D£@th Tw!!!!

It is your responsibility to heal, but you know what? That wasn’t fair. And I want to acknowledge that.

You don’t deserve to have to heal from the things others did to you. You didn’t deserve what happened.

While you do have to do the work to heal, it’s okay to be angry that you have to in the first place. And it’s easy to get stuck on the fact that you shouldn’t have to. And I get that. But please don’t give up. You should heal because you deserve to be the healed you. It’s not fair you have to do it, but you deserve to heal.

"I am happy because I want nothing from anyone. I do not care for money. Titles or distinctions mean nothing. I do not crave praise. The only thing that gives me pleasure, apart from my work, my violin and my sailboat, is the appreciation of my fellow worker." - Albert Einstein

Being cruel to the version of you that didn't know any better changes nothing about the things they did. It hurts the person who turned around and reflected, the person who learned from their mistakes and held themselves accountable, the person who deserves to heal, and the person who deserves to move forward. Forgive yourself.

In the name of self-respect, some bridges need to be burned.

also it’s crazy how people will talk about childhood trauma and then be so nasty to children. all kids deserve to be treated with kindness, empathy and patience

things have been hetic marking period ending… graduation… home life… insecurities… relationship

good things I did for myself yesterday:

ate a healthy snack

FINALLY FINISHED AN AP COMP GOV ESSAY IVE BEEN PUTTING OFF FOR 2 MONTHS !!!!!!!!

doing that essay was so draining I fell asleep while doing it I know it was only 4 pages but AH

good things I did for myself today

ate another healthy snack

journaled :)

hope to meditate tonight

you are so much more than that failed test. that interview gone wrong, your relapse, the missed opportunities, the words you wish you could take back. you are not your mistakes. you're a person who's trying. there are so many opportunities to make things right. you'll get there, even if it takes a few more tries.

Just thought I'd remind everybody this:

Your past, younger, and more afraid self would be so proud of you

That scared kid who didn't know what tomorrow would be like? They're proud of you for making it even longer than tomorrow

That person who has lost all hope? They're amazed and inspired by how strong you've become

That insecure person who hates their looks? They think you've become absolutely gorgeous flaws and all

The past you may have been unsure of themselves, but you being alive right now is proof that you can survive anything. And that you'll someday be exactly what your younger self wished they were

The National Ballet School, Havana, Cuba

I’m starting to realize that life at every age, every day, is a journey of self acceptance. The world profits so much of making you hate yourself or feel that you’re not enough. Honestly, you have to find a continual sense of self-awareness and self-love to constantly fight against the world lies about yourself.