‘Nothing,’ He Said. ‘Except That My Life, For The Most Part, Has Been Very Stale And Colorless.

‘Nothing,’ he said. ‘Except that my life, for the most part, has been very stale and colorless. Dead, I mean. The world has always been an empty place to me. I was incapable of enjoying even the simplest things. I felt dead in everything I did.’

— The Secret History, by Donna Tartt

(Henry Winter)

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3 years ago

Palacio de Linares. x

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3 years ago

van gogh's starry night as a kindle cover

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3 years ago

'Tis the season for books and cuddles

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1 year ago

text id: You will awaken me at dawn
And barefoot walk me to the door.
You won't forget me when I’m gone,
You will not see me anymore.

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And shielding you from wraths of cold
I’ll pray to our almighty God.
I won't forget you when you’re gone,
I will not see you anymore.

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A pond that’s hiding tears of water,
Manors of power, shrines of time.
I won't forget them when I’m gone.
I will not see them anymore.

text id: Not blinking, they tear from the wind,
Two brown cherries – despairing and gaunt.
It’s ill fortune - looking back at the door;
I will not see you anymore.

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Even if we return to Earth
As lives ago Hafiz had told,
Our pathways shall be crossed no more,
I will not see you anymore

text id: And they shall seem so meaningless –
The quarrels of our present selves
Against the quarrels of two souls,
Alive in flesh but livingless.

text id: Two phrases, escaping from here
Will ascend to their futile heights;
“I won’t forget you when I’m gone,
I will not see you anymore.”

"Saga (I won't forget you when I'm gone)", Andrei Voznesensky (translated by metamorphesque)

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1 year ago

one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.

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7 months ago

“You live like this, sheltered, in a delicate world, and you believe you are living. Then you read a book… or you take a trip… and you discover that you are not living, that you are hibernating.”

— Anaïs Nin, The Diary of Anaïs Nin, Vol. 1: 1931-1934

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1 year ago

Literally unfollowing every single celebrity that comes across my timeline and I encourage you to follow the same.

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2 years ago

the one with the brains

[top right picture belongs to @sadcypher]

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1 year ago

when will someone make a sapphic dark academia book WHEN??

Leah Raeder, Black Iris

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3 years ago

Hi, and thank you for taking the time to read this message!

For creative, personal and work-related reasons, your resident ethereal, sparkling and chonky aesthete is relocating from Chicago to New Orleans this summer! A cross-country move is expensive, so my goal with this gofundme is to cover the costs to transport my belongings, as well as have a head start on the rent for my housing as I transition and begin to work.

Donations via via gofundme, as well as via Venmo (@iridessence), cashapp ($iridessence) or PayPal are welcome.

Thank you for considering and/or sharing!

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