Words Cannot Describe The Childlike Wonder And Joy Felt When You Enter A Restaurant And They Have Those

I hate how my brain works bro how the hell do i explain that I’m learning italian because of my pizza tower hyperfixation????

Got this recommended to me today because I follow #hrt (as in hormone replacement therapy) but this is pretty awesome as well lol

this is what horse race tests is right

Hello again

Am 19 now, not on T yet (unfortunately!!)

The taxidermied goat is my main google acc’s pfp

[Start ID: A picture of a grey hamster on a blue couch. Top text says “I can’t fucking take it”, bottom text says “seriously I’m at my limit. /End ID]

Tw- transphobia

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Today fucking sucked

Misgendered constantly, had to deal with my annoying bible thumping counselor being queerphobic, and I had to admit I wasn’t straight at my appointment (they ask for your sexuality for some fucking reason, I lied at first but my grandma said “be honest” so I told them the truth after that.)

Could someone please use my name (August) in a sentence with my pronouns (he/him/it) I’m not feeling too great rn.

Many such cases

(Based off a meme that I can't find anymore but like FTM edition)

[ID: a drawn meme featuring a transition timeline. The first picture is of a pre-transition trans man who has long-ish hair and dead green eyes. The caption above says "Saddest, most dead inside girl you've ever seen" and that same trans man much further along in his transition who has eyes with spark, is very muscular, and has short hair. The caption above him reads "Absolute giga-chad of a man. An actual statue of david in real life." /END ID]

do you want to see a random species of bird

Diary Entry #20

I got a binder and two packers!!! Too bad I can't wear them basically anywhere lmao but still. I cleaned my room with my binder on. I was so worried it wasn't making me flat enough, i mean it doesn't matter now but when I go on T it might.

I made sure to order the right size but after like an hour of wearing it I still kinda hurt. But I'm okay now (it's my second time wearing it, first time wearing it for any significant amount of time.)

I went down a very brief spiral (brief being like 15 minutes tops) where I was like "OH MY GOD WHAT IF I'M NOT TRANS." But looking back, I think it's because my binder didn't make me like 100% flat, more like I have pecs or maybe gynomastia and I'm pretty sure now that's what it was.

But seeing me in pictures with my binder (with my face/hair mostly cropped out) on made me super happy, it's just that looking at me irl still makes me think I look very fem because I still have these fem characteristics and it makes me feel kinda bad. My spiral was not very rational.

I think the thought "what if my binder doesn't actually bind enough?? What if I still look like I have a large chest??" isn't actually very cis, looking back on it. I'm gonna post some pictures of me in a shirt with and without the binder and let y'all be the judge. I think I'm just freaking out over nothing, but I can't stop thinking like that. Under the cut btw, first pic with binder second pic w/o.