Leaf
You are the promise I want to keep
Until my grave weeps.
You are the language I want to learn
Until our souls become one.
You are the melody I want to dance to
Till my legs turn blue.
For, you are my dose of insanity
Leading me away from sensibility,
For, you consume my entire being,
until I dream only of you again.
For, I am the river flowing with no aim
Tirelessly waiting for you to claim
Whole of me, now in vain.
For, you are in the canvas I paint,
In the poems I write
And The music I play.
Oh how you dominate my thoughts,
So much so that without you I am a body with no soul,
An ocean whose water overflows
And a star, bright no more.
For, you are the ocean I want to submerge myself in
The dream I want to conquer,
The air I want to breathe,
And the arms I want to call home.
This has definitely been said before I feel it in my left kidney but
The reason we can't distinct what's symptoms of autism/or quite frankly any neurodiversity and what's effects of trauma is because society has not produced a single not-traumatized neurodivergent person.
I go to seek a great perhaps.
~ Francois Rabelais
Absolutely relate
January depression just snuck up on me 😩 and in a few days I cleaned my home, body, and soul. I shed my skin of last year and am rejuvenated and ready to conquer my next step of growth.
What if I just started going by a different name and pronouns and had different likes and ideas and memories and opinions and presented differently and acted differently... but like I'm still me though... no I'm not a system at all...
YOOO just finished dishes let’s GOOOOO
Shout out to alters that do chores/household tasks for the body. You are heros ♡
shoutout to my therapist who, upon me telling her i didn’t like the word alter, started referring to my headmates as “my homies.” like “any updates on your homies? have you heard from your homies at all this week” she’s the only true plural ally
Just had an entire mental breakdon trying to figure out is Dissociative Amnesia was the same as Repressed Memories cause apparently repressed memories isnt a thing which sent me through a spiral because i thought i had repressed memories for me to find one fucking DSM article that says 'oh yeah Disociative Amnesia is basically repressed memories innit?'
these are all individual posts that I have written about my own journey with healing from an abusive childhood✨
How To Find The Right Therapist For You
How To Stay Organized & Make Your Appointments Through Dissociation Fogs
Recognizing Abuse: Emotional Takeovers
Recognizing Abuse: Parentification
Recognizing Abuse: Triangulation
Redefining respect after abuse
How to recognize when you need to set a boundary
Sexual boundaries & things to know before getting into a relationship
Love vs obsession
Coping with overwhelming feelings, flashbacks, & memories
Healthy Coping Skills & Activities for Releasing Anger & Other Negative Emotions
Understanding grounding & dissociation on a deeper level
how to actually feel ur feelings
how to tolerate being alone with your thoughts
when showering & hygiene is too hard
how to set better goals
Healthier ways to communicate
The root of all healing work (tldr it's ur childhood 🎉)
Attachment theory healing (codependency, enmeshment, & BPD FP attachment)
Attachment & abandonment wounds (BPD FP)
In order to heal you must grieve
What is "inner child healing"?
How to be kinder with yourself
Unlearn what they taught you
Reframe your anger
Reframe the process of moving on
Focus on what you can control
affirmations for reclaiming your voice around authority figures
affirmations for RSD
affirmations for feeling ur feelings
affirmations for healing codependency & attachment (BPD FP)
things I wish I knew before I started healing
things your inner child needs to hear
you are normal
slow down and take a deep breath
you can move now. you are safe.
you need to hear this (trust me)
the very first hard reality you need to face
the second hard reality that's gonna hit you like a train
the third and worst hard reality there is
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Looking forward to updating the list as we grow 🪴
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