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Eddie and Dulcie's dynamic in the first half

Eddie and Dulcie in the second half

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA *breathing deeply* OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDD

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Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!!!

Sergeant Horsehair and the Gremlin will be back!!!

Me, right now:

If your blorbos look different in your mind to how they looked in canon, I'd love to hear in tags/reblogs/comments how they differ.

(BETA FOUND!) ISO language beta for a Deadloch fic! 

EDIT: Dreams really do come true! An amazing beta has gone over the fic and it will be posted in about a week. Thanks to everyone who helped put us in touch -- go team! :-D

I'm looking for a speaker of Australian English to look over a long fic and point out where I've got the dialect wrong. I'd be happy to return the favor for you if you ever want that; I have excellent attention to detail and I speak a very standard/unmarked US English. If you have other feedback to share about my story I'd love that, but I won't expect it.

STORY NOTES:

Fandom: Deadloch

Pairings: Eddie/Dulcie are definitely the main one. Eddie/Cath are shown making out once. There is also one Dulcie/Eddie/Cath sex scene at the end but otherwise no Dulcie/Cath or Eddie/Cath is shown (though both are mentioned).

Length: long! ~83,000 words.

Rating: explicit. The first 1/3 of the story is UST and pining. The sex scenes all come after that, but there are a lot of them.

Canon-compliant. Set after the end of the series proper, starting right after Ray’s death. Includes the canon epilogue scene (in which Eddie and Dulcie visit Holly) and then continues after that.

I didn’t like Cath in canon but I think she could get her shit together and be a better person and a better partner, and I’ve leaned into that very hard, while doing my best to also keep her in character.

CONTENT WARNINGS:

Trigger warning for gender dysphoria. See spoiler warning if that’s you.

One quick memory of intimate partner violence (the time in canon when Ray tried to strangle Eddie).

All sex scenes are enthusiastically consensual but there's a power imbalance around couple privilege. It’s dealt with in-story.  

Expanded trigger warning WITH SPOILER: a character experiences gender dysphoria with triggers around specific sex acts and one specific word. Reference to that character being triggered with past partners, including one brief but pretty painful memory of a sex act that the character wanted at the time but that feels different in hindsight. However, this is a story about trans joy as well; there is a payoff later, and eventually a happy ending for this character.

If you’re interested but on the fence about committing to this, PM me and we can talk about what’s making you hesitate. I will of course credit you when I post my story.

Something that I love about Deadloch is how certain physical things in the environment of the show do not suit Dulcie. And how, in most cases, these are things that Dulcie has the power to adjust, but she doesn't.

For instance, at the station, in the little filing room where she sits to look at the station camera photos (and where Sven naps under the desk):

The computer mouse is on the right-hand side of the keyboard, even though Dulcie is left-handed. And she just sits there using her right hand, she doesn't move the mouse to the other side. The ergonomics of that whole desk setup are awful, actually -- and especially for someone of her height; when she's sitting there you can see how she has to hunch to look at the computer screen.

Also, her mirror in the station break room:

The lockers are shorter than her by a few inches, and as a result the mirror that she's hung on the inside of her locker door is about 5 or 6 inches below the level of her face. Around the beginning of S1E4 we see her having to bend her knees, stoop and make herself shorter just so she can check her reflection at her own locker. If she wanted to she could hang a mirror on the wall at the level of her face, but she hasn't done so.

And her clothes:

The pants she has on in S1E4 are 2 or 3 inches too short.

And on some of her shirts the body of the shirt is way too wide for her. I suspect that like many tall people who are slenderer than average, she's opted for an extra large size in order to get a shirt with sleeves that are long enough for her arms. She could take the time to find shirts and pants that fit her, or she could at least take in the side seams on her shirts, but she hasn't.

Also, this is a subtle thing but:

She seems weirdly uncomfortable in her shirts. I don't know how Kate Box managed to convey this but it really stands out to me. Something about her body language often seems like she's shrinking away from the fabric, particularly in the dark button-downs that she wears in S1E4 and S1E5.

All of this fits perfectly with Dulcie's personality, because she tends to be a people-pleaser, she hesitates to advocate for herself, she tends to tolerate the discomfort of a situation until she really can't anymore. And not just with Cath -- with other people too (Phil, Ken, Aleyna) she's compulsively polite, she's reluctant to interrupt them or even to walk away from a conversation she really doesn't want to be in. In my mind Dulcie is often a bit checked-out from her body and from how she's feeling. Contrast this with Eddie, who makes themself comfy in any environment: flopping over couches and armchairs, sprawling and slouching and leaning and lying splayed-out on the floor. All of which fits perfectly with Eddie's whole deal -- they're comfortable with conflict, they don't mind pissing people off, they're so in touch with how they're feeling and they don't tend to worry unnecessarily or borrow trouble about things.

Ugh this show is just SO GOOD and I'm still not over it

Sidenote, if anyone hears anything about a timeline for S2's release please for the love of god tell me, I need it like I need air. I'm haunting reddit and instagram but have had no news since shooting moved to Brisbane.

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imagine being a Korean person awake at like one in the morning trying to accept that the president of South Korea actually just tried to go full dictatorship by way of an emergency martial law because he was basically having a political temper tantrum and every agency and corporation in the country is all hands on deck, code red mode on everything and the military is being deployed and then the assembly revokes the martial law and then the president is like lol nevermind and now you have to get ready to work at your shitty job on a Wednesday

Thinking about the way that Eddie makes her move aside instead of just going around her

Eddie my beloved, you fucking twerp, I would die for you

I'm fully nude.

Mmm. Yeah, I am very aware.

Mogens Trolle, photographer

Proboscis monkey, Borneo (July 2018)