A Story Doesn't Exist Unless It's Told.

"Perhaps, somewhere, someday, at a less miserable time, we may see each other again"

Forgive yourself for not knowing what you didn’t know before you learned it.

As he was inside me, with his weight on top of me, he kissed me on my forehead softly again and again- in between kissing my lips hard and passionately, as he said 'You know what a kiss on the forehead means'.

I was silent.

I knew what it meant. It meant protection. Respect. It meant undying love. It meant I'm his, and his alone. It meant 'you're mine'. It meant I mean the world to him. I didn't need to answer his statement. He knew I knew what it meant. We understood each other in those sweet seconds as he stayed inside me.

And in that moment, I fell in love with him more than I already do...

And he didn't even know it.

I don't want to remember the scars you left

But every day they're stuck within my mind

There'll always be a little piece of you around.

Like a nightmare that doesn't fade in the morning.

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Because the scars you left behind cut deep

If i was to compare them to an ocean.

My lungs would burst as i reached its bed.

That's how far your abuse made me drown.

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Maybe I've now learnt to come up for air.

But the toxicity of your actions still haunts me.

My mind has these mental flashbacks all the time.

It's like although I've finally reached the surface

All that i have to greet me is a flood of acid rain

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Because the memories are probably more painful.

Replaying it over and over again every day.

Makes me relive each moment in high definition

It makes the wounds bleed once again.

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I've carried them with me since I was a child.

The bruises may have now faded away

But your fist feels like it's always approaching

My body still flinches every single time.

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I don't think I'll ever be able to forgive you.

But somehow i have to learn to move on.

I can't let you control my life forever.

Even though i still feel like that little child.

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THE SCARS YOU LEFT BEHIND.

#Abdullah

To love is human. To feel pain is human. Yet to still love despite the pain... is pure angel.

- Rumi

If depression has a color it wouldn't black. It would be dull muted gray.

Black makes a statement.

It's solid, not allowing any light in. It's bold. It's loud. It's in your face. It's like the infinite night sky. It's lovely sin in lace.

Muted gray isn't any of those things. It's dull. It's numb.

It's soft background white noise. It's pale and not blatantly seen.

It blends into the scenery without other people even noticing.

It still lets some light in. It's nothing. It says nothing. It's just there-existing. Lifeless and drained of all life, spirit, color, and the essence of who you are. You lose your identity. You lose your personality.

In depression, you lose everything that makes you-you.

You're muted gray. And that's okay. In time, you'll heal little by little, getting yourself out of the monotone darkness you know so well. You made a bed there. You're comfortable there. Safe. But don't stay there. Even though it feels like home. It's not. It's a big grey-black veil over your real self. Your soul. Once you start healing, you lift the veil up little by little....letting light in.

As months and years go by, you've healed in many little steps that add up to a huge change in you. You're still in depression, but nowhere near as deep as you were. You remember how you were back then, and you see how much you healed for the better.

You see you're not staring at walls or patterns on drapes, or blankly staring at the floor. You're not closed off, you're not as quiet, you're smiling more, laughing more, engaging more, doing more activities you used to love and enjoy, being more sociable, and overall just being the real YOU.

You see more of your old personality shining through. THAT'S when you see the difference in you. You're not 100% healed by any means. But you've made strides. More and more...seeing your old self there in the distance in the field.

Go get her. She needs you back.

You’re in a relationship to be happy, to smile, to laugh and to make good memories.

Not to be constantly upset, to feel hurt or cry.

Choose the relationship that’s going to lead growth within yourself and your love for one another.

#Abdullah #AbdullahBook #KittyCat

Sometimes, the people who come into our lives aren't meant to stay forever, but to teach us a valuable lesson. They serve a purpose that may be difficult to understand at first, but once the lesson is learned, their presence becomes clear. Whether it’s showing us the importance of boundaries, helping us realize our own strength, or teaching us how to let go, these individuals shape us in ways we couldn’t have predicted. They enter our lives for a season, offer insight, and then move on, leaving behind the wisdom we needed to grow. Their role isn’t to stay but to help us evolve, and that's all they were ever meant to do.

It’s easy to hold onto people, thinking they should remain in our lives longer than they are meant to, but when we let go of that expectation, we make room for new growth. Some people are only passing through, their purpose fulfilled once they've shown us something we needed to understand. While their departure might be painful or confusing, it’s important to remember that not all relationships are meant for forever. What matters is the lesson they taught us and how we carry that forward. Not everyone is meant to stay, but the ones who leave with a lesson are often the ones who change us the most.

— Abdullah

Being faithful in a relationship isn't just about staying out of someone else's bed.

It's way deeper than that.

It's the texts you don't send, the flirty conversations you don't entertain, and the decisions you make when no one's watching.

Being faithful isn't just about avoiding the act of cheating. It's about consciously removing yourself from any situation that could potentially blur the lines. It's about not seeking validation or attention from anyone outside the relationship. It's about not having anything on your phone that you wouldn't want your partner to see.

Being truly faithful is not just about physical monogamy. It's about emotional integrity.