 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗹𝗶𝗺𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝘂𝗴𝗮𝗿𝘆 𝗱𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗸𝘀.

* 𝗚𝗲𝘁 𝗲𝗻𝗼𝘂𝗴𝗵 𝘀𝗹𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗲𝗮𝗰𝗵 𝗻𝗶𝗴𝗵𝘁.

* 𝗤𝘂𝗶𝘁 𝘀𝗺𝗼𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗼𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗱𝘂𝗰𝗲 𝗮𝗹𝗰𝗼𝗵𝗼𝗹 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝘀𝘂𝗺𝗽𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.

* 𝗣𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗳𝘂𝗹𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗺𝗲𝗱𝗶𝘁𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻.

ℙ𝕖𝕣𝕤𝕠𝕟𝕒𝕝 𝔾𝕣𝕠𝕨𝕥𝕙:

* 𝗟𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗻 𝗮 𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝘀𝗸𝗶𝗹𝗹 𝗼𝗿 𝗵𝗼𝗯𝗯𝘆.

* 𝗥𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗯𝗼𝗼𝗸𝘀.

* 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝘃𝗲𝗹 𝘁𝗼 𝗮 𝗻𝗲𝘄 𝗽𝗹𝗮𝗰𝗲.

* 𝗩𝗼𝗹𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗲𝗲𝗿 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘂𝗻𝗶𝘁𝘆.

* 𝗦𝗽𝗲𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀.

* 𝗣𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗶𝗰𝗲 𝗴𝗿𝗮𝘁𝗶𝘁𝘂𝗱𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗽𝗼𝘀𝗶𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗶𝘁𝘆.

ℂ𝕒𝕣𝕖𝕖𝕣 & 𝔽𝕚𝕟𝕒𝕟𝕔𝕖:

* 𝗚𝗲𝘁 𝗼𝗿𝗴𝗮𝗻𝗶𝘇𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝘁 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗸 𝗼𝗿 𝗵𝗼𝗺𝗲.

* 𝗦𝗮𝘃𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘆.

* 𝗥𝗲𝗱𝘂𝗰𝗲 𝗱𝗲𝗯𝘁.

* 𝗜𝗻𝘃𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗲𝗱𝘂𝗰𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗼𝗿 𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗿 𝗱𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗹𝗼𝗽𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁.

* 𝗦𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘁 𝗮 𝘀𝗶𝗱𝗲 𝗵𝘂𝘀𝘁𝗹𝗲 𝗼𝗿 𝗯𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀.

ℝ𝕖𝕝𝕒𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤𝕙𝕚𝕡𝕤:

* 𝗦𝘁𝗿𝗲𝗻𝗴𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗿𝗲𝗹𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀𝗵𝗶𝗽𝘀 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝗳𝗮𝗺𝗶𝗹𝘆 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗳𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗱𝘀.

* 𝗕𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲𝗻𝘁 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗻𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝗻𝗲𝘀.

* 𝗖𝗼𝗺𝗺𝘂𝗻𝗶𝗰𝗮𝘁𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗲𝗳𝗳𝗲𝗰𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗲𝗹𝘆.

* 𝗥𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘃𝗲 𝗮𝗻𝘆 𝗰𝗼𝗻𝗳𝗹𝗶𝗰𝘁𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗮𝗴𝗿𝗲𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗻𝘁𝘀.

* 𝗦𝗵𝗼𝘄 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗮𝗽𝗽𝗿𝗲𝗰𝗶𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗸𝗶𝗻𝗱𝗻𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗼𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗿𝘀.

𝕋𝕚𝕡𝕤 𝕗𝕠𝕣 𝕤𝕖𝕥𝕥𝕚𝕟𝕘 𝕖𝕗𝕗𝕖𝕔𝕥𝕚𝕧𝕖 𝕣𝕖𝕤𝕠𝕝𝕦𝕥𝕚𝕠𝕟𝕤:

* 𝗠𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝘀𝗽𝗲𝗰𝗶𝗳𝗶𝗰 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲. 𝗜𝗻𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗮𝗱 𝗼𝗳 𝘀𝗮𝘆𝗶𝗻𝗴 "𝗘𝗮𝘁 𝗵𝗲𝗮𝗹𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗲𝗿," 𝘁𝗿𝘆 "𝗘𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝘁 𝗹𝗲𝗮𝘀𝘁 5 𝘀𝗲𝗿𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀 𝗼𝗳 𝗳𝗿𝘂𝗶𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘃𝗲𝗴𝗲𝘁𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲𝘀 𝗽𝗲𝗿 𝗱𝗮𝘆."

* 𝗠𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗹𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗶𝗰 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲. 𝗗𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝘀𝗲𝘁 𝗴𝗼𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝘁𝗼𝗼 𝗮𝗺𝗯𝗶𝘁𝗶𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗼𝗿 𝗱𝗶𝗳𝗳𝗶𝗰𝘂𝗹𝘁 𝘁𝗼 𝗺𝗮𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗮𝗶𝗻.

* 𝗕𝗿𝗲𝗮𝗸 𝘁𝗵𝗲𝗺 𝗱𝗼𝘄𝗻 𝗶𝗻𝘁𝗼 𝘀𝗺𝗮𝗹𝗹𝗲𝗿 𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗽𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗴𝗼𝗮𝗹𝘀 𝘀𝗲𝗲𝗺 𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘀 𝗱𝗮𝘂𝗻𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗺𝗼𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗻𝗮𝗴𝗲𝗮𝗯𝗹𝗲.

* 𝗧𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝗽𝗿𝗼𝗴𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘀. 𝗧𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗵𝗲𝗹𝗽 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝘆 𝗺𝗼𝘁𝗶𝘃𝗮𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗼𝗻 𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗰𝗸.

* 𝗗𝗼𝗻'𝘁 𝗴𝗶𝘃𝗲 𝘂𝗽 𝗶𝗳 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗹𝗶𝗽 𝘂𝗽. 𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀 𝗺𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗸𝗲𝘀. 𝗝𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝗽𝗶𝗰𝗸 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳 𝘂𝗽 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗸𝗲𝗲𝗽 𝗴𝗼𝗶𝗻𝗴.

𝗥𝗲𝗺𝗲𝗺𝗯𝗲𝗿, 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝗺𝗼𝘀𝘁 𝗶𝗺𝗽𝗼𝗿𝘁𝗮𝗻𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗶𝘀 𝘁𝗼 𝗰𝗵𝗼𝗼𝘀𝗲 𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗼𝗹𝘂𝘁𝗶𝗼𝗻𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗲𝗮𝗻𝗶𝗻𝗴𝗳𝘂𝗹 𝘁𝗼 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗿𝗲 𝗰𝗼𝗺𝗺𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘁𝗼 𝗮𝗰𝗵𝗶𝗲𝘃𝗶𝗻𝗴.

𝗚𝗼𝗼𝗱 𝗹𝘂𝗰𝗸.

#𝕬𝖇𝖉𝖚𝖑𝖑𝖆𝖍

It is quite unbelievable that there will be people that I will love unconditionally that I have not even met yet. Somewhere out there, in a supermarket or singing in the shower, there are souls that have not touched mine yet but will, eventually.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

"Did he know me? Yes. More than anyone. He knew the storms in my eyes and the trying too hard smile. He knew when the tears were welling up in my eyes that I was trying to hide, and the pain behind my smile. He knew the looks from my hazel green eyes. The look when I was nervous or anxious about something. The look of a dirty joke or sarcastic humor in rebuttal to what he just said. The look I gave when I was goading and riling him sensually, erotically, that I only know how to do. The look of me wanting him to take me over and over. With his lips pressed against mine as one hand was on my neck and the other with a fistful of my long hair. That glaring daring look as I stared up at him as he did. He knew my flirtatious look with a side little grin I gave him that made him sit back in his chair in awe as he's sitting next to me at dinner.

He knew my far away stare when I was in deep thought or something was bothering me. Concentrating on patterns on drapes and rugs, or the sky outside the window. He knew when I was quiet-something was really bothering me. And some of those times he knew I was quiet because I never liked confrontation. But he urged me to talk about it to be open and honest as we always are. He knew when I was teasing, talkative, and joking with him- I was having a good day. But when little things got to me and I was being short, and not as talkative...a storm was brewing inside me ready to turn into a maelstrom. That he only knew how to calm by the way.

He knew it all. He learned me. And learned me well like no other. He loved all of me. My happiness, my pain, my scars and traumas, my comical side, my inner child, my light and thinking positive, my sadness and grief, my darkness and erotic cravings & sensuality, my empathy and understanding, my strengths and my weaknesses, me feeling everything so very deeply and over-thinking so many things. He loved every part of me. I showed him all of me.

I never showed anyone all of me before. But he got it all. I felt safe with him. Protected. Safe not only physically, but emotionally. That's deep intimacy. Talking. Communicating with words, looks, or a single touch. Learning someone so deeply that you know them as well as they know themselves. Open, raw, and honest together.

Fully knowing each other inside and out where you become two souls perfectly fitting together. And I knew he loved me so deeply that it encompassed him. He showed me in many ways. Ever so loving, and some so dark you'd either blush or gasp. And me? I know the real him. The part of himself he doesn't show anyone. I loved him with every fiber of my being, and I gave him everything I had in me. While wearing that classy yet sensual navy off the shoulder sheath Couture dress he loves so much, in heels and a diamond necklace & bracelet to match, with a toy hidden secretly away where no one can see, as he held the remote.

It's a different type of pain when you don't cry anymore, you just take a deep breathe and accept it.