Love That Ianthe Finally Won And Was So Proud To Do Her Big Villain Monologue And Explain How Actually

still not over chapter 13. dorian killing the one person who loved him as something more than just a pretty face because that’s all dorian saw himself as. basil seeing the torture dorian’s soul has endured but still believing he is not yet lost. and the action of killing basil being the point of no return for dorian. only the artist could have helped his art, but the death of the artist leaves his work finished, no matter what.

i would be feral abt t4t paldulcie

adds such a great layer to the ambiguously erotic long distance mentorship situation… dulcinea as a trans elder… i’m frothing at the mouth

SEE i wasn't thinking of Dulcie as a trans elder in this situation, I think Juno Zeta would put her her son on blockers aged 10 and be the kind of mom to have a toddler portrait tattoo redone to be like, still extremely binary but now the baby is dressed in blue with a baseball cap.

specifically I want to explore the experience of being trans and having these kind of... long distance, no faces, text only relationships where you can feel fully affirmed and the disconnect that then exists between your real world experience, and how this interacts with of course also being critically ill and not wanting anyone to see you because of that. the compounded body horror and also then, intimacy when there IS someone you trust to see you sick, see you naked, and the way that interacts with the vulnerability and exhaustion of sickness,

and there's another layer I really want to explore regarding how critical illness i.e. cancer can often impede or slow medical transition while ALSO drastically shortening the time in which one has to make these decisions. to quote my favorite movie "there is still time", but what if there isn't? what is there ISNT time? what if you're dying, and you want to die in the body you want to be remembered in, but you don't know if you'll get there? there's a horror in that. this quote from harrow the ninth:

"“The only thing that ever stopped me being exactly who I wanted,” she said, “was the worry that I would soon be dead … and now I am dead, Reverend Daughter, and I am sick of roses, and I am horny for revenge.”"

i think this would add to Palamedes' like... "i need to cure her i need to save her" and also heighten Dulcinea's rebellious streak (she wants cigarettes!!! she hates roses!!!) while also interacting with how she DID, in fact, decline Palamedes' proposal. she decided to stay where she was. there's so much here. im getting dangerously close to getting really personal here on tumblr dot com but im shaking the bars of my cage

the reverend family and harrow's childhood (based on htn)

if this doesn't happen in alecto im uninstalling

maybe stocks are fucked now but that's only because baru cormorant just got promoted imperial accountant of asia

Straight to the prettiest girl at the party. I admire the aesthetic

INTERVIEW WITH THE VAMPIRE - 1.02 “…After the Phantoms of Your Former Self”

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monologuing to my mother about harrow the ninth act three as she says things like "he should have known better than to eat the soup, there are folk songs about making soup with bone marrow" "I don't think connecting all this body horror with sex indicates a particularly healthy relationship to sexuality" "marina, this book sounds really quite grim" "does harrow ever have a nice time? does she ever sit down, drink some tea--" no actually she hates tea, she doesn't understand flavors "is there anyone she likes spending time with?" there was in the first book but all her memories got erased "I don't think I understand the youth of today"

truly nothing funnier than having an archive of when you first started getting into a media that has since consumed your entire life

i think eventually we're all just gonna have to come to terms with the fact that it's impossible to tell a story with any degree of subtlety or nuance without risking a portion of the audience taking the "wrong message", and that's ok. art isn't meant to be strictly a teaching tool, and if you're goal is just to convince people or critique an idea, just write an essay or a polemic