alizahawthorne

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may 27, 2025

his smile is so perfect. crooked and smug, but perfect for him.

may 26, 2025

i’ve sworn for years we’re connected. because every time you come i can sense it. see it in the dark, hear it a million miles away. not only love swirls between us; raw want drags us back together over and over again.

may 25, 2025

i yearn for destruction of myself.

may 24, 2025

i have nothing to say anymore.

may 23, 2025

i can see you falling away from the man i know.

may 22, 2025

desire is such an ugly thing. pure want disguised in wandering fingertips, fingers laced in hair, and glazed over eyes.

may 21, 2025

i would rather bite off my own fingers, rip all my tendons, or claw out my insides than stay here in the prison you’ve forced me to.

may 20, 2025

if i watch you build a life with another woman, i will blind myself.

may 19, 2025

i smell the rain and all of a sudden i’m back with you in the city. the city where even with sirens, thousands of people, and too little square footage, we made a life.

may 18, 2025

i can feel it in the way your lips meet mine. your love for me is waning.

may 17, 2025

she looks like me, talks like me, acts like me. and i know you can’t stand that she’s still not quite me.

may 16, 2026

i do believe it would have been easier to have you ripped from me. because you’re still here, but i’m watching you undo the threads at a snails pace.

may 15, 2025

when i see you now you look very bit like the man i knew years ago except for your eyes. your eyes carry a millennia of pain, passion, and everything in between.

may 14, 2025

i wrote all day trying to string together a sentence but i simply cannot. there are no words, feelings or colors to describe the pain you cause me.

may 13, 2025

people tell me i will survive. that i won’t be able to remember this one day. that i will get over it. and maybe i will. but i will not forget. my blood, and my bones, and my cells, and my sprint won’t let me. they will never let me recover from you.

may 12, 2025

i scream. i scream so loud. i scream so that my ears are ringing and my jaw hurts. i scream so that tears well up in my sad eyes. i scream my life away. for no one to hear a thing.

may 11, 2025

you watch as the tall, mighty flame that i once was drowns in your cruel, unforgiving flood. and you enjoy watching all my glory turn to nothing but blackened scars.

may 10, 2025

i believe i was a brilliant poet lifetimes ago. but now the words fall from my lips all wrong.

may 9, 2025

peace seems so far away now. like it didn’t happen this lifetime but a thousand years ago.

may 8, 2025

the bed groans under you weight as you slip in bed. warning me that it’s not just me, but that you smell like another woman.

may 7, 2025

thank you mother, for uprooting my life for your own convenience.

may 6, 2025

you touch me just right and change my definition of holy.

may 5, 2025

i rip open my stitches each time you stumble back into my life. even though i know i will cry tonight as i stitch them up after you leave.

may 4, 2025

no matter how high i jump, how fast i run, how many cities i pass through, how many dollars i spend; i will always end up staring right back at you.

may 3, 2025

i have a feeling that in the next fifty women you undress, all you will be able to see is that they are not, and could never be me.

may 2, 2025

someday this same version of me will come sprinting back to my memory. only then will i see that her heart is out of her chest and she’s beginning to bleed out.

may 1, 2025

may is here and i swear yesterday was only january 7th.

april 30, 2025

the woman after me will see my poem engraved in your head, and the scars i left on you from clawing my way out of your wrath. only then will she realize she is far gone.

april 29, 2025

i’ll pray to little orange bottles or stuffy waiting rooms if it meant you would just get better.

april 28, 2025

my hands dig into your thorns because i swear they look just like your flushed cheeks.