I’m So Sick Of Hearing People Complain About “whiny Transmascs Who Don’t Transition And Still Want

Diary entry #8

MOOOOMMM!! August is making fake scenarios in his head to get mad on purpose again!!! /ref

I have terrible intrusive thoughts, and sometimes they turn into fake arguments in my head; basically I think like this -

Transphobic thing I saw once -> having more thoughts and counter arguments to that transphobic thing I saw -> thinking about my grandparents suddenly, what they'd think about it -> they would side with the transphobic thing every time -> oh god now there's a fake argument that's making me mad again

Like I saw a Josh Hawley (conservative Missourian dickhead) truck the other day, and I started to think about how my grandparents like Josh Hawley and all the terrible things he said, annnnddd then I had a fake argument again. Goddammit.

I'm terrified of conflict, so I kind of plan it out in my head beforehand which just makes me angry and scared so it doesn't even help! I just shut down whenever I get in an actual argument with my grandparents, I just start crying.

There is no point in these fake arguments, it just pisses me off at work because that's when I have time to think.

But anyways my day was mostly normal besides that.

I hope that made even a lick of sense, I don't know if I'm coming off right.

Queen Dizzy's pronouns are They/Them, not because they're nonbinary but because they're three people.

be free!!

It's such a mervyn peake dead rat poem morning

One of the poems ever.

Do your patriotic duty. Salute the flag.

8 page zine about suicide, transness, and praxis

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Venmo: tomi-nabach

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Venmo: fubblers

Happy pride, my dudes! Felt like making a tradition of doing a redraw of last the year’s redraw! Good way of seeing improvement and getting back into the swing of things, methinks (I’m also counting this as birthday art sorta but totally not because I completely forgot when his birthday was hahaha shhh)

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Previous two years under the cut (eye contact tw):

2022:

2021:

top surgery tats

probably over a year ago I had a customer come into the shop, a man I'd guess probably 70-ish? And he hung around the till whilst I was dealing with another customer and then when I was done he handed me a bit of paper and on the paper it said 'books about crossdressing'

well, I did my best - he was obviously very nervous and I wanted to help him find something useful. Unfortunately there's not a lot of books about crossdressing - lots on trans stuff obviously! But I wasn't clear on whether he was thinking of transitioning and he was so nervous I didn't want to push him for any details. He ended up buying Eddie Izzard's biography and seemed pretty happy with that, but I never forgot it and I've always kept an eye out for those kind of books since.

Today he came back in, came round to the side of the till again, took out his phone and started showing me photos of himself wearing dresses, at which point I realised it was him. I nearly cried, it was so lovely! He still wanted books on crossdressing so I told him I'd do some more research & write him a list, but I'm hitting the same problem again - there's not a lot specifically about crossdressing. My colleague & I have made a list including books on drag, books on transitioning, books on women's fashion generally, but I am hoping despite my lack of reach on Tumblr I might be able to get recommendations from people with more knowledge than me. Please send me suggestions!

It's so weird to me that Trans men and trans mascs are expected to be "better than cis men", because we lived (or still have to live) as women.

Like, JK Rowling is an awful person who is a woman. Both Nicki Minaj and Colleen Hoover defend their rapist family members . I shouldn't expect either of these people to be good people based off their gender and lived experiences because they are people and they're just as capable of being awful like everyone else. Terfs aren't suddenly devoid of being victims of misogyny when they spew terf shit.

So tell me why, trans men and mascs are held to this standard? Why must we do our best to be perfect little ken dolls while the rest of you get to be people?

You can argue this about us being demonized too but Im not gonna go into that today.