Auggieoof - August (he/him/it)

Diary entry #2

I want to make some pvz butcher vanity fanart SO BAD but for some reason I keep putting it off. I saw this post about not being able to put your blorbos in situations can be depression and like. yeah that's true.

Butcher Vanity is an amazing song btw

Probably gonna make some MAMA chicken ramen soon

I have underlying dysphoria that just seems to get worse every day. I look at men irl and online that are cool looking and I get so jealous it makes me angry. I'm still stuck in this shell I can hardly recognize, something that can be fixed or made better but I'm not allowed. I can't even cut my hair short for christ's sake.

Started Gravity Falls last night, gonna try to watch an episode a day; for some reason I have problems watching shows/playing videogames even if they're really good. When I was a little kid I didn't have that issue.

Just watched this video from Lily Alexandre (I love her vids sm) and this is nearing the top of the pile of excellent stuff she's made. Highly recommend.

Dysphoria is killing me so bad. I need T, NOW

As a Maretu fan I am. Foaming at the mouth

(The song is Erasure Girl and is about two lesbians but is dark so like I'm warning you)

Lesbian erasure

Make sure that you’ll be safe! It’s really important; maybe talk to them about trans stuff and see how they react, stuff like that. Write a letter or text, or just come up and say it. It’s really hard to say, but you can do it eventually.

Planning on coming out as trans to my parents soon. Any advice from the little gay people in my phone?

this speaking as a cis person. Nothing brings me more joy seeing people find gender euphoria in becoming a mediocre representation of humanity. And I mean that so genuinely. Local boy finds joy and fulfillment wearing a cargo shorts and t-shirt combo. Local girl has transitioned to look like someone's disheveled aunt, has never been happier. Local person experiences gender euphoria rocking the world's worst bowl-cut. Without a scap of irony, this shit makes me see the wonder and whimsy in just, being a human. An average, person going through their day-to-day, is a wondrous thing? That's amazing. And heteronormativity has stripped these experiences of their joy. Like you're right, wearing a basic girlypop skirt should make my heart sing. Why not? Why are these expressions lesser because they're normal? All this to say. Shoutout to all the basic bitches out there. Yes that polo shirt does make you look like a divorced golfer dad. Yes, that too is kind of a slay, now that I think of it.

"I want to be a dragon."

i just wanted to say that i love you if you want or you've gotten bottom surgery. people are so cruel about trans, intersex, gnc and other folks who want to get bottom surgery for one reason or another, whether it's to ease dysphoria or simply because they want to, people love to rip into that person and tell them that bottom surgery will make them undesirable and will be disgusting.

this literally just isn't true- the results of your bottom surgery are not guaranteed to be botched or horrific to behold. we have been practicing these surgeries for 100 years of recorded history and the results only improve over time as we learn new techniques and breakthoughs in technology help us improve even further. bottom surgery isn't new, it's something that's been practiced for a long time. many of the advances in the tech have come from cisgender people who need bottom surgery as well- trans people are not the only people who end up needing surgeries to modify their genitalia.

someone who wants bottom surgery isn't gross. there's nothing gross about it. reducing someone to their genitals yet again is a dead ringer that you are transphobic and intersexist. someone who got bottom surgery doesn't deserve to be reduced to their genitals yet again- they're a person with genitals. a person first. and so many people are willing to leave trans folks who have gotten bottom surgery out of trans positivity posts or act like they just straight up don't exist

so here's to every person who has gotten a phalloplasty, metoidioplasty, and/or a vaginoplasty. i'm proud of you for doing the right thing for you and your body no matter what people say. you're not gross. there's nothing wrong with your genitals. people should not be obsessing over your genitals, they're your business, and they do not define you as a person. you deserve to be able to modify your body in ways that make you feel at home in it, no matter how much that disgusts a stranger who means nothing to you.