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His Inheritance Masterlist

Pairing: Mobster Steve Rogers x Mobster daughter reader

Warnings: References to mafia families. References to arranged marriage. Coercion. This is a dark fic. Please read responsibly.

Summary: For @alexakeyloveloki. Your father is the head of one of the most powerful crime families in Boston but he’s protected you from that life. In your quiet home outside the city, you’ve been cared for and protected. When the desires of a more powerful man with the will to dominate bursts into your life, all your illusions are shattered as he comes to claim what is his.

Part 1: Hidden Gems

Part 2: Rapunzel

Part 3: Homecoming

Part 4: Whispers

Part 5: Sealed with a Kiss

Part 6: What We Need

Part 7: A Charade

Part 8: Reckoning

Part 9: High Stakes

Part 10: Temptress

Part 11: Union of the Snake

Part 12: Something Borrowed

Part 13: Kiss the Bride 

Part 14: Negotiations & Promises

Part 15: The Wedding Present

Just found out that MAGA fiction was a thing. 😳🤨🙃😆😂🤣

《 𝐏𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭-𝐓𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐟𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 》

𝐁𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐲 𝐁𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐬 𝐱 𝐭𝐞𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐫!𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐀𝐔

➵ 𝐒𝐮𝐦𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐲 | James Barnes, a widowed single dad, had forgotten what love felt like and let it crush him, taking his daughter, Rebecca, with him. He was cold, rude, and arrogant, being one of the few teachers at Westview High School the students seemed to absolutely despise. But when you show up, a hopeful math teacher who’d previously taught Rebecca’s kindergarten class, and are adored by your students and colleagues- James’s attitude starts to change.

➵ 𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠 | widowed!dad!teacher!Bucky Barnes x teacher!reader

➵ 𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬 | enemies to lovers trope, a dash of smut (18+), language, widowed Bucky, Bucky is called James throughout, a common theme of grief, loss, anxiety, anger, slight depression, disability (Bucky’s arm). A few familiar names. THIS IS AN AU AND HAS NO CONNECTION TO THE MCU/MOST THINGS THAT ARE CANON. IF YOU ARE UNDER 18 AND FOLLOW ME, YOU WILL BE BLOCKED.

დ 𝐦𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 | დ 𝐛𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐬𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐭 | დ 𝐤𝐨-𝐟𝐢

Chapter I- Becca’s Biggest Secret

Chapter II- Butterflies

Chapter III- Unofficial

Chapter IV- Coffee Date

Chapter V- Starting Over

Chapter VI- Epilogue

In Memoriam (Dark! Steve, Bucky & Sam x Reader) Masterlist

Summary: After the death of your grandmother you make a trip to visit her old estate, and you discover it may be more trouble than it’s worth.

Warnings: Noncon/Rape, ghosts, smut, bondage, thigh riding, spanking, rough sex, oral sex, over stimulation, mentions of death, allusions of abuse. 18+ only peeps, it’s obviously dark.

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

request for @fandom-princess-forevermore

Bucky Barnes + 🦾

Coming In Hot — Masterlist

— Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Fem!Reader — Summary: When your best friend Sarah recommends you a mechanic of her brother’s trust, all you can think about and pray to is that he doesn’t rip you off. Your car is your prized possession and amidst all the worry and concern of your medical studies, drowning in even more debt sounds as suffocating as it would be. Of course, you never thought of the possibility of the mechanic being the problem. A hot, polite, gentle, and silent-type of problem. Drowning in debt would be easier to navigate than the blue of Bucky Barnes’s eyes. — Word count: 70.9k — Warning(s): Explicit language, angst (a little), explicit sex (Chapter 10). — A/n: If you enjoy it, feedback is appreciated & highly encouraged and motivates me to write even more. You can consider supporting me on Ko-Fi, as well. Mistakes/errors might be here, let me know if you find any.

Chapter One (15/09)

Chapter Two (17/09)

Chapter Three (20/09)

Chapter Four (25/09)

Chapter Five (29/09)

Chapter Six (01/10)

Chapter Seven (05/10)

Chapter Eight (08/10)

Chapter Nine (13/10)

♫ Soundtrack Inspiration: Coming In Hot, by Adam Lambert

Coming In Hot ♫ Official Playlist

DRABBLES

Bronte's Moment (06/10 — Post Chap. 7)

Lightning Grease (23/11 — Post Chap. 9)

Red Wine and Weed (24/11 — Post Chap. 9)

All You Need Is Love Challenge!

Love has been the topic of all forms of art throughout the ages; and for our first ever challenge, we’ve pulled together some favorites to inspire stories about our beloved MCU characters!

A very special thank you to all those who shared content that means a lot to them for us to include: @ozarkthedog​​, @thecornerlot​​, @wayward-blonde​​, @adorecevans​​, @a-little-counter-esperanto​​, and @sidepartskinnyjeans​​ - your help is so appreciated!

See below the cut for guidelines and prompts - we can’t wait to see what you do!

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Caught In The Fire Masterlist [Mobster! Bucky Barnes x Reader]

Summary: In a city ruled by gangsters, nothing is ever simple.

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ARCHIVE YOUR FIC ON AO3 FOR ETERNAL GLORY

It physically pains me to see people post awesome fanfiction to tumblr and nowhere else. Tumblr moves so fast! By tomorrow people who didn’t look in a tag at the right moment won’t know it existed. By next week even people who did read it won’t be able to find it back to reread. Finding anything on tumblr via search function is practically a fluke. For all intents and purposes, your hard work has a halflife of about a week at most.

PUT YOUR WORK ON AO3 WHERE IT CAN LIVE ETERNALLY, I BEG YOU

People who come into that fandom in a month, a year, even a decade will be able to find your work!

People can bookmark it!

People can rec it to others!

People can reread it into infinity! (and people like me can do that and comment every time!)

You can get comments & kudos until the endtimes because people will keep finding your work! (seriously I still sometimes get new people finding and loving my work from ~2013)

And best of all, people can SUBSCRIBE to your work so they will get email about new chapters and stories! (I’m seeing people do manual ‘Tag you in the next chapter’ lists and seriously, physical pain, this wheel has already been invented and it is rolling beautifully)

PLEASE LET ME BOOKMARK YOUR FIC I BEG YOU

“But I need an invite for AO3!”

Yes, and the waiting list is currently 2-3 days. That’s hardly worth not doing this for, right?

“But I only read fic, I don’t post it”

here is a post on why having an account just to read fic is also very worth it!

Lately I’ve been the tumblr person who jumps onto people who post cool fic to tumblr and going HEY HAVE YOU POSTED THIS TO AO3, YOU REALLY SHOULD, HIT ME UP FOR AN INVITE CODE and I hereby invite all you fellow fic readers and posters to join me into spreading the good word.

Please reblog this and tag your favourite fandoms and pairings! Spread this post to the people who need to see it! Save great fic from the tumblr void!

Okay but who was gonna tell me about this 2009 West Side Story photo shoot?

Like, yes, that is Chris Evans as Riff dancing with Ashley Tisdale. And, naturally, Drake Bell and Robert Pattinson are Jets in the background…. and Ben Barnes as Tony and Jennifer Lopez as Anita.

This image is both an incredible recreation of the original shot and an incredibly dynamic photograph in its own right. I’m still fucking baffled by why this exists.

🤣

@yeahitsak

Goddammit I love Chris's mildly pissed face, like YAAAS GET ANGRY HOE

(GIF cred: @capsgrantrogers )

(There was a moment in Bill Maher's show as well but I can't find the GIF😅)

Edit 1: @wayward-blonde @sweater-daddiesdumbdork , I found the video you were talking about!! Super sexy low voice Evans ufffffff

Cap Squad ✨

Bucky Barnes - Master List

I don’t give consent for my work, translated or used in parts to be posted on any other platform, even if I am ‘credited’ for it.

Notes:

Warnings listed accordingly

All fics are complete (unless otherwise stated)

Fics will be duplicated on here and other relevant master lists.

Warnings (detailed warnings on fics) -

🥰Fluff // 💔Angst // 💀Death // 🤬Language // 🔞Smut // 💋Cheating // 👊🏻Violence // 🍺Alcoholism // 🥵Implied Smut // ⚠Trigger Warning

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Holiday Challenge

Since it’s the Holiday’s I thought why not do another challenge! These requests will be bumped up to the front of my request list!

This challenge runs from December 1st till December 17th (gmt time)!!!! Any requests sent in before the 1st will be deleted!

There will be pre-written imagines for this;

Sweet Pea/Reader; Dialogue 7 (December 6th)

Veronica Lodge/Reader; Idea 11 (December 14th)

Bucky Barnes/Reader; Idea 5 (December 4th)

Natasha Romanoff/Reader; Song 9 (December 12th)

Fred Weasely/Reader; Dialogue 13 (December 8th)

Theo Raeken/Reader; Song 15 (December 10th)

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Rules: 

Specify it’s for the Holiday Challenge; by using the abbreviation ‘HC’ at the beginning of the request or the ⭐️(star) emoji

Regular Rules Apply 

Requests must be from the ones listed below, or simply putting a ⭐️ and a ship (either character/character or reader/character) and letting me run wild with it

Specify which list a number is from (Song, Idea, Dialogue) having just a number will be deleted

Request Format: 

⭐️ Reader/Stiles Stilinski

HC Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes

⭐️ 5 from songs; Reader/Sweet Pea

HC 7 from the prompt list and 3 from the songs for Reader/Theo Raeken

⭐️ 5 from prompts; Reader/Steve Rogers, reader proposes

HC 15 from the songs for Sweet Pea/Fangs; Fangs serenades Sweet Pea

Prompts:

Ideas:

Going to a Christmas party and getting stuck under the mistletoe

Having crushes on each other and getting stuck under the mistletoe

Baking Christmas cookies together

Meeting each others family for the first time

Holiday proposal

Marathoning cheesy holiday movies

After a disastrous attempt to set up decorations/have a meal alone character/reader shows up to help

Getting snowed in

Holiday pregnancy announcement

Home Alone style trapped in the wrong city over the holidays

Reader/Character ends up stuck in a small town and relearns the magic of the holidays (hallmark movie style)

This is the only place open and I need coffee/a drink

A fight leads to someone storming off, return just in time to celebrate

Fake dating to get family off of character/reader’s back

Having to be each others secret santa’s

Songs: Feel free to specify a specific artist if you want

Baby It’s cold outside

All I want for Christmas is you

I saw mommy kissing Santa Claus

Santa Baby

I’ll be home for Christmas

White Christmas

Rocking around the Christmas Tree

Christmas (Baby Please come home)

Happy Christmas (War is Over)

Have yourself a Merry Little Christmas

Last Christmas

Fairytale of New York

Two queens in a king sized bed

This is Christmas

Santa Tell Me

Dialogue:

“When I said Christmas surprise this isn’t what I had in mind.”

“Are you really dressing up as Santa for the whole day?”

“Nightmare before Christmas is not a Christmas movie!” “It has Christmas in the name.”

“No I was supposed to bring Turkey, you were supposed to bring cookies!”

“Merry Christmas to all and to-” “If you finish that quote I’m going to smack you I’ve had to watch that for the past month..”

“Merry Christmas?” “You don’t get to say that after what’s happened!”

“I’ve decided I’m not going home for the holidays.”

“This is the only shop open, please tell me you have some wrapping paper..”

“Is this an okay Christmas present?” “It’s so much better than I thought”

“A little weird it’s going to be our last Christmas alone, soon we’ll have another little stocking up there.” “It might not be; I’m in labour.”

“I hope whatever was in that box wasn’t expensive”

“Happy holi-gay. day! I mean day! Happy holidays!”

“Please tell me we didn’t sleep together at the work holiday party”  “Why else would we be naked in bed together?”

“My parents will love you! they’ve forgotten all about last Christmas!”

“I thought you forgot to get me a gift…” “How could I forget the most important gift of all?”

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Budding Romance

Pairing: Beefy Florist!Bucky Barnes x Female Reader Summary: Your first date with Bucky is just the start of your passionate love story. Word Count: Over 3.3k Warnings: Explicit sexual content, semi-public grinding/knee riding, dirty talk, swearing, fluff and some feels (it’s me), beefy florist!Bucky Barnes (he’s a warning, okay?) A/N: Hello, lovelies! Tumblr jail won’t keep me from sharing my writing. I’m falling in love with Beefy Florist!Bucky Barnes and want you to do the same. Beta read by the wonderful @whisperlullaby ​ but any and all mistakes are my own. Thank you, lovely! Moodboard created by yours truly. Divider by the beautiful @firefly-graphics and banners by the lovely @its-just-may .

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It was Saturday night and you were convinced that the universe was playing tricks on you. No way did you have a date with Bucky Barnes. You were still shocked that the gorgeous, massive florist asked you out. You checked your phone all day, half expecting him to cancel. But it was almost time for him to pick you up and he didn’t seem like the type to bail. 

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Pirate Dividers

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Requested by @marco--the--phoenix

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Love it all!!!

reasons bucky barnes is too good for this world collected from both the mcu and comics, feel free to add if you like 

as the winter soldier he botched a shot because a little girl got in his line of fire

his first christmas as himself again he gave a wad of cash to a homeless vietnam vet 

after the events in washington d.c. he returned to his handlers but didn’t kill them (just beat ‘em up a little) bc he didn’t want to spill anymore blood 

he got really emotional when the young avengers patriot, hawkeye, and vision saluted him and said it was an honor to work with him 

once told off one of his soviet handlers for suggesting that the black widow belonged to anyone

visits his little sister at the alzheimer’s hospital where she lives 

has actually uttered the words “holy cow” on screen 

wanted to be a park ranger

saw Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs in theaters with his dad and little sister 

actually put his hair in a manbun and wore an apron over his uniform to make eggs and bacon for himself and steve

builds model spaceships while living on a spaceship in space 

adopted a space aardvark he found in chains, scared, and alone

also adopted a tiny child who has been known to be an actual menace bc she had been used as a weapon and he knows what that’s like 

his name is literally “bucky barnes” 

plums???

lives by the code W.W.S.D. (What Would Steve Do) when things are looking tricky 

sat with a couple of kids on the fourth of july to watch the fireworks while eating a red, white, and blue popsicle 

Compliance - Chapters list

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Summary:  You’re just a history teacher trying to do your job after America is shaken to its core by a change in regime. Unfortunately, one single act of defiance puts you on Hydra’s Supreme Leader, Steve Rogers’ radar. The man who turned America into a fascist, dystopian hell. The man you despise with every fiber of your being.

Pairing: Hydra Supreme! Steve Rogers x Black! teacher! Reader

Warnings: Dark fic, Non-con, Kidnapping, Abuse, Isolation, Forced relationship, Obsessive and evil Steve, Dystopia

Rating: Explicit, 18+

A/N: I posted this fic on ao3 first. I’m only making sure it’s also on my tumblr. Steve is very dark and villainous in this… if it’s not your cuppa, DNI.

My other works are listed here.

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Chapter 11

Chapter 12

Chapter 13

Chapter 14

Chapter 15

Chapter 16

Chapter 17

Chapter 18

Chapter 19

Chapter 20

Sorting himself out after a little fun before the shoot 😏

Your panties are tucked in his back pocket and he's trying to hide his grin because he knows that he left you breathless and trembling in his dressing room.

Chris would fuck you hard and make you cream on his dick to the point where you’re trying to run away from it. Then he’d pin you down to make you take it. He wouldn’t even care that he made you all over stimulated. Then he’d rub it in by threatening you to be a good slut and take his dick or else he’ll make it even worse later.

So pretty, hope I can finish one of my stories so I can use them.

Dragonfly Dividers - Part One

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Requested by @liebs82 - hope you like them, more are on the way!

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anthonymackie: @/imsebastianstan remember that time I had to tell I love you from 2 meters away?! Happy Birthday Playa... you are truly the vanilla ice cream to my ice cream sandwich. #AvengerBoyzForLife

𝕄𝔸𝕊𝕋𝔼ℝ𝕃𝕀𝕊𝕋

Hello gents and ladies and non-binary daisies! 💕 Welcome to my blog, a patchwork of things I love. It’s messy but that’s just a personification of me so don’t let that stop you! I hope you have a good time here, good enough you decide to revisit me later again and again.🥂

Thanks for taking the time to check it out. 

First fic date: 6 Dec 2020 11:50 PM

The fics ahead may contain non-con, dub-con and smut not suitable for minors. Each fic has its own warning so please read them before indulgence.

Good health to all.

Also,  I bet that sometimes you actually wake up flawless.

STEVE ROGERS MASTERLIST:

BUCKY BARNES MASTERLIST

Ransom Drysdale:

Catching Up ~ Drabble

Mentions of non con, drugging, no actual smut

Summary: Ransom rarely gets a hold of you and this time he isn’t letting go.

Peter Parker: 

Devout Worshipper ~ One shot/fic (30 Dec 2020)

Student Teacher AU, God-disciple complex 

 Non-con, Kidnapping, Possible Drugging, Unhealthy Obsession

Summary:  The best of all the educators yet, both smart and stunning, became Peter’s mentor in university. Peter grew too much of a liking for her, from a clingy scholar to her devout worshipper.

Steve Rogers and Bucky Barnes:

So We Meet Again ~ Requested Drabble

CEO AU

Non-con, Mental breakdown, spiking a drink.

Summary: Reader tries to escape her past but it’s harder when your past includes dangerous men.

Chris Evans:

Misplaced Theatrics ~ One shot

RPF (duh)

Warning: Non-Con, RPF, Breaking and Entering

Summary: You realise too late that the lines between acting and reality have blurred between you and your co-star

This story was so good, like damn!

Not Slippery Enough

Pairing: Gray!Bucky Barnes x Black Reader (18+)

Summary: You leave Bucky one night after finding out that you’re pregnant and return to your hometown. After a few months of thinking that Bucky has let you go, he makes an appearance at your neighborhood block party and reminds you that you can never get away from him.

Warnings: forced pregnancy, stalking, maybe a cuss word or two

Word Count: > 1,300

A/N: So this is my first dark/gray full fic and im really nervous about it lol It’s based on this ask that I sent the lovely @sapphirescrolls​ and a big thanks to @mariahthelioness29​ for everything!!!!! (you should check out both of their masterlists! you won’t regret it!)

✨I don’t give anyone permission to copy/translate/repost/rewrite my work. Minors, DNI at all. ✨

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I will never be over this ✨😌✨

THIS VIDEO 😭😭😭

Like his music

Summary: You and Bucky argue again, solving it the way you both know works best.

Pairing: Rockstar!Bucky Barnes x Reader

Words: 602

Warnings: language, toxic relationship/behaviour, violence (slapping), rough smut/sexy times. 18+ only. Please heed the warnings - if this makes you uncomfortable then click away. YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOUR OWN MEDIA CONSUMPTION.

Disclaimer: I do not give anyone permission to take, repost, copy or translate my stories, regardless of whether or not they are credited. This blog and all works associated with are 18+ only. Minors please do not interact or follow.

A/N: For my lovely mutual @slothspaghettiwrites because she begged so sweetly. Also, I’ve never written rockstar!Bucky before. I hate this, but out it goes.

Main Masterlist / Bucky Barnes Masterlist

Sex with Bucky is been much like his music - loud, messy and exciting.

Too bad he was a fucking asshole.

“You’re a massive bitch, you know that?”

“Says the guy who just throat punched his own manager.”

Bucky hisses as you drag your nails down his tatted back, the newest addition of black ink still sore to the touch. “Didn’t like the way he was lookin’ at you.”

The sinking of Bucky’s teeth into your neck has you suddenly crying out in pain, the back of your head hitting the door. Your vision turns red as you feel him smugly smile against your bruised skin.

Fucker never leaves you alone long enough to heal.

“Besides,” he snarks between bites, “you didn’t hear me fuckin’ whine when you dragged that groupie outta the meet n’ greet two days ago.”

A furious snarl escapes you - how dare he.

Quietly a hand moves away from his latest tattoo to briefly tangle itself in his thick locks - still sweat soaked from his concert earlier - before sharply yanking, and you relish the pained grunt he lets out.

Your pleasure is short lived upon seeing his blood stained teeth, your smile quickly falling - the bastard had the audacity to bite you, that god damned smirk still plastered on his face.

A quick slap is enough to wipe it off.

It stuns him for only a moment.

You watch a range of emotions flit across his face as Bucky’s head slowly moves back, irises almost completely black, the silence broken only by the minute clinking of his dog tags. Your breath hitches as his gaze burns into yours - before he was angry, now he’s downright pissed.

“You crazy bitch,” he spits. “That really how you wanna play this, huh?”

He strikes, viper fast, and a hand snakes its way under your dress, metal signets leaving goosebumps along your thighs as his calloused fingers move upwards. It takes only a few seconds for you to free his cock from his jeans as he hastily shoves your underwear to the side. He doesn’t check to see if you’re ready - the wet patch he felt on your panties was proof enough.

“Here’s your fuckin’ attitude check.”

Another set of rings digs into the back of your neck as he fiercely pulls your mouth to his, swallowing your stuttered moans as he thrusts home.

“Jesus,” he groans, adjusting his grip on your thigh. He verbalises every filthy thought, pinks lips brushing their compliments against your face.

I’m never leaving you again without fucking you first, Princess.

Biggest mistake I coulda made today, missin’ out on this pussy.

This all it takes to put you back in your place, Doll Baby?

Call yourself a hypocrite, but it was the last sentence that was your undoing. Coupled with the rolling of his hips, you had no hope of staving off your impending orgasm.

You ain’t his, Princess. You can’t enjoy anyone else the way you enjoy this.

The rockstar eventually finds his own release, shouting and cursing into your shoulder as you hang on to the last remnants of your second orgasm for the night.

The moment you both break apart to breathe, your tongue darts out to wet your lips in satisfaction. Bucky looks every bit the hot mess that many rockstars are - strands of hair stuck to his face, chest heaving raggedly as his wild eyes follow the movement.

In a way, sex with Bucky will always be much like his music.

Guess it’s a good thing you love rock.

"Broken Connection"

Quick Fic - Soulmate AU

Characters: Bucky Barnes

Posted: Mar 30th

A/N: this popped in my head AND I AM SO SORRY. Also, I need to work on titles. Ugh.

WARNINGS: angst? ANGST??

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They say that the first emotion you shared with your soulmate was one that would rock your entire being. 

Bucky was grateful he had never felt it. 

Of course, he had been in and out of time so the thought of having a soulmate was the furthest thing from his mind.

Fear and loneliness were a constant for him and he would hate to have someone feel that. They said that some had their soulmate born at the wrong time. He figured it was like this for him, it made sense, he had been on ice for the longest time. 

Then there were times when he would be walking along, Steve and Sam having dragged him out of his hidey hole and into the sun, moments that made him pause. He would turn his face into the sun, let the warmth sink into his skin and his breath would catch.

"They say that some can talk with their soulmates before even meeting."

"That what happen with Tony?" 

Sam smiled at Steve as he shoved a hot dog into Bucky's hand. "That's what he claims.

"Can you imagine?"

Bucky shoved the dog into his mouth. God he hoped not. He had enough voices in his head.

He wondered what song it was that was stuck in his head, where had he heard it? Maybe Natalia had sung it. Confusion swamped him and he blinked at the bright rays of sun that blinded him.

"Tony says that Pepper was on the verge of marrying someone else."

That wasn't unheard of. Many had relationships before meeting their soulmates. Some married and had full lives before meeting their other halfs. Bucky wondered, how could you choose? Or was it something that you had no choice in? 

He shook his head, the soft song just barely vague enough that he could not hear the words. He could feel them. He grunted as Steve knocked into him pulling him from his thoughts.

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Pain woke him. 

He was used to pain. It was like a second skin. He reached up and touched his eye gingerly, did he get hit during rough housing with Steve earlier? He grumbled as he swung his legs over the edge, the pang of sadness hit him like a wave and made him stumble. 

His lips hurt and he was certain it hadn't been split, he fumbled till he caught the switch and he stared at his reflection in the mirror. 

Nothing.

He was fine. 

Why did he feel like shit? Like Steve had put him through the ringer. 

"Fucking crazy." 

And there was that song again suddenly. 

And the sadness was stronger and Bucky felt as if the world had turned upside down. 

"Are you real?" He asked quietly, holding his breath, praying he was wrong.

"Oh." Came a soft response. The song halting.

"Oh," he repeated.

His heart clenched and he stumbled back till he hit the wall next to the door. The light quite suddenly too bright in the small bathroom.

He felt- desperation. A sudden clarity and a gnawing pain. A pain that was deeper than physical, the loneliness hit hard and he struggled to breathe. It was her loneliness. Her fear.  He had felt this before. She had felt this… 

"I'm sorry." 

Bucky blinked. It was gone. The pain in his jaw, the feel of a cut lip, the throbbing in his eye. Not only the physical but the sadness that had weighed him down so heavily had lifted and he found he could breathe. 

He took a breath surprised at how easy it was. How his lungs expanded, the ache gone. 

A new ache made his eyes sting, a sob catching in his throat as he slid down the wall, curling in on himself.

He had a soulmate.

One he had never wanted. One he had been grateful to not have.

She was out there. Alone. Hurt. 

She had apologized to him. 

When she was in need of him.

He took in a deep breath, jaw setting in determination. He was going to find her. Even if she didn't want him to. 

“On earth tell me what’s a black life worth A bottle of juice, no excuse the truth hurts”

Tupac