figuring out how to get rid of screen addiction is like trying to figure out how to stop a nicotine addiction while also having a job centered around smoking cigarettes and having half your social life be in smoke breaks
womp womp
You've gotta be fucking kidding me
When I say there are some days where I dont even get the opportunity to fuck my morning up, that the first thought of the day can be either a trigger to worse thoughts or something my unconscious vomited into the conscious sphere first opportunity it gets, I'm not kidding.
My bf is currently worrying about mystery money transfers out of his account into some random other bank account we are not familiar with. It doesn't affect our finances, more so his personal spending. Still concerning.
Why is it that I'm still suddenly a little kid freaking out that someone around me is upset and I have to fix it because the distress of other people is unsafe? Wack
I can provide him emotional and practical support but beyond that it is not my problem to solve. It is not my responsibility to fix.
(he's not asking or even expecting me to fix this problem, he's organising it all. I'm just built traumatised)
One of the worst things about being codependent is having to remind yourself over and over again the inherent healthy separation between Self and Other
watching yt essays on oyasumi punpun and watching punpun's mindset be described as fundamentalist has clicked something in place deep within me
I genuinely think there was no greater insight into the modern Christian mindset than when the Pope said he very much hoped Hell was empty and he was absolutely hounded by both Catholics and Protestants outraged at the idea of a man who wanted a place of infinite suffering to have nobody in it.
WINTER GHOSTS by Sean Fitzgerald.
Good app