Ever Since I Was A Little Girl I Knew I Wanted To Go Missing

My bf is currently worrying about mystery money transfers out of his account into some random other bank account we are not familiar with. It doesn't affect our finances, more so his personal spending. Still concerning.

Why is it that I'm still suddenly a little kid freaking out that someone around me is upset and I have to fix it because the distress of other people is unsafe? Wack

I can provide him emotional and practical support but beyond that it is not my problem to solve. It is not my responsibility to fix.

(he's not asking or even expecting me to fix this problem, he's organising it all. I'm just built traumatised)

One of the worst things about being codependent is having to remind yourself over and over again the inherent healthy separation between Self and Other

Favourite Nicole Dollanganger song?

white trashing

if you suddenly don’t support the shooter bc he’s right wing I’m shaking you like a rag doll I’m throwing you into mount doom please look me in the eyes and remember that your biggest battle is not left vs right it is up versus down. they want you divided. keep your eyes on the prize. you want to eat the rich? so do the millions living in rural america. so do your farmers, your electricians, your welders, your fishermen. the men and women’s bodies who are exploited for labor. the class disparity the fear mongering the human rights violations stems from ABOVE!! they want you to despise each other to alienate each other to think we are not both human beings suffering for their profit. do not cover your eyes with their wool

Love when I get dysregulated by a trigger and the rest of my night until sleep is anxiety and being in freeze mode, barely able to eat or think a thought that isn't revolving around the trigger. Nervous system, ma'am, do you not think you're being a little dramatique

I had to

Update: It's probably just asthma! We plan to give him a proper scan next week to confirm but the conscious scan indicated no heart disease activity!

You've gotta be fucking kidding me

You know you fucked up when Count Dankula on your ass about being a Nazi