"If your hand can move through my body and touch my heart, what would you feel emanating from it?
Sorrow and emptiness in the dark black spaces hallowed out where loved ones were lost and their seats are empty? Telling you I'll never be the same person I was before those losses.
Hypervigilance which has my heart in a constant state of alert for potential threats around me from past traumas? Always aware of my surroundings. Compassion and Empathy in great vibrations through your fingertips telling you I often put other people's feelings ahead of my own?
Avoiding conflicts to save any bad feelings to the other person, keeping my feelings to myself often to keep the peace, even if that means sacrificing what I truly feel and want. Overly understanding and kindness you feel moving in slow soft waves over your hand-so others don't feel how I've been feeling, and it can turn their whole day around into a smile?
Welcoming pure love telling you I made a home for you in a special stained-glass colored place in my heart so I can always embrace you there? Innocence beaming that's almost childlike swinging high on a swing in the golden sunshine, holding a yellow dandelion flower in my hand as my feet can almost touch the clouds in the blue sky without a care in the world? Romance that makes my delicate feminine soul look like pink pastel hues, and feels like a white doily lace on an old antique side table with an ivory Tiffany lamp warmly illuminated by the light through the drapes?
Passion searing hot red flames with heat that would scorch you until you learn to tame and control it till it surrenders to you? Desire and sensuality in the corners ready to lure you with the look of my eyes and a devilish smirk in my smile?
All that you can feel with just one touch.
One graze of your fingertips sliding down as your hand is cascading through.
So Fuck my soul and feel me entirely- to know me completely, honestly, and wholly with you in it.
It's okay for others to misunderstand you and your intentions. it is inevitable actually.
Don’t let someone treat you badly just because you care about them.
It doesn’t matter if they are a friend, family member, or partner.
It doesn’t matter how long you’ve known them or how kind they’ve been in the past.
You have the right to call out their harmful behavior.
Set clear limits on what is and isn’t okay for you.
You can speak up about how their actions make you feel, and you’re allowed to share your experiences with others.
If needed, you also have the right to step back and create distance.
You have every right to say:
“I love you and I want you in my life, but I can’t keep allowing you to treat me this way. I won’t sacrifice my well-being to keep this relationship going.
If things don’t get better, I will have to end this relationship, not because I don’t care about you, but because I care about myself and deserve respect.”
#Abdullah
"She thought about it the other night. How you pushed her boundaries and tested her senses. She thought of how she got lost in you. And you in her. She thought about how often you called her 'beautiful' in between breaths, whimpers, and moans. She thought about how you made her body rise and fall like Roman ruins.
She thought about how you come up behind her, gently move her long hair over to the other side so you can kiss her neck. And she laughs to herself remembering she told you 'you can't kiss a girl's neck and not expect the sequence of events to start', jokingly. It makes you grin as you're kissing her.
She thought about how all her sadness, pain, and anxiety disappears when she's with you. And only with you. You awaken another side of what not many have seen, and only a few dabbed into. But with you, oh with you, she gives all of her. And you cherish that.
She thought about how you know her body more than anyone else. She thought about how she feels so complete when she's with you, and feels like something is missing when she's not. Then she thought about what you have planned for her next time, and she grins just imagining what you may come up with".
Life has a way of moving forward, whether we are ready for it or not. It doesn’t pause when we're struggling, waiting for us to feel strong or whole again. The challenges, the setbacks, the heartaches—they all keep coming, relentless and uninvited. And while it’s natural to feel overwhelmed in those moments, the reality is that life doesn’t wait for us to be okay. The world continues, and if we want to keep moving with it, we have to find the strength to stand up, even when our knees feel weak, and keep moving forward, one step at a time.
When everything feels heavy, sometimes the best thing you can do is pause for a moment, breathe, and then take action. Pray, reflect, and recharge—whatever you need to ground yourself—but don’t let that be the place you stay. The journey ahead may not be easy, but staying stagnant will only prolong the discomfort. Push forward, even in the uncertainty. Life will never be on pause, so you must continue, grow stronger, and embrace the process. It’s through these moments of resilience that we learn the true power of persistence and the beauty of our own strength.
Sometimes, the people who come into our lives aren't meant to stay forever, but to teach us a valuable lesson. They serve a purpose that may be difficult to understand at first, but once the lesson is learned, their presence becomes clear. Whether it’s showing us the importance of boundaries, helping us realize our own strength, or teaching us how to let go, these individuals shape us in ways we couldn’t have predicted. They enter our lives for a season, offer insight, and then move on, leaving behind the wisdom we needed to grow. Their role isn’t to stay but to help us evolve, and that's all they were ever meant to do.
It’s easy to hold onto people, thinking they should remain in our lives longer than they are meant to, but when we let go of that expectation, we make room for new growth. Some people are only passing through, their purpose fulfilled once they've shown us something we needed to understand. While their departure might be painful or confusing, it’s important to remember that not all relationships are meant for forever. What matters is the lesson they taught us and how we carry that forward. Not everyone is meant to stay, but the ones who leave with a lesson are often the ones who change us the most.
— Abdullah
If someone wants you in their life, they will do anything to keep you in it.
And if they don't want you in their life, absolutely nothing you do or say will make them change their mind.
Stop trying. Do not beg anyone to want you. You are much more worthy than that.
I hope you find someone who will understand your past traumas and give you constant reassurance that you're now trusting the right person. I hope you find someone who understand that you are not perfect but will never make you feel not enough. I hope you find a kind-hearted person. Someone who will speak kind words to you and will always respect you no matter what the situation is. I hope you find someone who knows exactly how to treat you right. Someone who will love you genuinely and will care for you like he's afraid to lose you.
I hope you find someone who can love you selflessly because not every one can love that way. Not every one is willing to sacrifice everything he has just to see you happy and not every one is willing to love you with everything he has. I hope you find a love that allows you to be happy and to be at peace because you deserve it after how many times of settling for less than what you deserve. And most importantly, I hope you find someone who will never give up on you and will never treat you poorly.
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𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒂𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒔𝒕𝒐𝒓𝒚 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝑰 𝒏𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒂𝒏𝒕 𝒕𝒐 𝒆𝒏𝒅.
"Perhaps, somewhere, someday, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again" - Abdullah.
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