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Emily Dickinson ~ Griefs (1896)

“The biggest mistake I’ve ever made was thinking time didn’t exist for me. I was young and stupid and convinced it would bend to my will like reeds bend to the wind. I kept the words that could change everything lodged under my tongue, too scared, too shy, too embarrassed to say them out loud. I thought I could put it off another week, at least. Or a month. It didn’t really matter, did it, because maybe it would come naturally, without me having to make myself appear vulnerable and turning myself inside out for you. But time placed its noose around my neck and pulled taut and in the blink of an eye you were gone. You were gone before I could utter a single word. Gone before I could curse time for not being enough. You would never read the words I wrote to you. Not in a week, not in a month. I’m done waiting now. And I’m so devastated you had to pass for me to understand that some things cannot wait. If you love someone, let them know.”

— no more waiting / n.j.

Memories are sometimes a relief, and sometimes they are torture. But we hold onto the memories, because they’re what we have left.

-13 Reasons Why

Saw this on my Twitter feed and thought this was so important. If you, or someone you know is fighting this battle, know you are not alone. You matter, your life matters. Take it a day at a time but please keep fighting because YOU ARE IMPORTANT, more importantly you are LOVED.

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favorite quotes about grief:

I sit with my grief. I mother it. I hold its small, hot hand. I don’t say, shhh. I don’t say, it is okay. I wait until it is done having feelings. Then we stand and we go wash the dishes. We crack open bedroom doors, step over the creaks, and kiss the children. We are sore from this grief, like we’ve returned from a run, like we are training for a marathon. I’m with you all the way, says my grief, whispering, and then we splash our face with water and stretch, one big shadow and one small.

Callista Buchen, “Taking Care”

“People don’t know how to be when grief enters a house. She came with me everywhere, like a daughter.”

Lidia Yuknavitch, The Chronology of Water

Love sorrow. She is yours now, and you must take care of what has been given. Brush her hair, help her into her little coat, hold her hand, especially when crossing a street. For, think,

what if you should lose her? Then you would be sorrow yourself; her drawn face, her sleeplessness would be yours. Take care, touch her forehead that she feel herself not so

utterly alone. And smile, that she does not altogether forget the world before the lesson. Have patience in abundance. And do not ever lie or ever leave her even for a moment

by herself, which is to say, possibly, again, abandoned. She is strange, mute, difficult, sometimes unmanageable but, remember, she is a child. And amazing things can happen. And you may see,

as the two of you go walking together in the morning light, how little by little she relaxes; she looks about her; she begins to grow.

Mary Oliver, “Love Sorrow”

ALL 👏🏾 OF 👏🏾 THEM 👏🏾

i am angry

i am angry that i don’t get to set with my back against your tombstone and read you the things I wrote to/for you/me

i am angry because you were fourteen and so much better than me

i am angry that i am now the sole keeper of our memories and i am shit at remembering and i wake up in the morning with your words in my ear and i can’t breathe because i forgot what your voice sounded like

i am angry that no one else remembers you

i am angry because you are dying again

because your heart beats slower in my mind

and i need to write down how it felt to put my head in your lap and fall asleep

safe and warm

as i die to keep you alive

—

I used to live to hurt for you

I think about you constantly. But you know me, I shut down when I feel too much. I allow myself tiny minutes to think about you because the enormity or losing you is unbearable to think about for any longer than that. I miss you. I wish I could FaceTime you. Okay, I’ve reached my limit.

Those who haven’t grieved a deep loss can cause further pain to those who are grieving, because they just don’t get how hard it can be. I wrote this piece to try to increase awareness and empathy about grief.

part 2

on healing

HARUKI MURAKAMI x SHEENA LIAM

1Q84: Book Two (2009);

Untitled (2017) + Untitled (2017) (embroidery)

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Me except my arms aren’t that skinny

Is this how you paint your French girls??

To illustrate our increasing dependence on technology in a raw, personal way, artist Ted Lawson used a robotic printer to draw a nude self-portrait using his own blood, sixpenceee

Hazel Grace Lancaster from The Fault in Our Stars by fishingboatproceeds I am super crazy about how Hazel turned out

have you ever been so lonely you could hardly function

someone: why are you-

me: childhood trauma

depressed kids in the media: I don’t wanna go to therapy! I don’t need help! I’m not some specimen for you to dissect!

me rollin up to my therapist’s office and collapsing in relief: what is UP my homeboy I fuckin missed you,, hope ur ready to hear some Bull Shit that fuckin happened to me this week

Don't ever hesitate. Reblog this. TUMBLR RULE. When you see it, REBLOG IT.

The original post only has US helplines. I've added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.

Depression Hotline: 1-630-482-9696

Suicide Hotline: 1-800-784-8433

LifeLine: 1-800-273-8255

Trevor Project: 1-866-488-7386

Sexuality Support: 1-800-246-7743

Eating Disorders Hotline: 1-847-831-3438

Rape and Sexual Assault: 1-800-656-4673

Grief Support: 1-650-321-5272

Runaway: 1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000

Exhale: After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253

Child Abuse: 1-800-422-4453

UK Helplines:

Samaritans (for any problem): 08457909090 e-mail jo@samaritans.org

Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem): 08001111

Mind infoline (mental health information): 0300 123 3393 e-mail: info@mind.org.uk

Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice): 0300 466 6463 legal@mind.org.uk

b-eat eating disorder support: 0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail: help@b-eat.co.uk

b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders): 08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)

Cruse Bereavement Care: 08444779400 e-mail: helpline@cruse.org.uk

Frank (information and advice on drugs): 0800776600

Drinkline: 0800 9178282

Rape Crisis England & Wales: 0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail info@rapecrisis.org.uk

Rape Crisis Scotland: 08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight

India Self Harm Hotline: 00 08001006614

India Suicide Helpline: 022-27546669

Kids Help Phone (Canada): 1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7

suicide hotlines;

Argentina: 54-0223-493-0430

Australia: 13-11-14

Austria: 01-713-3374

Barbados: 429-9999

Belgium: 106

Botswana: 391-1270

Brazil: 21-233-9191

Canada: 1-800-448-3000

China: 852-2382-0000

(Hong Kong: 2389-2222)

Costa Rica: 606-253-5439

Croatia: 01-4833-888

Cyprus: 357-77-77-72-67

Czech Republic: 222-580-697, 476-701-908

Denmark: 70-201-201

Egypt: 762-1602

Estonia: 6-558-088

Finland: 040-5032199

France: 01-45-39-4000

Germany: 0800-181-0721

Greece: 1018

Guatemala: 502-234-1239

Holland: 0900-0767

Honduras: 504-237-3623

Hungary: 06-80-820-111

Iceland: 44-0-8457-90-90-90

Israel: 09-8892333

Italy: 06-705-4444

Japan: 3-5286-9090

Latvia: 6722-2922, 2772-2292

Malaysia: 03-756-8144

(Singapore: 1-800-221-4444)

Mexico: 525-510-2550

Netherlands: 0900-0767

New Zealand: 4-473-9739

New Guinea: 675-326-0011

Nicaragua: 505-268-6171

Norway: 47-815-33-300

Philippines: 02-896-9191

Poland: 52-70-000

Portugal: 239-72-10-10

Russia: 8-20-222-82-10

Spain: 91-459-00-50

South Africa: 0861-322-322

South Korea: 2-715-8600

Sweden: 031-711-2400

Switzerland: 143

Taiwan: 0800-788-995

Thailand: 02-249-9977

Trinidad and Tobago: 868-645-2800

Ukraine: 0487-327715

My house someday😂🤙🏻