do it gloriously
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i hate having to go to bed early
what do you mean I don't have time to goon it crazy style to Sabrina Carpenter edits????
re: me watching Dexter
update: I threw up in the middle of class
20th birthday
idk how to feel
will update
damn what was I on lol
my personal experience with DPS and other ramblings
my mother introduced me to the film when I was about 13 or so and I immediately latched onto it and made it part of my personality. i became an extremely pretentious high schooler and would unironically say shit about sucking the marrow out of life (and yes I am embarrassed about it now)
but when I was applying for colleges and I told my mom I wanted to be a theatre major she kinda lost her shit and told me that it was a stupid waste of time and money and i was absolutely GOING THROUGH IT
fast forward to now, I'm a junior in college (theatre major) and I watched DPS with my mom and my brother (his first time watching it) and I realized that my mom fundamentally misunderstood the point of the movie
I will never forget her telling me that she AGREED WITH NEIL'S DAD AND THAT KEATING WAS A DANGEROUS PERSON AND A BAD EDUCATOR
my brother who is into stem and is unappreciative of the arts anyway said that Neil was just kinda stupid and that the movie wasn't that good (????? major side eye on that one but whatever)
i just got so sad for little 17 year old me. she was incredibly sensitive and fragile and I just wonder had my mother been even just slightly harsher about me being a theatre major what would have happened to me?
then a few weeks ago I was talking to my friend. she's the type of person you don't have casual conversations with, you immediately dive into philosophy and morals and art and knowing each other's souls.
we got to the topic of dead poets society and the people who "just don't get it". the people who watch it once and never think about it again. the people who are so content that they are happy to remain stagnant. those who don't yearn for change, or to be known, to make art. those who are content to live and not
Live!!!!
and I'll never understand them and they'll never understand me. and the world will continue on like this. there will be people who stand still and those who can't stop moving
calling all freaks
i want to preface this by saying i'm a LESBO!!
that being said I started watching Dexter and I lowk think he's the ideal man
who up thinking about dead poets society and the fact that you'll never experience it because instead of being born an east coast boy in the 1950's, you're a west coast girl in the 2020's and you've never been to boarding school and yet you feel a deep connection to the film because you too have unsupportive parents and dreams of theatre and poetry and art
boys are evil and don't appreciate art
it's absolutely soul crushing to share a piece of media with someone who doesn't appreciate it. i often find it difficult to connect with my younger brother without having shared media to discuss. so I finally showed him my favorite movie, dead poets society of course, and his reaction was to call Neil stupid and say that the overall film was "ok, kinda funny sometimes". meanwhile I had cried twice and was shaking and sobbing.
it's ok. he's not an artist. it didn't move him the way it moved me and it doesn't have to. and yet I find myself disappointed and upset that he'll never want to "carpe diem" or suck the marrow out of life. that he'll never let out a barbaric yawp or be good REALLY good.
i dunno. just thoughts
i feel like shit
sorry for not posting poetry, creativity well was dry
LEFTY
how Lucky I am to be left-handed
that if my lover and I sat side by side
our hands could meet in the center
as we once were before Zeus's cruel slash
What's your favourite flower(s)?
i luv forget me nots
they're so tiny and delicate and such a pretty color AND have a cute name
ugh shut up no one gaf
i'm baaaackkk
oh what's that? the two most devastating pieces of queer media i obsessed over in high school????????? k don't worry about me i'm FINE
This song is so anderperry itโs crazy. Not sure I love the edit, but I love dps and I love falsettos soooo
hilson is so funny because it's Wilson going "we're not gay" and house going "he's lying btw lol" and simultaneously rsl going "house and Wilson aren't gay it's just bromance and everybody is too obsessed with yaoi" and Hugh Laurie going "house and Wilson probably fuck raw and cuddle afterwards"
and another thing
i feel like aesthetic beauty in men is so rare that like it's almost never that a man is like.... attractive....at all
why do you guys like this
I did it for the bit before I realized there were other options
like
you want that
on purpose
ok
sure
is having crushes on boys real?
cause I genuinely thought it was a bit. like....idk growing up a closet lesbian with parents who hate each other made me think that heterosexual love wasn't real but you deal with it anyway cause that's life. come to find out that some women are obsessed with their boyfriends like...for real...
had to put how the house md fandom views chase into words
wilson is LITERALLY his wife
heโs so pretty i hope nothing horrifically ironic for his profession happens to him
at Welton academy
straight up killing it
and by "it" haha let's justr say
my poets
this may need some work shopping