“not All Cops”

“In 1984, when Ruth Coker Burks was 25 and a young mother living in Arkansas, she would often visit a hospital to care for a friend with cancer.

During one visit, Ruth noticed the nurses would draw straws, afraid to go into one room, its door sealed by a big red bag. She asked why and the nurses told her the patient had AIDS.

On a repeat visit, and seeing the big red bag on the door, Ruth decided to disregard the warnings and sneaked into the room.

In the bed was a skeletal young man, who told Ruth he wanted to see his mother before he died. She left the room and told the nurses, who said, "Honey, his mother’s not coming. He’s been here six weeks. Nobody’s coming!”

Ruth called his mother anyway, who refused to come visit her son, who she described as a "sinner" and already dead to her, and that she wouldn't even claim his body when he died.

“I went back in his room and when I walked in, he said, "Oh, momma. I knew you’d come", and then he lifted his hand. And what was I going to do? So I took his hand. I said, "I’m here, honey. I’m here”, Ruth later recounted.

Ruth pulled a chair to his bedside, talked to him

and held his hand until he died 13 hours later.

After finally finding a funeral home that would his body, and paying for the cremation out of her own savings, Ruth buried his ashes on her family's large plot.

After this first encounter, Ruth cared for other patients. She would take them to appointments, obtain medications, apply for assistance, and even kept supplies of AIDS medications on hand, as some pharmacies would not carry them.

Ruth’s work soon became well known in the city and she received financial assistance from gay bars, "They would twirl up a drag show on Saturday night and here'd come the money. That's how we'd buy medicine, that's how we'd pay rent. If it hadn't been for the drag queens, I don't know what we would have done", Ruth said.

Over the next 30 years, Ruth cared for over 1,000 people and buried more than 40 on her family's plot most of whom were gay men whose families would not claim their ashes.

For this, Ruth has been nicknamed the 'Cemetery Angel'.”— by Ra-Ey Saley

Don’t Ever Apologize

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listen I know it's heartbreaking that Claudia dies and it's understandable to wish she didn't, but let's please not accuse the writers of fridging her. to do so is a fundamental misunderstanding of the story and is frankly insulting to the intelligence and skill of the writers of the show.

Claudia's death, and the overwhelming grief and regret her parents experience because of it, is quite literally the point of the entire story. she dies because Anne's daughter Michele died of leukemia when she was five years old and there was nothing she or her husband could do to prevent it.

writing IWTV was how Anne coped with the unimaginable loss of a parent losing her child. she created a story about a little girl that could not die and then killed her anyway. Claudia's death is a senseless, unavoidable tragedy, just like Michele's was. the grief that haunts Louis and Lestat for the rest of their lives is the same grief that haunted Anne and her husband.

so when you're accusing people of killing Claudia off to benefit a story about two men, please remember that in real life sometimes parents lose their children. please remember Michele Rice.

she's the reason Claudia exists.

she's also the reason Claudia cannot be saved.

I am not ready for the mood guys

I am now crying. I'm reliving it all over again

That Scene from Infinity War

That part wherein Peter says “Mr. Stark, I don’t feel so good” as he touches his stomach. And you get to witness it slowly happening to him, slowly realizing what’s about to happen to him because of his Spider Sense.

Then Peter walks to Tony and Tony goes “You’re alright” reassuring this boy, this kid who wasn’t even supposed to be in space and wasn’t supposed to be involved in this war—he was supposed to be back on Earth on his field trip. Then Peter’s legs give out as he throws himself to Tony, but his healing ability tries to fix that as his legs disappear but there’s only so much his powers could do. But this also means he gets to experience the pain way so much more compared to the others because his senses are dialed to eleven—there was just so much input. “I don’t know what’s happening.”

He was in so much pain while he was dying.

Then Peter cries as he clings harder to Tony because he’s a kid and what do kids do when they can’t help themselves and they don’t know what to do? They go to an adult. Tony Stark is someone who Peter idolizes so much, he believes that Mr. Stark will be able to save him, like he always had.

So he begs as he cries.

“I don’t wanna go. I don’t wanna go, Mr. Stark, please. I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna go. I don’t want to go.”

That last “I don’t want to go” was the most heartbreaking because his voice, he sounded like a helpless kid as his voice cracks, sobbing so hard, clinging as much as he could hoping Mr. Stark would make everything better because he knows that Mr. Stark is the best.

Peter is so scared. So, so so scared of dying. He’s so young, he’s only 17. He hasn’t done much yet being a friendly neighborhood Spider-Man. Hasn’t proven himself enough.

Then he says “I’m sorry.”

He’s sorry because he didn’t listen when he was told to go back to Earth. He’s sorry because he failed Iron Man. He’s sorry because he knew Tony would be guilty and would blame himself if he died. He’s sorry because he’s not strong enough and he’s not worthy to be an Avenger after all. 

And we get to see how affected Tony was, how he was also crying because this kid wants him to save him, to keep him safe—he promised to keep this boy safe. He made him the Iron Spider suit to prevent this from happening. He was going to catch this kid whenever he falls and he did but then it wasn’t good enough because here Peter was, a kid he grew to love so much… dying in his arms and he can’t do anything about it.

It was Tony’s worst nightmare.

I love how they took time to actually show it, and not just let Peter disintegrate quickly like the rest. They gave them a moment. A very sad one that made most of us weep in the cinemas because Tony wanted a kid and slowly he realizes that all along he had one and it was Peter. 

This was such a powerful scene because of Tony and Peter’s father-and-son dynamics. This was more than enough to fuel Tony Stark’s rage to face on Thanos because how dare he kill his kid.

watch this. this is literally what love is.