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Believe in yourself and keep moving forward.

“Don't love deeply, till you make sure that the other part loves you with the same depth, because the depth of your love today, is the depth of your wound tomorrow.”

If your hand can move through my body and touch my heart, what would you feel emanating from it?

Sorrow and emptiness in the dark black spaces hallowed out where loved ones were lost and their seats are empty? Telling you I'll never be the same person I was before those losses.

Hypervigilance which has my heart in a constant state of alert for potential threats around me from past traumas? Always aware of my surroundings. Compassion and Empathy in great vibrations through your fingertips telling you I often put other people's feelings ahead of my own?

Avoiding conflicts to save any bad feelings to the other person, keeping my feelings to myself often to keep the peace, even if that means sacrificing what I truly feel and want. Overly understanding and kindness you feel moving in slow soft waves over your hand-so others don't feel how I've been feeling, and it can turn their whole day around into a smile?

Welcoming pure love telling you I made a home for you in a special stained-glass colored place in my heart so I can always embrace you there? Innocence beaming that's almost childlike swinging high on a swing in the golden sunshine, holding a yellow dandelion flower in my hand as my feet can almost touch the clouds in the blue sky without a care in the world?

Romance that makes my delicate feminine soul look like pink pastel hues, and feels like a white doily lace on an old antique side table with an ivory Tiffany lamp warmly illuminated by the light through the drapes?

Passion searing hot red flames with heat that would scorch you until you learn to tame and control it till it surrenders to you? Desire and sensuality in the corners ready to lure you with the look of my eyes and a devilish smirk in my smile?

All that you can feel with just one touch. One graze of your fingertips sliding down as your hand is cascading through.

So Fu*k my soul and feel me entirely- to know me completely, honestly, and wholly with you in it.

-©️ Abdullah.

Some people come into our lives and touch parts of us that we thought were long locked away. They connect with us on a special level that most people could never understand. You find yourself talking and suddenly you say the same words at the same time, and you bust out laughing every time. You find yourself thinking about them in your quiet moments, wondering what they may be doing and hoping that they are thinking about you at the same time. These people move our hearts to dance, and the music that plays stays inside of you. They build a very special place in your heart, and you like having them there.

You build a trust in each other, and talk about things that you would normally tell no one. Thoughts come to mind of things in your past that you haven’t thought about in years, and yet they become special again because you have someone to share them with that truly wants to hear them. You can sit in silence for hours at a time, and yet have the best of conversations simply by feeling them there.

These people don’t always stay in our lives forever, and sometimes for only a little while. But while they are here you are thankful for each and every day you have with them, and you feel blessed in so many ways. Sometimes they do stay and you know you have found your perfect other, and if we are lucky enough to find that then we are happy for the rest of our days in the love that we share with them.

In either case they leave hand prints on our hearts, and we are never the same. We are better for having known them. And every memory we keep of them is a happy one that we cherish for the rest of our lives.

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"The Untold Stories."

"A story doesn't exist unless it is told."

قوة إسرائيلية تتحصن بمنزل قبل حدث مفاجئ في جباليا شمال قطاع غزة

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

Take off your clothes, we need to talk. Would fix me right now.

A story doesn't exist unless it's Told.

Will you love me when I have bad days?

Will you love me at my weakest and be who I need you to be when I need you to be it? Will you offer me neverending support and neverending grace? Will I find safety in your arms and know without a doubt you will be there building me up, loving me with an intensity that no one will ever top? Will you cherish the man I am today and tomorrow, never letting me forget how special I am to you?

I don’t want an invisible love. If you are proud of me and what I have accomplished, tell me. If you love the bow I have in my hair that day, communicate that to me. If you adore what I wore that day, show me. If you love my quirky sense of humor and more serious moments we have shared, make sure I know that.

Never let the moment pass, or tell yourself you’ll tell me the next time. Life is too short. What if there is no ‘next time?’ Tell me, show me, making sure I know how special I am to you. I am a ball of fire, intense, and full of inspiration - I need you to be consistent and a rock I can lean on in my most vulnerable moments. If you are this for me - there is no doubt in my mind, I will do that for you.

©️ Abdullah

Love didn’t hurt you. Someone who doesn’t know how to love you hurt you. Don’t confuse the two.