Just Because I Understand The Reasoning Behind Your Actions, Doesn't Mean That I Find Your Actions To

There are moments in life when you are faced with decisions that feel impossible, where every choice seems to pull you in opposite directions. Often, one of these choices may involve letting go of something or someone you deeply care about, knowing that it will break your heart in the process. It can feel like an unbearable weight—like you’re choosing pain over comfort. Yet, within this heartache lies an unspoken truth: sometimes, the hardest choices are the ones that bring you the most peace. Letting go, though excruciating, can clear the path for healing, growth, and the space needed to breathe again. It may not be immediate, but peace often follows when we allow ourselves to step away from something or someone that no longer serves us.

It’s a bittersweet realization that peace isn't always the absence of pain, but rather the courage to embrace the discomfort of necessary change. It requires a kind of inner strength to make the choice that feels like it's unraveling your heart, yet trust that it is stitching back together something more aligned with who you are becoming. In the end, it’s not about avoiding hurt but about finding the freedom to live authentically and at peace with yourself. And though the road may be painful, it is through this heartache that we often find the clarity and resilience needed to step into a future where we are whole again.

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To love is human. To feel pain is human. Yet to still love despite the pain... is pure angel.

- Rumi

If depression has a color it wouldn't black. It would be dull muted gray.

Black makes a statement.

It's solid, not allowing any light in. It's bold. It's loud. It's in your face. It's like the infinite night sky. It's lovely sin in lace.

Muted gray isn't any of those things. It's dull. It's numb.

It's soft background white noise. It's pale and not blatantly seen.

It blends into the scenery without other people even noticing.

It still lets some light in. It's nothing. It says nothing. It's just there-existing. Lifeless and drained of all life, spirit, color, and the essence of who you are. You lose your identity. You lose your personality.

In depression, you lose everything that makes you-you.

You're muted gray. And that's okay. In time, you'll heal little by little, getting yourself out of the monotone darkness you know so well. You made a bed there. You're comfortable there. Safe. But don't stay there. Even though it feels like home. It's not. It's a big grey-black veil over your real self. Your soul. Once you start healing, you lift the veil up little by little....letting light in.

As months and years go by, you've healed in many little steps that add up to a huge change in you. You're still in depression, but nowhere near as deep as you were. You remember how you were back then, and you see how much you healed for the better.

You see you're not staring at walls or patterns on drapes, or blankly staring at the floor. You're not closed off, you're not as quiet, you're smiling more, laughing more, engaging more, doing more activities you used to love and enjoy, being more sociable, and overall just being the real YOU.

You see more of your old personality shining through. THAT'S when you see the difference in you. You're not 100% healed by any means. But you've made strides. More and more...seeing your old self there in the distance in the field.

Go get her. She needs you back.

As he was inside me, with his weight on top of me, he kissed me on my forehead softly again and again- in between kissing my lips hard and passionately, as he said 'You know what a kiss on the forehead means'.

I was silent.

I knew what it meant. It meant protection. Respect. It meant undying love. It meant I'm his, and his alone. It meant 'you're mine'. It meant I mean the world to him. I didn't need to answer his statement. He knew I knew what it meant. We understood each other in those sweet seconds as he stayed inside me.

And in that moment, I fell in love with him more than I already do...and he didn't even know it.

I pray for people with lonely souls.

I pray for the hungry and the cold.

I pray for little orphans without homes.

I pray for those who are shut-in and all alone.

I pray that tensions in the world will ease.

I pray that we will find everlasting peace.

#Abdullah #AbdullahBook

Don’t let someone treat you badly just because you care about them.

It doesn’t matter if they are a friend, family member, or partner.

It doesn’t matter how long you’ve known them or how kind they’ve been in the past.

You have the right to call out their harmful behavior.

Set clear limits on what is and isn’t okay for you.

You can speak up about how their actions make you feel, and you’re allowed to share your experiences with others.

If needed, you also have the right to step back and create distance.

You have every right to say:

“I love you and I want you in my life, but I can’t keep allowing you to treat me this way. I won’t sacrifice my well-being to keep this relationship going.

If things don’t get better, I will have to end this relationship, not because I don’t care about you, but because I care about myself and deserve respect.”

#Abdullah

It's not your job to save people from themselves. You can't expect them to change for YOU. Unless they decide to change for their own sake, you'll be stuck in a whirlpool.

It's human nature to be there for one another but not to the point where we let people become dependent on us for their own happiness or well-being.

If you want to change your partner, chances are they're not the one for you. If they don't want to change, they won't change.

People won't change for you or me. They change for themselves.

That's why, don't feel guilty for wanting your loved ones to change and then you take the responsibility to change them. This will drain you and lead you to disappointment and heartbreak.

You can't save them. You are not responsible for where their actions may lead.. But you can still show support and encouragement. You can still love them anyways.

#Abdullah

Outing. ... .

whatever you're going through, istighfar is the solution. your sins block khair coming to you, make istighfar and see how it changes your life.

You deserve a love that isn’t wrapped in uncertainty, a love that doesn’t leave you wondering if your worth is seen, or if you even matter in the grand scheme of things. Maybe you’re in a relationship, but do you truly feel the comfort of it? Are you constantly questioning whether you’ve received the assurances you need to feel secure, or have you simply settled for the idea of being with someone because it feels easier than facing the unknown? Love shouldn’t make you second-guess yourself, but sometimes we find ourselves stuck in a cycle of convincing ourselves it’s enough, even when it’s not.

When was the last time you asked yourself if you’re staying because you truly love that person, or because you’ve become so entangled in the years and memories together that it’s hard to imagine life without them? It’s difficult to walk away from something you’ve invested so much time in, but deep down, do you feel valued? Do you feel like you matter to them, not just in moments of convenience, but consistently, every single day? You deserve a love that makes you feel seen and heard, not a love that leaves you questioning your place in their heart.

You deserve a love that isn’t shy, a love that is proud to claim you no matter the fear or uncertainty. It’s not about perfection; it’s about authenticity. A love where they have the courage to show the world who you are to them, not in private, but in the open. You deserve someone who will stand tall, unafraid, and shout your name from the rooftops because they are proud of you and the life you share. You deserve a love that is sure, steady, and unwavering—not one that leaves you guessing.

— Abdullah

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