Getting Shot In The Head Probably Feels Soooo Good For Like A Second

Was talking with a friend about all this and we have concluded that if karmic debt is a thing than all my past lives have wikipedia pages

Aight, so a suspect has been caught. In the next couple of days we’re going to be bombarded with a cavalcade of information about Luigi Mangione. As we start this period I want everyone to remember:

The killer--whether he is Mangione or another man--is a living, breathing, human being. He has followed people you don’t like, held beliefs you disagree with, and possibly voting for politicians you think suck.

He still shot a man with the blood of millions on his hands. He still caused an outpouring of rage that caused BCBS to roll back its ghoulish anesthesia policy.

Carve that into your fucking minds. Mass media is about to do its damnedest to remind us to hate each other, not the top .001%. Do not let them do this. Y’all understand what I’m saying? Here, lemme spell it out more clearly:

DO NOT FUCKING PURITY TEST THIS GUY, ASSHOLES!!

And if you see people fixating on his purity over the message he sent, call them out on it.

We have lost again and again and again on healthcare because we keep letting the rich divide us. Remember: the people united will never be defeated.

Edit: A couple of people have asked me to not convict Mangione in my post, and they're right. Mangione has been arrested on gun charges, not for the murder, and regardless of the charge he obviously hasn't been convicted yet. It's too soon to lay Brian Thompson on his head. I've modified the post to reflect that.

That said, what I've said here applies to whoever the killer is. As the media circus plays out, a lot of talking heads will be pulling out all stops to remind us to hate each other, not the insurance CEOs. Do not fall for their tricks!

My bf is currently worrying about mystery money transfers out of his account into some random other bank account we are not familiar with. It doesn't affect our finances, more so his personal spending. Still concerning.

Why is it that I'm still suddenly a little kid freaking out that someone around me is upset and I have to fix it because the distress of other people is unsafe? Wack

I can provide him emotional and practical support but beyond that it is not my problem to solve. It is not my responsibility to fix.

(he's not asking or even expecting me to fix this problem, he's organising it all. I'm just built traumatised)

One of the worst things about being codependent is having to remind yourself over and over again the inherent healthy separation between Self and Other

Love when I get dysregulated by a trigger and the rest of my night until sleep is anxiety and being in freeze mode, barely able to eat or think a thought that isn't revolving around the trigger. Nervous system, ma'am, do you not think you're being a little dramatique

The various conflicts happening in recent years have truly demonstrated how susceptible to propaganda and Othering everyone is, it's kinda scary. Your government fucks up and suddenly you and everyone you know is inherently evil and must be killed off. Unironically running with racially profiling nicknames, not letting """oppressors"""" (read, people who happen to be citizens of a Naughty Country) be justifiably worried for their loved ones who suffer the crime of being born somewhere. Automatically assuming that geopolitical positioning means you are your government. A lot of people can never claim to be aware of anything ever again.

I've been able to get past it for the most part since I've been doing my placement and not getting the chance to dwell or ruminate much. Now that my schedule is slowing down and placement is ending, I have more time in the day to be preyed upon by myself. Fuck yeeeeaaaaaah

When I say there are some days where I dont even get the opportunity to fuck my morning up, that the first thought of the day can be either a trigger to worse thoughts or something my unconscious vomited into the conscious sphere first opportunity it gets, I'm not kidding.

it just keeps rotting

Fellas is the path ahead bleak and hopeless or