I think that it's really important for people to realize that being disabled is traumatic. genuinely. your body and brain feel like they are breaking down and wrong. you are in constant heavy stress from stuff like chronic pain. most disabled people i know have a somewhat regular emotional break down from the trauma of it all. and we are expected to just smile through it by society, to not be in the way, to not be an issue.
I guess the pain will end when I end.... just let it end. I'm horrible and worthless, a waste of natural resources. Maybe surgery Monday will not go well.
Not sure which is most abhorrent!
Having bad ticks and problems talking
Or
Going to see a doctor that has a rotten bedside manner,to put it mildly.
Hopefully I don't meltdown..
Love of my life died, unknown reason, hit me like a train. Absolutely no appetite but no will work out.
"Ghosts don't haunt us. That's not how it works. They're present among us because we won't let go of them. "I don't believe in ghosts," I said, faintly. "Some people can't see the color red. That doesn't mean it isn't there," she replied."
-Sue Grafton
I feel called out.
Adjusting to more roommates, a different house, oh and Sunday there is going to be 40 so people in the house. . . fingers crossed.
Packing to move is really set my anxiety off. Watch the nervous autistic be necrotic about packing for a limited time
Neurodivergent culture is getting really irritated when people add on to your posts with their own thoughts if those thoughts aren't exactly in line with what yours are.
It's also getting annoyed when people add onto your vent posts with positivity. like. no. just let me be depressed in peace lol.