I Haven't Seen Dancing Pumpkin Guy ONCE This Year, Are You Guys Okay?

damn- almost-

i've got the deranged look down, but i need to grow my hair out a bit more

here's a random word generator--whatever word it gives you is now the thing you are the deity of

i hope that one day i will finally be ok….i’ll make a cherry pie when it is all over

Day 13/20, 3rd October, 2023 – Tuesday

I had my English and Physics tests today... I think English went better than last time, and I think Physics went better too, but I'm not too sure about the latter. I have Maths tomorrow, so I need to study for that. I hope that one goes better than last time too. 

I took a test on like where you are on the ‘nonverbal immediacy scale’ and the average female score is 102 and male is 93.8 and I got 56 lolololol

here it is if ya want (reblog/reply w/ what you get!!)

So. I had an academic awakening today. My dad and I were looking for my old end of term transcripts so that I can send them in for applications, and I genuinely remember thinking that my grades have been horrible since the 8th grade because of lockdown and stuff- but I was SO wrong. Like I could not have been more wrong than this. I thought that because I was messing up maths at the time and getting 3 and 4 out of 7 (ib myp) that all my grades were similar. BUT THEY WEREN'T???????????????? BRO I WAS CONSISTENTLY GETTING 6'S AND 7'S IN ALL MY OTHER SUBJECTS EXCEPT MATHS, OCCASIONALLY PHYSICS, AND LANGUAGE. YOU'RE TELLING ME I'M NOT ACTUALLY STUPID???? AND IT ISN'T JUST LIKE 8TH GRADE OR SOMETHING- I'VE BEEN GETTING SIMILAR SCORES CONSISTENTLY SINCE THE 7TH GRADE ONWARDS, MY TRANSCRIPTS FOR 9TH ARE ACTUALLY WONDERFUL, AND MY 10TH TERM ONE REPORT IS ALSO QUITE PHENOMENAL (I EVEN GOT A 7 IN PHYSICS THEN WTF, THE ONLY LOW SCORE I GOT WAS IN MATHS AND THAT WAS A 4, THE ONLY 4 I GOT). EVERYTHING CLEARLY WENT DOWNHILL SOMEWHERE THOUGH, BECAUSE MY TERM TWO TRANSCRIPT FOR 10TH GRADE HAS MY GRADES DROPPING (THE SCIENCES ALL DROPPED DOWN TO 5 AND THEN GOT PROGRESSIVELY WORSE IN MY PREBOARDS). THE WORST PART IS THAT I CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHY MY SCORES STARTED DROPPING THEN. LIKE IT WASN'T BOYS, I LIKED A BOY THEN TOO, BUT IT DIDN'T AFFECT MY SCORES. IT WASN'T SOCIAL MEDIA OR SCREENTIME OR ANYTHING LIKE THAT BECAUSE I HAD NO SOCIAL MEDIA THEN AND I WAS STILL CONSTANTLY TEXTING MY FRIENDS ALL THE TIME AND I KNEW HOW TO BYPASS ALL THE PARENTAL CONTROLS AND I WAS STILL SUPER OBSESSED WITH WHATEVER FANDOM I WAS IN???? I actually feel like my ocd started getting worse around that time and I also think that's when I started altering my sleep schedule and staying up way later than I usually would. So, in order to return to my former academic little self, I'm going to try and speak to my school counsellor about my ocd and try and fix my sleep schedule. If a younger me can do it so well and consistently, why can't older, present me? If a younger me could learn with such zeal and passion and reflect it in her scores, what's to say i can't do the same thing now too?

petition to rename the usa ‘south canada’

had my final io for language b today~ it was alright- i should've prepared better- i feel stupid because i messed up the third part where they ask you questions based on other themes from the course because i didn't remember that you're not supposed to connect it back to the picture and that you're only supposed to speak about the topic/theme being asked... anyway, my teacher said she was ok with it despite that and she'll let me know if i really do need to take a retest, so? it was alright, yeah.

it's not that hard tbh- I just have no motivation whatsoever because of various reasons- but tyyy

ALSO I TAKE PHYSICS TOO- I TAKE ALL THREE SCIENCES HL SO- gl with your IA btw!!!

(also help my cw is now overdue)

SOMEONE MOTIVATE ME TO FINISH MY BIO COURSEWORK SO THAT I CAN STUDY FOR MY TRIAL EXAMS, PLEASE AND THANK YOU

when exactly is uptown funk gon give it to me?