Astro Hypothesis: Why I Think The Astro Community Is The Way It Is?

the 3d version of you (human version) is not real, thats your false self. the real, true you is imagination/consciousness. so dwelling and identifying with the 3d circumstances only creates a cycle of failure. next time you become aware of circumstances you dont like, look within (your true self) and remember absolutely everything is under your power and always was. imagination influences and changes the 3d, not the other way around. the 3d is nothing without you (imagination) so feeling powerless while staring at the 3d is dumb asf. step yo cookies up & remember you are imagination, the limitless and perfect reality. stop giving attention and power to the things that dont serve you ☆

Katherine + Every Male Character >>  Damon Salvatore (requested by @miikaela)

Me, a Scorpio Moon: I’m such a sensitive bitch

Me, a Scorpio Moon: *meets ppl with Pisces Moons*

Me, a Scorpio Moon:

Me, a Scorpio Moon: Y'know what, no. I take it back, I am apparently very well put together

(Katherine Pierce X Jess Mariano) Pt. 3

“I wouldn’t let you break my heart.” Jess stated mellowly.

“You sure?”

She dragged her fingernails across his chest ( where his heart would’ve been ) and made an x. That’s when he knew that he’d gotten in too deep. The adrenaline had started to pump through his veins and he wasn’t going to stop it. This was definitely not what he expected to find in Stars Hollow. If only, Rory could see what her “sister” was up to. Jess was suddenly hyper aware of the fact he was in Stars Hollow for a reason, and that reason wasn’t Luke. Looked like fate wasn’t a myth and karma wasn’t such a bitch. He’d been wrong on both counts.

“We were too close to the stars

I never knew somebody like you “

For Aphrodite 🐚🦢🤎

𝔗𝔥𝔢 𝔰𝔦𝔰𝔱𝔢𝔯 𝔰𝔦𝔤𝔫𝔰 - 𝔏𝔢𝔬 𝔞𝔫𝔡 𝔄𝔮𝔲𝔞𝔯𝔦𝔲𝔰

I wanted to write about the axis of Aquarius and Leo because I often her people ask how these sister signs are similar. The first thing I want to point out is both these signs want to be known or known for something. It may be a more obvious trait for Leos but both want to stand out, and enjoy standing out from a crowd. The way they go about it can come across differently.

They both want to be seen in a certain way.

Leo is the stereotypical performer, the popular, the trendy. Aquarius has a stereotype of the eccentric, the outcast. If you think about it you need this polarity in life. 

For example, You have the fashion where it’s mainstream and everybody views it and wants it, and you have the fashion where everyones views it and is intrigued boy it, but it may not be for such a wide audience, it’s slightly more niche. This is that Leo and Aquarius dynamic, both stand out but for different reasons. Leo is he trendsetter and Aquarius is the trend/rule breaker. And if you think about it, they are sort of inspired by each other, from the different ends of the spectrum.

The funny thing is Aquarius ,in a way, want to control how they are seen more them Leo. Aquarius is ruled by Saturn, which rules over boundaries - they want to shape how people see them. Wheres Leo is ruled by the sun, is a more untamed expression of ‘here I am, take me as all I am’. I would argue that aquarians enjoy that uniqueness, and being hard to understand or grasp in some way. They enjoy being that person someone can’t quite put their finger on what it is about them that makes them so individual. They like that role of the weirdo. That is where that control comes in that I mentioned earlier.

Going back to their planetary rulers, Leo is ruled by the sun, the sun rules over expression. They want to walk into a room and take it up, They want to be the centre of attention al eyes on them as soon as they enter. Whereas Aquarius wants to win over the room, they don’t want/need to captivate an audience straight as they walk in  but they want people to do a double take and steal the spotlight trough their hard work and dedication (depending on whatever they want to be seen for) as this is ruled by Saturn.

Thank you for reading, as always I would love to hear your thoughts, and if you have any Leo or Aquarius placements, let me know how these play out in your life.

TENTH LORD in SUN NAKSHATRAS

As always, recorded for my own benefit, published for yours. Sidereal placements used. General disclaimer is in my bio. Credit to KRSchannel for inspiring this series.

Find your 10th lord here, and find your 10th lord's nakshatra here.

The 10th house rules our life's honor. It represents the services we perform for society as well as the reputation we earn as a result. It is associated with the father and the career because traditionally, this is where both our standing in society and the role we performed in society would come from - inherited through the father's family line. However, in our contemporary world, this isn't always the case, which is why it's important to know the grander themes at play.

The three Sun-ruled nakshatras are Krittika, Uttara Phalguni, and Uttara Ashadha.

The sun is the planetary object that represents what we make of ourselves. It is not our most base self (the Ascendant) or what our experiences make of us (the moon). Instead, it is how our decisions define us. Growth, and personal development must all come through the sun in some way - because success, while partially circumstantial, is also dependent on us pursuing joy, or even just allowing ourselves some happiness in whatever form we find it. Essentially, the sun is who we choose to be - and who we might be if we put forth the effort to flourish rather than just survive.

Do you have your 10th lord in a Sun-ruled nakshatra? That means you...

Katharine Hepburn, Cardi B, and Eartha Kitt all have their tenth lords in Sun ruled nakshatras. Katharine's is in Krittika, Cardi's is in Uttara Phalguni, and Eartha's is in Uttara Ashadha.

... use your energy, warmth, and personality to shape your career and your communities, and vice versa.

This placement is a ticket to a rising status - which is good, because individuals with this placement have an inborn need to improve their station, and then to improve the world through their new influence. They come across as effortlessly magnetic to the public, and yet, to their peers, they remain thoroughly relatable. They are capable of spearheading projects that nobody else would have the courage to even consider, but they may allow their ego or pride to dictate how they handle their responsibilities to society.

As for famous natives, well, fame is the wheelhouse of the sun, particularly in terms of popularity. The term cult of personality comes to mind, as it is these natives who come to immense profit simply by acting like themselves. In turn, this is the only placement where benefitting from fame nepotism is more bad than good, as the native's sun is eclipsed by the star that already hung in the sky, after having risen to prominence of its own accord. Regardless, this is a generous placement, and a lot of philanthropy can be traced back to these celebrity natives, even before it was trendy.

More on the specifics of Krittika, Uttara Phalguni, and Uttara Ashadha below!

If KRITTIKA RULES the TENTH LORD, you...

Shakira, Lon Chaney, and Billie Lourd all have their tenth lords in Krittika. Others with this placement are Christina Applegate, Franz Kafka, Wayne Newton, Alan Turing, Sandra Bullock, Vanessa Hudgens, Mae Whitman, Russell Crow, Alexandre Dumas, Bing Crosby, and Karl Marx.

Create and receive positive energy with your public interactions.

Have trouble maintaining consistency with your work habits.

Have more precise control of your physical body and its movements when you are being observed or reviewed.

Are passionate about various social causes and have strong ideas about how they should be handled.

Have no patience for dishonesty or deception when it comes to professional relationships.

and you may find...

Criticism and skepticism comes naturally to you, and you are compelled to communicate your skepticism for better or worse.

You are involved in workplace affairs, tempted to be involved in workplace affairs, or find they are common wherever you work.

Diplomacy, which may or may not be a skill of yours when handling private manners, becomes much more difficult in the workplace or when the matters are made public.

You are more temperamental, fiery, or easy to anger at work and in public than you are at home or in private.

You end up responsible for a lot of "cutting" and 'shaving' in the workplace - physical, like shredding papers or chopping ingredients, or figurative, like budget cuts.

KRITTIKA is the Star of Fire. Industries and career types favored are those involving crafts that depend on heat and fire, critiquing, oversight, education, spirituality, cutting or needlework, modeling, fashion and styling, military, building contracting, and leadership.

If UTTARA PHALGUNI RULES the TENTH LORD, you...

Rami Malek, Fiona Apple, and Kirsten Dunst all have their tenth lords in Uttara Phalguni. Others with this placement are Austin Butler, Mae West, Adam Driver, William Wordsworth, Samuel Adams, and Rachel Miner.

Are naturally attuned to social graces, traditions, and etiquette.

Come across as straight-forward, likable, and friendly in public.

Are ambitious and productive, so advancement comes easily.

Swing between excessive generosity to others, and entitled or ungrateful behavior for what you are given.

Hold yourself and others to high standards in the name of maintaining your ego.

and you may find...

People you meet in public or through work are compelled to do favors for you - or you for them depending on situations - which may lead to treatment from your superiors that peers find unfair.

Opening up about hardships, turmoil, or conflict in a public setting is grossly uncomfortable and embarrassing to you.

Your relationships attract unwarranted attention, with others treating them as scandals rather than your personal business.

Ending things is always impossibly messy for you, and you have a hard time fully completing anything with any satisfaction.

You allow sentimentality, patience, and generosity to sucker you into enabling the poor behavior of strangers or coworkers.

Luxury and comfort become a top priority in your line of work, regardless of whether that's because you seek it out in those circumstances, or if it's a matter of meeting work standards.

UTTARA PHALGUNI is the Star of Patronage. Industries and career types favored are those involving entertainment, performance and public speaking, counseling, philanthropy, diplomacy, patriotism, service, animals, food and nutrition, caretaking, mathematics, sales, and personality management.

If UTTARA ASHADHA RULES the TENTH LORD...

Dolly Parton, Jeff Bridges, and Saint Bernadette all have their tenth lords in Uttara Ashadha. Others with this placement are Billy Joel, Justin Timberlake, Napoleon Bonaparte I, Patsy Cline, Otto Von Bismarck, Umberto Eco, Lady Iris Mountbatten, Shia LaBeouf, Betrand Russell, and Peter Jackson.

Are modest and down-to earth, but also ambitious and idealistic.

Network perfectly naturally, without strategy, with great results.

End up creatively or intellectually absorbed in any projects that engage the public or your profession, always digging deeper.

Are susceptible to flattery, and get frustrated when people don't appreciate your efforts or don't react as you want them to.

Act like a martyr for work-related stress, despite it being a result of your own choices and priorities.

and you may find...

Things come much, much easier to you when you handle them in public or at work, rather than other settings or environments.

Work or public service projects that you start nearly always prosper, not just to the end you had in mind, but beyond that.

Others treat you as moral authority as you're compelled to speak up when you witness injustice in public or in the workplace

Reading and learning has benefitted you, and helped you to stick out as particularly knowledgable or skilled in your career.

You face adversity early in your career, only for success to come quickly and plentifully once you are older and more established.

Both traveling for work and finishing projects brings you more trouble than it feels like its worth.

UTTARA ASHADHA is the Universal Star. Industries and career types favored are those involving authority, judgment, leadership, religion, exploring, discovery, combat sports, athletics, defense, preservation, construction, archives, research, and causes.

Hope this was helpful. Feel free to message with any questions, thoughts, or ideas. Part 4, focusing on 10th Lords with Moon Nakshatras, will be next! ♡

Nobody is your friend

Life as Jyeshta native

I've always struggled with maintaining friendships. I always considered myself to be a really good friend; putting in a ton of energy into my friends' birthdays, checking up on them regularly and always being there for them but I don't believe I've ever recieved the same energy back. Oftentimes, my so-called "friends" wouldn't even wish my happy birthday, get me anything, or plan anything for my birthday. They would rarely bother to check on me, even during COVID. I've had "friends" constantly put me down by ridiculing my physical appearance or intelligence. I've had friends purposefully leave me out of plans because I was no longer fun to be around after my grandmother passed away.

I've had "friends" that I cut off, turn around, and harrass and bully after the fact. I've had friends tell me I was 'trauma dumping' onto them whenever I decided to be vulnerable despite being there for them whenever they needed anyone to talk to, even being told I am not a "good enough support system" despite ALWAYS being there. I've generally had friends demand things of me that they were never willing to reciprocate. As a consequence, I've become quite jaded to the idea of befriending people. I realise that I don't hold friends to a degree that others do because I've seen all the worst sides of how friendship can turn out. I have a solid 5 friendships, and even then, I know they're not as great as the friendships I've witnessed in my life.

Whenever I pursue a relationship with someone, they often end up acting in ways that make me pull back, like deciding they suddenly hate me, talking behind my back, being unnecessarily hypercritical of me, telling people the things I've said to them in confidence, making fun of me behind my back, the list goes on.

On the other side of things, I've noticed an obsessiveness towards me (which I partly contributed to having a Mrigashira moon) relating to this incessant need I've realised that some people have to almost "breaking me down" or "taking me off my high horse" (even when having low confidence), especially if I've "bruised" their ego in a way. I remember two months after I stopped talking to this guy (he would constantly try to prove his intellectual superiority over me), he and his friends posted a video in which he tried to make it seem like he was never interested in me, inspite of the fact that I only started really noticing him because my friends would point out how he and his friends (sometimes in his absence) would always used to stare at me, and try to get close to me.

Thankfully, I've study people enough to recognise that the things people have criticised me about are usually the things they themselves are insecure about in themselves, so I don't take it too personally, but it does get draining.

Another thing I've noticed about the "obsessiveness" is people copying me, like A LOT (watching Claire Nakti's video of Jyeshta confirmed this to me). After adopting my entire personality, dress sense, music taste, and mannerism, these individuals would end up discarding me. It's like they would steal my very essence. That's how I felt after my last friendship that felt like this. At the end of friendship, I was a shell of myself.

Romantic relationships haven't been able to fill the void either, as I feel like the men who are evidently attracted to me always feel a need to humble me or sexualising me but not being serious about being in longterm relationships with me (definitely blame my Lilith and Pluto aspecting almost all my personal planets), and so I remain quite lonely in the world. I also have Jyeshta in the 10th house (the house public image and perception) and Lilith in the 11th house closely conjunct my venus, which opposes a Punarvasu North Node so to say relationships are difficult would be an understatement.

- This is just another unfiltered rant. I feel like one of these days, I should post something more positive but this year has been nothing but disappointment, and I always keep it real

Moon in the signs

Aries moon ❤️‍🔥

I’ve noticed these people are very independent usually. They don’t like being told what to do. They like doing things their own way. Can be quite bossy and irritable. Can get angry easily or be childish at times. Loves attention and can be self absorbed/selfish. If they don’t get attention they will act out so people notice them. Loves compliments and feeling desired and sexy. Confident energy. Can be goal-oriented. Very competitive, even if they won’t admit, which might lead to insecurities. Passionate about the things/people they love and cherish. Can have a fierce look.

Taurus moon 🌷

very sensual and serious energy. Elegant aura. Good at taking care of others. Very loving people. Closed off at first and don’t trust easily, they don’t let just anyone in- they have to feel a real connection for that. Really loves food lmao. It can be their coping mechanism or comfort them for anything . Artistic. Creative souls. Loves art & culture. Loves animals. Grounded. Loves being in nature. Can love the more natural look. Needs to feel secured, whether with material possessions/ money, strong relationships etc. comfortable around women for both sexes. Can be very stubborn and it can be hard for them to admit when they’re wrong or change their ways.

Gemini moon 🎭

intelligent, sarcastic. Memes and Netflix as a coping mechanism lmao. All over the place. In their heads a lot. Overanalyze & overthinks Which can cause them anxiety and depression. Can worry a lot sometimes. Anxious energy. Can actually have social anxiety at times. Good sense of humor. Loves making others laugh. Funny. Loves music & parties. Natural acting skills or can be quite good at lying. Theatrical personality. Many known and funny actors/actresses have this placement. Youthful & cute smiles. Can give crazy energy/vibe haha. They don’t always feel comfortable showing their more vulnerable side so they use sarcasm instead, more closed off emotionally. Either that or they overshare lmao no in between. Can actually feel like they have a few totally different people inside of them which makes them at times feel confused or lost and seem unpredictable like u don’t know what mood ur gonna get (that’s me yay) hard to feel stable. Irritable. The mom can be a best friend. They can consult her about everything and like hearing her opinion. Though it’s more of a rational relationship rather than emotional. Can be prone to gossip as they’re very curious people.

Cancer moon 🧸

sensitive. closed off with people they don’t know or don’t feel comfortable with. Can be shy but don’t like looking that way. Can have their guards up with people. gives more feminine energy to both sexes. holds grudges. Can get hurt easily. Loyal to people close to them. Cares about people they love and likes taking care of them somehow and feeling like people depend on them. Can find it hard to let go. Might act manipulatively to make things go the way they want or make people depend on them. Takes things personally. Gets deeply attached to things and people. Can be insecure.

Leo moon 🎁

loves attention A LOT. Needs it for their well being haha. Especially from people close to them. Theatrical in their personalities. Funny. Can act crazy to draw attention. Can be loud and/or obnoxious. Can create drama without even noticing they started it cause they are drown to it with their intense persona. Can be envious of others. competitive. Can give Mean Girls vibes haha. They have big hearts though. Can look fancy. Loves luxury & fashion.

Virgo moon 🧿

very critical of themselves. Cares about how people view them. Polite and good mannered. Can be very insecure but don’t like showing it. Hard workers. Can be people pleasers due to insecurities. Loves satisfying the people they love. Can suffer from anxieties and nervousness or depression. Can find it hard to accept themselves so they always want to feel accepted by others somehow, wether for their looks, intelligence, personality etc. might feel inadequate somehow & try to compensate for that. Can have eating disorders due to self esteem issues or be overly body-conscious to the point they overwork their bodies. overall they do seem to take interest in healthy lifestyles & workout regimes. It’s either that or they don’t care at all to the point of neglecting their health, I guess maybe if underdeveloped they don’t have a good balance when it comes to that. Can give a fox-like look to the face. Also needs to have a somewhat clean and neat environment for their mental health lmao (that’s my mom).

Libra moon 🦋

They seem to have balance issues. If underdeveloped they’re either focused on keeping the peace at all cost in a need to be liked and accepted, or the opposite- attract and are attracted to drama and violence, and act aggressively themselves as a self- sabotage mechanism. They seem to have dealt with some type of mental issue at least at one point in their life. Can over-think and analyze situations and people, or if people like them or not. Probably have to be with their childhood. Gives some detached aura to the personality. Rationalize their emotions. Charming. Might flirt or use their charm to get the things they want. Can be manipulative and/or self-destructive in relationships. Naturally Attracted to relationships though. Can have co-dependence issues which brings me back to the unbalance thing- they’re either too afraid to lose their independence so they stay alone for a while until they mature (mainly for guys) or they feel incomplete and insecure without a partner, to the point of being overly dependent on them and depending on them for their overall well being or mental wellness. Might have had issues with unstable childhood or a disconnect from mother/parents (they might not be so present all the time) that caused them to look for a family or stability outside from their homes. They either look for friends for that or romantic partners, or other figures. They would still, even if had issues with the mother consciously or not, always talk nicely about her and view her in a graceful & kind light. Are quite artistic & creative and like aesthetically pleasing surroundings & people.

Scorpio moon 🌚

Gives intense aura and gaze. They seem like deep people. Not showing a lot of their true self to the public, only people they trust. Don’t trust or let others in easily. Very Selective of their surrounding. Look powerful on the outside. closed off aura. Can have deep insecurities, some derived from their childhood. Although when they grow or are more developed, they can be very mature and have a lot of recuperating powers, can handle a lot of hardships. Might have suffered from trauma but it’s their source of strength. Very wise. Can be very manipulative when they want and can be good liars. Magnetic aura. Tbh they can look crazy sometimes lmao don’t know why something in their eyes or gaze, if you look closely enough you’ll see it. Their eyes are usually very prominent & distinctive somehow. Can attract, consciously or not, drama into their life, or just intense experiences. Are attracted to intensity. Possessive in love and can have stalker tendencies sometimes haha.

Sagittarius moon 🎠

Jokes and sarcasm as a coping mechanism. Loves people that can make them laugh or making others laugh. Vibrant energy. When underdeveloped can act wildly and irresponsibly and have self-distractive tendencies. Loves being around people. Can have some sort of disconnection from the mother from what I’ve noticed. Can hold her grudges or feel neglected or detached from her from a young age (either mom or other care giver) or was given too much independence and lack of structure, or just overall have some issues & disagreements with her/them. Therefore the child might feel lost and alone or neglected or still feel like that when they grow up so they look for some stability maybe outside.

Capricorn moon 👔

As I’ve said before, cap moons might have had to grow fast due to a missing parent from a young age or had heavy demands from parents, or had to work from a young age, many times willingly so. Was forced to grow up fast in their younger years which might give the opposite affect in later years and cause them to act out. Might feel alone or like the black sheep inside, but doesn’t like to show it. Guarded. Doesn’t like showing too much emotions on the outside, especially not crying in front of people. They give off a stable/grounded or sometimes a bit Indifferent energy. Looks at money as a security blanket. Aspires to have materialistic possessions. Ambitious and hard workers. Self-sufficient. Needs to feel like they are productive to feel stable mentally & emotionally. Can have suffered from anxieties/breakdowns/ depression without anybody else knowing. Good at concealing it. Can have a very well-developed & dry sense of humor.

Aquarius moon 🧊

Can have Calculated, Detached aura, or quite quirky and goofy in personality (especially if they feel comfortable around u). Might try to give a more serious self impression at first, but are goofballs inside. Intelligent. Independent. Good at small talk and communicating with strangers. Loves traveling and meeting new people and places. Adventurers. Might feel detached or somehow distant from the mother, she might have been more rational & practical and the person grew up being more independent and introverted bc of it. Might not feel too comfortable with too many intense emotions or feels awkward expressing or sharing them. The type to suffer in silence. Can be insecure inside but seem confident outside. Can have poker faces. In their heads a lot and can over think & analyze things. Can be good at reading others bc of that. Likes doing things their own way and doesn’t like feeling too strict by others. Might have a complex relationship with siblings, especially sisters from what I’ve noticed (for the guys especially), which might affect the way they view or treat women in general (together with the relationship with the mother).

Pisces moon ⚓️

As I’ve mentioned before, Pisces moon can be very deceiving or manipulative when they want, especially when young or underdeveloped. They might suffer from pathological lying disorder at some point , but that’s in extreme cases. They twist reality as they want to see it and can be delusional and disconnected or unrealistic. Can have a victim complex, putting their own faults or blames on others or refusing to see other sides than their own. Very sensitive and can be very close to the mother. Ethereal look especially the eyes, can be very hypnotic, deep and doe-like. You can really get lost in them. Gives soft/angelic features or look , even with harder placements. Usually spiritual somehow or believes in faith or the greater good, or that everything happens for a reason. Can be very giving and loving or selfless with people they love. Can be flaky and unstable emotionally. If underdeveloped might actually use people for their own interest and be quite self-absorbed and/or narcissistic. Can have very big aspirations for themselves. Can seek the spotlight and the glitz & glamour life (Neptune ruler).

I have officially mastered the void

So this morning (afternoon actually) i decided to tap into the void so I did the 61 points yoga nidra meditation with a subliminal. I didn’t really need the subliminal I was just using it cause my headphones are somewhat noise cancelling and my family was awake so I didn’t want to get distracted. But the meditation was really relaxing. At first I had some trouble staying focused but then I reminded myself why I was doing this and what I was doing it for. So it kept me motivated. After that i affirmed a little bit then I counted down from 100 and then I affirmed some more then I got bored of affirming so i started visualizing and then I got bored of that so I just decided to focus on the darkness behind my eyelids.

I never really took that advice from people when they said it helped cause I didn’t believe them but it actually worked. Out of everything else I did that was the one thing that sent me straight to the void. I think for the most part it was just letting go of that desperate feeling i always have when I try to enter. I always feel like I’m forcing myself to do it so I just let go and kind of forgot about what I was doing while still keeping that intention.

I was getting pretty anxious tho because of the time so I just got out but i did it again and it sent me straight to the void again. So now I know the secret to getting into the void is to just let go of that desperation and to stop forcing yourself, just let it happen. If you feel you’ve affirmed enough stop affirming, if you feel you’ve focused on your breathing enough, go back to your automatic breathing pattern STOP FORCING YOURSELF IT WILL GET YOU NOWHERE!!

and I know a lot of people stress about not being aware in the void and not affirming for your desires but stressing over that is exactly what’s going to make you forget tbh. When you let go of that desperation you let go of those other doubts too, those things that were stopping you from getting there in the first place. I feel like removing yourself from those thoughts is really effective in getting you what you want.

I will say it might help to have a list of things you want either written down or set in your mind because it will be a lot easier to remember what you’re going to affirm. When you’re in the void or even before you tap in completely you’re supposed to be super relaxed so it might be a little difficult to bring up those thoughts but because of how different the void is from the 3D it’s kind of hard to forget. Especially if you’ve been trying for a long time.

The void isn’t really something you question, you know for sure you’re in cause you can’t hear feel see taste or smell anything so it’s pretty identifiable. And because you’ve reminded yourself over and over that that’s what the void feels like, once you feel it you’re going to be like OHHH ok now i know to affirm for my desires. You’ve been training your brain to associate the void with your desires so of course once you recognize that you’re in you’re going to remember to affirm for your desires.

Also I don’t really like using the term void personally, but it’s what I learned it as. I feel like calling it the void just makes it sound so otherworldly and extraterrestrial and scary tbh. I think that’s what was holding me back as well, fear. I know that Neville Goddard refers to it as the I AM state which is a perfect name for it because it really is a state of just BEING like you’re not worried about anything else other than yourself and that’s the beauty of it. I would go on more cause there’s so much I can say but overall i hope you just let you go of that desperation so that you can finally push through and get everything you’ve been wanting because you deserve it.