Badn3w - Beast Coast

the way dennis grabs onto mac has me unwell

the gang as calico critters

Dennis Dee

Charlie Mac

Frank

dee + best looks 

taking the piss, shit, and vomit show seriously is my fav hobby

Oh, good! You got my signal.

Thinking about the way Mac misremembers Dennis leaving. In his own mind, he wishes he left with Dennis, but in reality he didn't. He let Dennis walk away and out of his life. He didn't chase after Dennis, but he wishes he did.

A theory for why Dennis acts different towards Mac after returning from North Dakota is that Dennis is resentful towards Mac for this very reason. Mac let him walk away. He had always thought Mac would be there by his side, to catch him when he faltered, but Mac had failed him. Dennis was waiting for someone to chase him, and it should have been Mac, but Mac didn't. Mac didn't even bat an eye. Mac let Dennis slip away, and this is something he will never forget.

When Dennis was away, he never checked in with Mac. We know he gave Mac a fake number, so Mac couldn't contact him, but Dennis has Mac's number memorized. He could've called Mac, but he never did. Maybe he was avoiding Mac. Maybe he didn't want to show that he cared for Mac when, in his mind, Mac didn't care about him.

I wonder if Mac is aware of this. I wonder if this is why Mac wishes he had chased after Dennis. I wonder if Mac remembers that night this way because it's what he so badly wishes had happened. He wishes he had followed Dennis, but he didn't.

Maybe he thinks Dennis would love him if he had.

i cant stop thinking about y2k dee

"If that's what love does to your eyes,

Then I would be blind,

You're like the morning sun,

And, oh, it hurts so bad,

You keep me warm even though I might be dead inside,

I can't get any closer,

Oh, how hard I tried. "

If I Say I Love You by Summer Salt and The Dinosaur's Skin

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yeah mac and charlie would push each other into an active volcano to save themselves but ultimately if they both had to die they'd do it together