" She's Like A Closed Book Hiding On The Farthest Part Of A Shelf, Tightly Hugging Herself , Afraid That

" I wasn't built to break."

- H.Asteid

"Why would you want to be with someone who only love you sometimes?"

-H.Asteid

" You still have a lifetime to be who you really wanna be."

-H.Asteid

"I'm scared." Looking up at the night sky, trying not to fall apart.

I felt him scoot closer to me.

"Scared of what?"

I hesitated for a moment.

" I... I'm scared of the thought that this might be the last time I'll be making coffee for my Dad, the last time I'll iron and fold his clothes. I'm scared of the thought of his heart breaking when I'm not here anymore.

I'm so scared that I feel like I won't be able to witness the sun shine again, that today might be my last day."

I said looking down at my shaking hands, suddenly ashamed of my revelation.

But his next words gave my heart a sense of something foreign...Hope.

" You're scared.

Isn't that enough reason to stay?"

-H.Asteid

How many more sonnets do you I have to write for you?

How many more steps to do I have to take to get to you?

You see, I'm running out of ink

And it's like my knees are about to give in

But I kept writing

I kept walking

Coz honey, you're inked in my mind like a tattoo

You're like the cups of coffee I consume

Cup after cup after cup

Still, I can't get enough

I can't stop!

I can swim, Believe me I can swim

But my heart seems to be so fascinated with your depths

That it doesn't mind getting drowned in it.

But you won't let me in.

You'd leave your door slightly ajar then you'd slam it on my face,

You'd pull me close then you'd pull away

You have me wrapped around your thumb

That when you ever you needed a hit, I'll be your drug.

It's insane! I mean...

I think it's the other way around

You.

You are my drug.

Your love's my addiction

But the way it's consuming me right now,

Tells me...

That you are both my sweet salvation and also, the road that would lead to my own destruction.

- H. Asteid, One-sided Sonnet

" And If I could only keep from death, I would."

-H.Asteid

It was death that made autumn beautiful.

- H.Asteid

— Arundhati Roy, The God of Small Things

"Darling, You own the biggest wave in my sea of thoughts."

-H.Asteid

" This may sound crazy to you but...If she were a cliff, I won't even hesitate to take the leap."

- H.Asteid