Alyvas - WILDFLOWER. ᥫ᭡

am i the only one who hates having any sort of time off? when i'm working i can't wait for a little time to myself, but now that i'm not booked and busy like i have been i have no idea what to do with my free time. do you have any recommendations of places to travel or things to do? i've tried to think of things to do, but i'm drawing a blank. @ayodebiris

i would hope so. then again it took the longest time for me to convince my dad to get rid of his iphone 5. he was stuck to that thing like glue. this is why you are among one of the very few artist in this world who deserve to be famous. you care about everyone above the money and the ticket sales, and it definitely shows. i wish there was a way to group everyone into the same room. i know people wouldn't mind standing shoulder to shoulder for a chance to watch you perform. stop— you are so cute! to have a hug from the legend herself would cure all of my seasonal depression. that is so kind of you. i would definitely love to bring her along, and i'm sure she'd more than thankful to be anywhere. she's not a hard woman to please, even if she does hate crowds. i knew you were cool, and the fact that you love jazz and blues just cements that. i grew up on it too, mainly because of my dad, so he'd be pretty excited to know that others feel the same way. he's convinced that old school is dead, but it's very much alive, and you can see it in a lot of newer music these days. wait until he finds out you know of his band. my apologies in advance if he tries to persuade you to let them open for you. tell me about it. the 80's was such a great era, and i'm so sad i wasn't born during that time.

Thankfully, I think most of us are beyond the age of 3G in the so-called free world. It's hard to say what is and isn't happening beyond closed doors, what with the amount of NDAs that we all have to sign, but hopefully we'll turn a corner where people feel they're being treated more fairly in the ticket queue. I wish I could fit all of my little monsters into the one room, arena, stadium – whatever. !!!!! Oh my goodness, that's so exciting. Let me know if it happens and we can finally hug in person and you can let me know if the show lives up to the hype. If your mom isn't big on crowds, we can definitely make sure you're in a non-crowded area, lovely. Blues! I love it, and I love old school. A lot of people don't believe that but I grew up loving jazz, myself, although really I loved all music. Oh, Cosmic Spice? What a great name. You know, I think the '80s might have been our best era of music. I can't wait to meet him! All of them, honestly.

those people don't matter. the only person that matters is you, and you've always treated me like i was the most important thing to you, and that means more to me than you will ever know. you made it very difficult not to fall in love with you, and let me tell you i tried not to. i was afraid i'd get hurt again, and i deprived myself of years of happiness because of that fear. i don't want that fear to define my future or my happiness anymore. i just know that i want you. if you will have me. that future that you see for yourself? i see it too. a beautiful gothic wedding, a couple of blonde haired, blue eyed babies that look just like you. it's very achievable, and i'm so willing to give you that life.

Yeah? I'm happy to hear that I've always made you feel like a queen when you're with me, darling, because that's how you should always feel. Plus, you know how much it pisses me off when I think about all the people that have treated you poorly or haven't treated you like you deserved to be treated. And you should never be made to feel like a last option, you know that, love. Well, I don't think the rest of the world would be ready if I showed up wearing nothing at all, darling, so we'll keep that for your eyes only. You're the best hype woman, there's no doubt about that, and you always make me feel more sure of myself. You love my ears? Though I approve of you thinking they're nibble-worthy, of course. I'd say the same for me, but I've not been lying to myself. I've known what I've felt for you, I just haven't felt like I could tell you because it would ruin things. And that's what I told myself, that I'd rather have you in whatever way I could than not have you at all, so I'd just shut up and take whatever you were willing to give. I just didn't think you saw me as anything more than your friend Jamie, who made you feel better sometimes, you know? But it makes me happy hearing I'm the person you always come to when you're happy or you get good news, and very happy I'm who you come to for comfort. You've been my person for years now, darling, that's something I've known and honestly accepted a while ago. I do the same thing when it comes to my future, and I'll admit I've been thinking about my future and settling down a lot, and you're who I see that with. Until now I just told myself it was an unachievable dream.

lexa will always follow me throughout my entire career, and i'm glad that it does. the fact that she still means something to the fans brings me so much joy. it's always been my goal as an actress to leave a positive mark on my audience, regardless of what i'm doing, and to know that i have means so much to me. it reminds me why i do this in the first place. ahh— just breaking ground! you will have to keep me updated on what you think as you progress in the series. i want to know what you think of alicia's character development. the world isn't ready for what we're about to bring to the table. we've only just begun.

Oh, I love that you brought up Lexa, because yes, that character meant something. Still does. The impact she had on the LGBTQ+ community is beyond words, and it speaks volumes about what you brought to her. I remember the rage I had when they killed her off. I’m officially on season 3! Slowly but surely. I’m trying really hard not to Google anything because I don’t want to get spoiled, but the urge is real. And yes, it’s surreal looking back. So cheers to the growth, and to us being part of the kind of storytelling that leaves its mark.

alycia: this is difficult because we both share the same views about most things. do you have a silly little thing that you are passionate about? like a fashion choice? a favorite food? something we can argue about and i can witness this flail first hand. ba dum tsss. i love that for you. i know you have been through some things in your life, so you getting all of this love is exactly what you deserve. alycia: it irritates me too. it makes having friends of the opposite sex more difficult. i grew up with a brother so i naturally get along better with men then i do women, and not being able to just hang out with them platonically is difficult. i respect how private you are about that. you leave no room for the outside world to put their two cents in, and i have no doubt that when you finally do have someone, or if you do already, they will be well taken care of because you won't let the world rip them to shreds. oh my god, it was brutal. i was told i was using him, that he was using me to cover up who his real love was. i was just thinking to myself, "holy shit! i never met this guy!" 🤣🤣 alycia: i can't wait! i know kaitlyn talked about working with you when we were filming apple cider. she had nothing but amazing things to say, but it was nothing i didn't already know. it's kind of romcom-ish? i always wanted to do a romcom, so i was pretty excited for the opportunity to do something like this. and there have been new developments in my career since the last exchange and you are now looking at the new face of the godzilla universe. 🤗

pedro: what should we be arguing about then, missy? we'll have to pick something i'm passionate about and you bet my hands will be heavily animated during it. i'm in a really happy place with my life, so i feel very loved and spoiled every single day. i know not everyone is that lucky, so i don't take it for granted. pedro: i know that's the way it goes, but it still irritates me. especially when they bring that bullshit into red carpets when i'm trying to work and promote my projects. this is why i don't talk about my relationships publicly. some people just can't be normal and i'd rather not deal with that. i can just imagine what your comment section looked like. fangirls are brutal, some close to psychotic and it's never fun to be on the receiving end of that. pedro: the seasons are like my children, i can't choose between them but i will say the team did an amazing job bringing this season together. very proud of everyone for the work they've done. here's hoping the fans and you feel similar. that sounds like a very fun, modern idea for a film and i'll make sure to watch it when it's out. one more thing on my pile of things to watch. one thing i learned while being a struggling actor for most of my twenties and thirties was that when you have faith, in yourself and what you bring to the table, things will eventually work out. hard work does pay off, at least in my experience.

you have a castle? i'm jealous. i've always wanted to live in a castle. to be a princess of my own castle would be the dream. i love hearing you talk about her in such a positive light. i know she is the most loved with you and your little one, and the fact that you feel so complete now is so romantic. i think moving back to australia full time and settling down would be a full circle moment for me. i want to be able to do a lot more work back home, so i'm working real hard to get aussie media back on that map so that becomes a reality.

I don't know, you may know, you may not but Dakota and I got a castle this year. I made sure it checked every last box for her and as well me. I still getting use to it, but Im liking calling myself the lord of the manor. You might think this is very braggard of me and you are right but I swear there is a point. I grew up on the grounds of a abandoned castle with my single mom and brother, barely meeting ends meet. Now my life has come truly full circle. Beautiful and talented wife and well the most beautiful little one. Anything you've played the long game on? Whether it's a goal or something that came full circle in your life?

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alycia: i think so too. nothing wrong with stepping away as long as you all come back to each other. you boys always seemed to have such a good friendship. i never thought the break was a permanent one. that is the one. it was definitely such a unique project to work on, especially since the whole controversy surrounding the show was so big in australia for the longest time.

luke: not so bad though. we seems to work good as a team. at least so far. already 10+ years in and nobody has walked yet. apple cider vinegar, right? started that a couple weeks ago.

alycia: likewise. i feel like working on a new album is special update worthy. i bet all the fans are super excited about that after you've all sort of done your own thing for a while. i'm sure it's gonna be amazing, and i can't wait to hear whatever you guys cook up. not a whole lot on my end. i've just been a busy little bee work wise. i think the newest, biggest news i've gotten so far is that i've been cast in the new godzilla vs. kong film.

luke: aye, good to hear from you. i'm good and the family is good. don't really have any special updates except that i'm working on the next 5SOS album. should be dropping that sometime in the later year/next year. what about you? what's happening in your world?

debnamcarey: some things just come outta nowhere that got you like 🥴😬😂