Autism Is An Insane Condition Because I Spent All Day Feeling Like Dogshit And Then I Shut My Windows

could u even imagine the grief dark cacao went through as a father? aqqqjwqq

my shaylas..🥹

Goodnight. These mfs are ao fucking gay

Ellie Letting Abby & Lev Go Makes Sense.

People who complain about the ending of TLOU2 being about Ellie forgiving Joel's killer are kind of missing the point in my opinion. I think there's a fair argument that Ellie doesn't actually forgive Abby, nor is the ending about the triumph of forgiveness. It's more so about Ellie honoring Joel's memory by not taking away a parental figure (Abby) from a lonely kid (Lev).

Joel fought for Ellie's survival to Salt Lake City in part 1, and then fought like hell to save her at the end of the game even though it would potentially cost the vaccine. This is also what sealed his fate. Debate about rather or not this was the right thing to do aside, he saved Ellie's life.

So, when she's helpless to return the favor, especially after they've made plans to try to patch things up, she gets caught up in avenging her perceived failure. She is fixated on the part of Joel that was fearless and did things like torture and kill people. The Joel before their falling out. These memories and thoughts help motivate her to carry out the revenge plot.

It's only when she remembers her final memory of Joel - the caring parental figure who prioritized and jeopardized everything just to save a kid he'd grown attached to, that she realizes that Joel probably wouldn't want this. Lev is a kid who, like Ellie, lost everything - mother, sister/best friend, and community. No matter how oppressive Seraphite culture or F.E.D.R.A QZs are, that was all Lev and Ellie knew, and it hurt to essentially be ran out even if it was ultimately for the best. Abby is like Joel - dangerous, lethal, hardened, and fiercely protective. When the first thing Abby does after being freed from her restraints by Ellie is to save Lev and cradle him, that's when it starts to click for Ellie, that much like how Joel's chosen purpose became to protect Ellie, Abby's chosen purpose is to protect Lev.

It's also why Ellie threatening Lev's life in order to get Abby to fight her is also symbolic. On this trip Ellie has become extremely detached from who she was before Joel's death. Lev in this context represents the Ellie we knew before all of this happened, so Ellie threatening Lev, an innocent child that has nothing to do with Abby and Ellie's fight and was even the reason why Abby let Dina live earlier in the game, symbolizes the risk of her going beyond the point of no return: that she will loose herself. Become unrecognizable. She's not just holding a knife to Lev, but to her old self.

But, when she recollects that final memory of Joel, that was so full of warmth, how he said he would save her all over again if given another chance even though he knew they would still eventually fallout, because he cares about her and wants her to be able to live her life on her terms, she remembers that Abby is doing that for Lev, and that just like herself, Lev deserves someone who will fight for him.

And that honors Joel memory more than killing Abby would have.

Happy Birthday, Sensei Lloyd!!

I usually don't post my sketches because they're ugly and so different from my finished artworks, but I had to scramble something together for my beloved darling's big day 🥹💚 get some rest, Master!

Also for the people who can spot my Northern Lights easter egg; I love you ♡

Wedding Day

Chained Together

polybeasts but in the sense that they've always been all they've ever had, all they had in the tree was each other and grew incredibly codependent but yet they're still lonely because they don't trust each other enough to be vulnerable. nobody knows if they're still a couple anymore but nobody wants to try and say something because they're worried they'll lose everything if they bring it up. they're so important to each other and yet they constantly forget the others exist because they still feel so lonely

tumblr: constantly be aware of your own privilege. constantly be aware of your capacity of be evil. hey i know you really like that new piece of media but make sure you're aware of all of the problematic elements all the time. hey i noticed you reblogged a post from a designated Bad Person so please make sure you do a thorough background check on everyone you reblog from to make sure they're not bad, otherwise people might get the wrong idea about you. always be aware of everything bad that's happening in the world all the time because silence is violence. i see you not reblogging this post btw. activist burnout is a privilege so be aware of that. xyz people are required to reblog this post. if you're not constantly fighting against designated Bad People you are inherently complicit and therefore a Bad Person.

people with ocd:

Day 68! loser

i had sooooo much fun drawing this lol!! thanks to everyone who voted for geno on the sexyman poll.. you guys are real ones🗣‼️