Small Announcement, Dear Folks! ☝️ Starting Sometime In The Near Future, I Will Begin Posting Weekly

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FALL IS COMING: One of my most favorite times of the year! ❤️🍁 The smell of apple pie, rain & dead leaves is so nostalgic for me, the cardigan weather, coffee & cocoa, totally brings back memories of my family gathered in the kitchen cooking on Thanksgiving, asking to "lick the spoons" & watching the holiday parade. I'm one of those people who catch the holiday spirit & have to start celebrating early! Can't wait til September! If you're following me on instagram be sure to check out my latest mini-blog featuring fall home decor and wardrobe ideas, essentials, recipes, and more! ✌🏻😁

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~ WINSLOW@3AM. ~

Merry Thiccmas 🎄 (🔊)

Tell your favorite person in the world you love them, tomorrow isn't promised...

Finish the song (u should know the lyrics b/c you wrote it):

I saw you bare in the naked forest

You shied away, hid your face

You only come in the night

When the sun's rays fade

The blue skies die

And stars take their place

When the laughter stops

And the tears flow

When hope fails me

And I don't know where to go

I met a being from the heavens

She dried my eyes

& told me that everything would be okay

She only comes in the night

When the living hide away

Slumbering in their warmth

And there we were for just a moment, one

She kissed me like I was oxygen

& she needed to breathe

The woman of my dreams

W O M A N O F M Y D R E A M S

Reblog to help others

Hello. My name is Nica. I want to stay anon until I get comfortable and I‘m not good with new people. But my question is, how do you advise someone to deal with their depression? Do you know any remedies that help with chronic sadness? Or panic attacks? My life isn‘t where I want it to be atm, dealing with a lot of stuff and I don‘t have any friends to talk to or get help from. Sorry if I‘m bothering you in the morning I just saw that you‘re leaving tumblr and it triggered an attack and I feel like crying. You were the one blog I liked and how you helped people and now I don‘t have anybody :/

Omg. No, no, no, you're not bothering me at all, & you're not just going to wake up one day & my account is going to be deactivated. I'll tell you all when I'm leaving & chances are I still won't deactivate, just cause. I'm so, so sorry, I didn't mean to trigger you. It was just an idea I had. I used to have really bad panic attacks to a point were my muscles would hurt for days, I had to be taken in an ambulance & put on meds cause I had them daily for like a month. I wouldn't eat, I was constantly snapping on people & irritated. I turned into someone who isn't me. My family noticed the change & pointed it out & I snapped on them for that. It was that bad. And this was recent, this wasn't like 5 years ago, all this happened LAST year. So I know from experience how difficult & painful what you're going through right now can be.

Even though I still have anxiety sometimes, I learned how to stop the attacks from happening, I don't have them anymore. But before then my doctor wanted to put me in a psych ward, (yeah, he literally recommended that) & I took Xanax (& Zoloft for two days) for a while, then it stopped helping, so he wanted to increase my dose. And I didn't want to become an addict or dependent on meds (I personally don't believe in taking meds for mental illnesses), so one day I just decided "fuck it, I'm not taking anything anymore" & I realized in that moment that the decision I made scared me a fucking lot cause I wasn't going to have anything to run to, but ultimately it was going to help me. I had to hurt & pray A LOT before I got better. While I was going through it I felt so hopeless & lost & I started questioning my faith in God cause I didn't feel like anything was changing, I felt worse tbh. I remember one night I just completely gave up & I drove to my mom's house in the middle of the night cause I didn't know what else to do. We went for a walk & talked until the sun came up. I never call my parents when I'm going through something terrible, I always try to resolve my problems on my own, so if I call them it's serious. But with time I got better. And I'm happier. So I'm living proof that you CAN overcome your biggest demons. My advice to you would be to start slow, you won't get better overnight. It's going to take time & it's going to hurt - I won't lie to you, but you WILL prevail in the end. But for now, distract yourself, get on your phone & find a funny video. Give yourself time to breathe & realize you're safe. That feeling will pass & you'll be okay again. & if you ever need someone to talk to to help you calm down, come hop in my dm's & we can hang out until you feel better. You don't have to be alone. & you definitely don't have to suffer alone. I often get people who ask me for advice in handling depression, that's partially the reason I haven't left Tumblr. I wouldn't want to abandon anybody. I'm so sorry you're going through this, honey. I hope things get better for you. Literally if you need me to just stay here for you just to help you, I will. & if you need any more resources in dealing with anxiety/depression, dm me. I'm so sorry for triggering you. I'll choose my words more carefully next time. Bless your heart, I'll pray for you.

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Organizations:

National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH); 866-615-6464

National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI); 800-950-NAMI (800-950-6264)

Anxiety and Depression Association of America (ADAA); 240-485-1001

American Psychiatric Association; 800-357-7924

Centers for Disease Control and Prevention, Division of Mental Health (CDC); 800-CDC-INFO (800-232-4636)

American Psychological Association; 800-374-2721

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Coping, Advocacy, and Support:

Anxiety and Depression Association of America: Support Groups

The Anxiety Network: Help and Support

Anxiety Central: Forums

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Medications for Anxiety Disorders (talk to your doctor first):

Cymbalta (duloxetine)

Celexa (citalopram)

Zoloft (sertraline)

Anafranil (clomipramine)

Prozac (fluoxetine)

Paxil (paroxetine)

Xanax (alprazolam)

Klonopin (clonazepam)

BuSpar (buspirone)

Valium (diazepam)

Ativan (lorazepam)

Lexapro (escitalopram)

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Links:

https://www.counseling.org/knowledge-center/mental-health-resources/anxiety

https://adaa.org/understanding-anxiety/generalized-anxiety-disorder-gad/resources

https://blog.thetransitionhouse.org/anxiety-help-and-resources-1

https://www.rtor.org/anxiety/

https://www.nami.org/About-Mental-Illness/Mental-Health-Conditions/Anxiety-Disorders

I H o p e Y o u ' r e O k a y

Merry Christmas, ya filthy animals! & a happy new year! 🎄❤️✨☃️

| French Onion Soup

These is literally my favorite pics of you you‘re so beautiful like I want freckles now too 🌟❤️

I had some questions about modeling and acting that I wanted to dm you about if that‘s ok? And can I ask what ethnicity are you?

My freckles only appear in rare cases & disappear later on (idk if freckles caused by sun exposure count as natural freckles?). But thank you. I'm Native American. & you're free to dm me & ask whatever you want, that's fine. ☺️🖤

I can‘t draw or paint but I made edits from scratch! #winslowat3am #winslowharperr ❄️❄️❄️

Molly in meh aquafina watrrrrrr

PLEASE TELL ME YOU KNOW THE SONG STAR SHOPPING FROM LIL PEEP

No, I don't. Sorry. But I think he has a song called Aquafina, or I might be mistaken.