🎃 Kinktober - Day Six: Age Kink Com Esteban Kukurizcka.

🎃 kinktober - day six: age kink com esteban kukurizcka.

— aviso: age kink, sexo sem proteção, creampie, fluffy.

— word count: 4k.

— nota: inspirado em call me by your name. AMO VC KUKU.

1984, Menorca - Espanha.

você nunca tinha visto cidade mais bonita que Menorca. pertencente às ilhas Baleares, era notória por suas praias paradisíacas e por suas paisagens pitorescas. era de tirar o fôlego na parte da manhã, quando o sol iluminava cada pedra das ruínas, refletia incandescente no mar de águas límpidas e aquecia a pele em um beijo morno. sobretudo, na parte da noite, quando a brisa era fresca e revigorante, fazendo os vestidos de verão inflarem como os de Marilyn Monroe, e as luzes eram brilhantes e hipnotizantes.

você morava em Portugal há bons anos e estudava literatura na Universidade de Lisboa. quando surgiu a oportunidade de escrever a monografia baseada nas obras um famoso escritor espanhol, não hesitou em fazê-lo. tinha sido seu professor de semântica que lhe apresentara a ideia, e tinha sido ele quem tinha entrado em contato com o tal escritor para que a sua monografia pudesse ser a mais completa possível, incluindo entrevistas com o próprio autor.

o problema era que Alfredo Kukuriczka, o escritor, era um homem de idade. tinha dificuldade para ouvir o que lhe era perguntado através de ligações e as cartas demoravam muito para irem e virem. aquilo significaria perder tempo, o que você não estava apta a fazer.

então, o escritor tomou a iniciativa de convidá-la para visitá-lo em Menorca. você estava de férias, ele estava livre e a comunicação seria mais fácil daquela maneira. ele pagaria pela sua passagem e ofereceria estadia em sua casa e você poderia passear pela cidade o quanto quisesse. era o plano perfeito.

e, por um tempo, tinha sido. a casa dele era uma maravilhosa construção cheia de janelas amplas, um jardim robusto, rodeada por um pomar de frutas graciosas. tinha uma piscina de água natural e a mobília era antiga, como se tivesse saltado de um filme de época. possuía espreguiçadeiras e um acesso remoto à praia.

a mulher dele, Isabel, era um anjo. cozinhava paella e polvo como ninguém. sempre enchia o seu prato no café da manhã e lia o seu trabalho com uma grande adoração. você a ensinou como fazer pastel de nata e ela lhe ensinou a fazer papas. frequentemente, era comum que ela pegasse os seus vestidos e blusas no varal para costurar um furinho ou outro no tecido.

Alfredo era genial. apesar da idade avançada, seus pensamentos eram como os de um jovem adulto cheio de energia. divagava por horas em qualquer assunto e lhe ensinava coisas que você jamais vira na faculdade. pediu para que você escrevesse para ele. falava por horas como via o talento em você e como você seria uma escritora de sucesso, mesmo que ainda não tivesse nada pronto. via como sua mente maquinava e se impressionava com o seu traquejo. não via aquilo há muito tempo.

foi em uma tarde chuvosa que um táxi parou no pátio de entrada. você estava no seu quarto, redigindo o trabalho em uma máquina de escrever antiga que o seu mentor tinha lhe emprestado. as gotas de chuva gordas batiam contra a janela, fazendo um barulho gostoso de ouvir. no entanto, o ronco do motor se sobressaiu, atraindo sua atenção. não era comum visitas.

quando o viu, jurou sentir um arrepio correr por toda a espinha. era alto, tinha cabelos claros e um nariz bonito. equilibrou duas malas nas mãos enquanto a esposa do seu mentor apareceu, o abraçando carinhosamente. ele tentava se mover para que ela não se molhasse, mas ela parecia não se importar.

você ficou os minutos seguintes no quarto, se perguntando quem era aquele homem e se ele ficaria com vocês no restante das férias. por um momento, teve pânico de que as suas tardes nas espreguiçadeiras tivessem fim com a chegada dele. ou então, que ele fosse outro orientado do autor e roubasse seu tempo de trabalho.

Isabel lhe chamou no quarto meia hora depois da chegada do desconhecido. quando você abriu a porta, pôde sentir o cheirinho de café coado aromatizando toda a casa. te convidou para tomar o café da tarde e você, que nunca recusava, assentiu timidamente.

o homem estava sentado em uma das cadeiras da mesa da cozinha, os cabelos molhados. tinha trocado a camiseta, optando por uma que não estivesse molhada. tinha uma toalha nas pernas, que secavam o restante do corpo. ria deliciosamente com Alfredo, bebericando a xícara de café.

a porta dupla da cozinha estava aberta, trazendo o cheirinho de chuva e terra molhada para dentro. os passarinhos cantavam fervorosamente enquanto o sol iluminava as gotas de chuva aqui e ali. o tom dourado lavava a cozinha e você jurou nunca ter visto um homem tão bonito.

"aí está ela!" Alfredo sorriu ao te ver entrar na cozinha. "Esteban, essa é a minha pupila. está escrevendo sua monografia sobre minhas obras e passando um tempo conosco."

"foi ela que me ensinou a fazer esses pastéis de nata!" Isabel colocou as mãos sobre os seus ombros, acariciando. sobre a mesa, o pratinho dele estava cheio dos docinhos portugueses.

"este é nosso filho, Estebán. estava em Londres e veio passar o restante das férias conosco."

"é um prazer." você se inclinou para a mesa para apertar a mão dele. "também é escritor?"

" não. meu pai bem que queria, mas não dei esse orgulho a ele." Estebán comentou com um sorrisinho de canto. "mas dou aula de literatura espanhola em Birmingham."

"em Birmingham? uau." você não evitou ficar surpresa, arrancando um sorrisinho orgulhoso do homem. "desde quando?"

"fazem alguns bons vinte anos."

"de repente, me sinto velho." Alfredo comentou, fazendo você e Estebán sorrir.

depois da chegada de Estebán, tudo havia ficado melhor. quando você se sentava para discutir o seu trabalho com Alfredo, ele sempre sentava junto com vocês dois. por ser formado em literatura espanhola, havia estudado a literatura do próprio pai e podia contribuir com a visão acadêmica que, sozinha, você jamais alcançaria.

quando você queria ir à cidade, Estebán sempre se oferecia para levá-la, te poupando do passeio de bicicleta no sol escaldante. tinha te apresentado a melhor sorveteria da cidade, além da melhor livraria onde vocês passavam horas lendo e tomando café. um dia, decidiu levar você e os pais dele para um jantar num restaurante aconchegante com uma deliciosa comida caseira. depois de deixar Alfredo e Isabel em casa, te convidou para ir até um bar na beira da estrada que ele sempre ia quando era adolescente e vivia em Menorca.

"e como foi crescer aqui?" você perguntou, bebericando a cerveja que havia pedido. pessoalmente, era uma menina que preferia aperol spritz, mas duvidada que o bar serviria aquilo.

"foi bom. tem muitos turistas, então eu conheci muitas pessoas enquanto morava aqui." ele brincou com o copo de uísque que bebia. "inclusive minha ex-mulher."

"você já foi casado?"

"por onze anos." ele sorriu, um pouco triste. "as coisas começaram a dar errado quando ela descobriu que eu era estéril e nós não poderíamos ter filhos biológicos. tentei convencê-la de adotar, mas... ela não se interessou."

"vocês se divorciaram recentemente?" não conseguiu evitar. estava tonta, um pouco letárgica. acariciou o braço dele para mostrar apoio.

"há um ano." ele encarou a sua mão delicada sobre a pele dele, cheia de anéis, com as unhas pintadas de preto. sorriu, grato pelo carinho. "mas eu não quero te encher com essas bobagens."

"claro... só estou um pouco chocada que você já se casou e divorciou. achei que você tinha uns trinta." você recolheu as suas mãos de volta ao seu copo de cerveja, mudando de assunto.

"tenho quarenta e dois." ele riu, dando um fim no copo de uísque. "mas, obrigado pelo elogio."

quarenta e dois. soava bonito na boca. a língua tocava o céu da boca e o "s" era puxado ao final. ele já tinha dito que trabalhava como professor há vinte anos, mas você não conseguia acreditar que ele tinha passado dos trinta. quando sorria, parecia ter, no máximo, vinte e oito. você tinha se atraído por ele com tanta facilidade que era assustador.

tinha começado com as caronas e a ajuda acadêmica. depois, foi a presença. começou a sentar-se na mesinha na área da piscina enquanto você tomava sol, lendo um clássico qualquer enquanto te pedia opiniões sobre os livros. discutiram por dias o temperamento de Heathcliff e a fragilidade de Cathy enquanto tomavam soda italiana preparada por Isabel. Estebán a levou para conhecer as partes desertas da praia que rodeava a casa e te ensinou a mergulhar para observar os corais. vocês assistiam filmes antigos até tarde na televisão da sala da casa. faziam compras juntos para a casa nas feirinhas de Menorca.

era impossível não se apaixonar. ele estava sempre tão bonito. usava camisetas de botões, shorts acima do joelho e óculos de sol sempre que iria sair. andava com os cabelos bagunçados e te convidava para fumar tarde da noite no jardim de trás da casa. sempre levava uma garrafa de orujo para as sessões de escrita e vocês tomavam uma dose sempre que acabavam um tópico.

foi em uma noite quente que, depois de beberem muitas doses de orujo, vocês decidiram sentar à beira da piscina. seu trabalho estava nas conclusões finais e você deixaria Menorca em breve. estava triste, embora satisfeita. em breve estaria formada e poderia fazer o que quiser com a sua vida. por outro lado, talvez nunca mais voltasse a ver Alfredo, Isabel ou Estebán.

"você pode sempre visitar Menorca. meu pai já te considera uma filha." Estebán dizia. estava tão bêbado quanto você, com as bochechas vermelhas e os cabelos bagunçados, mas não admitia com facilidade. "e, claro, tem de conhecer Birmingham. eu serei o seu guia."

"seus pais adorariam Portugal. você devia convencê-los a ir. e claro, ir junto." seus pés balançavam na água límpida.

"podemos nos organizar quanto a isso." ele a mirou, os olhinhos quase fechados brilhando na escuridão. quando sentiu a mão de Estebán na parte de baixo das costas, gelou. "mas, antes, vamos nos concentrar em ficar sóbrios."

ele a empurrou com tudo para dentro da piscina. você evitou gritar para que não acordasse Isabel e Alfredo, mas o fuzilou com o olhar ao voltar a superfície. ele já estava na piscina, ao seu lado, retirando todo o seu poder de puxá-lo para dentro.

"você parece uma criança para um homem da sua idade." você comentou, emburrada, arrancando uma gargalhada de Estebán.

"obrigado, é o meu charme."

nadaram por minutos à fio na escuridão do jardim, banhados pela luz prata do luar. brincaram, riram, espirraram água um no outro como crianças. conversaram assuntos sérios de novo. pintaram as palavras de melancolia ao confessarem que sentiriam saudades de Menorca quando fossem embora. se encararam por bons segundos, se aproximando demais um do outro.

Estéban te olhou como se fosse a primeira vez. como se esquecesse que você tinha vinte e três e ele quarenta e dois. como se descobrisse o quão bonita você era. admirou o seu vestido florido agarrar-se ao seu corpo e adornar todas as suas curvas, do busto bonito até a cintura submergida. quis pegar o seu rosto e beijá-la, onde ninguém podia ver, mas sentia-se extremamente errado em pensar em fazer aquilo. dava aula para centenas de meninas da sua idade na Universidade e sabia que, no fundo, eram apenas crianças brincando de ser adultas.

"devíamos ir dormir antes que você pegue um resfriado." foi tudo o que ele disse, acariciando o seu ombro antes de sair da piscina e oferecer ajuda para que você saísse também.

na sua última semana de estadia, o clima era de despedida. Alfredo te levou mais uma vez na cidade para lhe presentear com diversos livros da sua livraria favorita (que era a mesma de Estebán). Isabel tinha cozinhado todas as suas comidas favoritas e você tinha pintado as unhas dela de preto, como ela mesmo havia pedido. Estebán tinha comprado uma garrafa de vinho especial para o seu último jantar em Menorca.

depois da noite na piscina, ele havia se distanciado um pouquinho. você jurou ver um relance da atração dele por você naquele dia, mas tão rápido como havia aparecido, se foi. e nos outros dias, só se encontrava com você quando Isabel ou Alfredo estavam por perto.

é claro que ele tinha visto o brilho nos seus olhos. a correspondência, o desejo, a súbita alegria quando ele te olhou de outra maneira. ele percebia os olhares quando estavam juntos, a sua gentileza, seu interesse em ouvir as histórias que ele tinha para tocar. sentia o quão sensibilizada você ficava quando se encostavam sem intenções. via a confusão nos seus olhos para decidir se deveria se aproximar ou se afastar.

o muro que ele havia construído na última semana para separá-los pareceu ruir quando você adentrou a sala de jantar em shorts jeans mom e com uma camiseta de botões. estava tão linda. percebeu como havia ficado mais bronzeada nos últimos dias somente à luz do ambiente. tinha parado de ir à área da piscina para lhe fazer companhia.

os labradores da casa estavam deitados preguiçosamente no chão, mas se ergueram ao vê-la entrar. você acariciou ambos, Bernard e Beatrice, antes de se sentar à mesa. percebeu os olhos de Estebán fixos em você e sustentou o olhar até que ele fosse obrigado a desviar.

o jantar tinha sido agradável. comeram salmão, beberam o vinho caro que Estebán havia comprado e degustaram a maravilhosa torta de limão siciliano que Isabel havia feito. quando o sol se pôs e o vento soprou o cheiro de chuva, não demorou muito para que as gotas caíssem. o jantar terminou ao som de Édith Piaf na vitrola e você e Estebán admiraram enquanto Alfredo e Isabel dançavam juntos pela sala de jantar.

você resolveu dar início à arrumação, retirando os pratos e talheres em meio as reclamações de Isabel. "é o mínimo que eu posso fazer para agradecer a estadia", você argumentou. Estebán te ajudou a retirar a mesa e a limpar os pratos, cantarolando a melodia da música que tocava no cômodo do lado.

"eu queria agradecer pela sua visita. meus pais estão mais felizes do que nunca." ele disse, secando os pratos enquanto você lavava. "acho que a sua visita trouxe calor para essa casa novamente. obrigado."

"foi um prazer ficar aqui. eu amei as últimas semanas, não tenho como agradecer seu pai e sua mãe." você secou as mãos nos shorts, um pouco tímida. "e a você. você me ajudou e me recebeu nesses últimos dias. sou muito grata por isso, Estebán."

ele assentiu, sorrindo um pouco sem jeito com a sua confissão. estava com as bochechas avermelhadas como no dia em que nadaram juntos, bêbados de oruja.

"sobre aquela noite na piscina..." ele começou, mas você sinalizou para que ele parasse.

"não precisa falar sobre isso. eu entendi." ser rejeitada já era ruim o suficiente. não queria ter que ouvir ele se explicar.

"eu gosto de você. acho você inteligente, sagaz, linda, atraente... e mais um milhão de qualidades que eu poderia dizer por horas. mas, você é nova demais para mim." ele sorriu, um pouco triste. "quando você nasceu, eu já estava na faculdade, noivo. eu dou aula para meninas da sua idade todos os dias, eu não posso fazer isso com você."

"então foi por causa da minha idade?" Estebán assentiu. "isso é uma bobagem, idade é só um número, Estebán. nós conversamos todos os dias durante essas semanas, você viu como somos tão iguais. eu gostei de passar o tempo com você e você gostou de passar o tempo comigo. então, qual o problema? eu sou maior de idade."

"seria errado. seria como beijar uma irmã mais nova."

"você me vê como uma irmã mais nova?" você ergueu uma das sobrancelhas, impaciente.

"não... eu queria, mas não consigo."

"eu não vou implorar para você ficar comigo, Estebán." você terminou de guardar a louça. "não vou ser a sua justificativa caso você se arrependa."

silenciosamente, você deixou a cozinha e alegou cansaço para que pudesse se retirar. abraçou Isabel e Alfredo e se despediu dos labradores com beijinhos antes de subir as escadas e ir para o seu quarto.

ainda tinha uma mala inteira para arrumar. odiava ser tão procrastinadora, mas era inevitável. era como se a sua mente implorasse para que você ficasse em Menorca para sempre. que esquecesse a graduação e vivesse na ilha dia após dia, escrevendo e tomando sol.

a chuva não havia parado. pelo contrário, parecia aumentar a cada segundo. por isso, às três da manhã, quando você terminava de fechar a mala e guardá-la ao pé da penteadeira, foi difícil ouvir as batidas na porta. levou duas ou três investidas para que você escutasse e fosse atendê-la.

"pensei que estivesse dormindo." era Estebán. vestia uma camiseta velha e um shorts largo como pijama. "mas, lembrei que você dorme tarde, assim como eu."

"você quer alguma coisa?"

sem mais gentilezas, Estebán a puxou pela cintura e selou os seus lábios aos dele. tinham gosto de ojuro e cigarro, o que provavelmente tinha sido utilizado para que ele ganhasse coragem para ir até você. a língua era terna, cuidadosa, embora a força com que ele segurava sua cintura fosse absurda.

seus dedos se enterraram nos cabelos dele, coisa que você gostaria de ter feito há muito tempo. se beijaram apaixonadamente por bons segundos, matando toda a vontade que sentiram nos últimos dias. estavam a caminho da cama quando ele tropeçou e levou os dois ao chão.

uma risada fraca escapou dos seus lábios enquanto ele xingava baixinho. você subiu em cima dele, deixando um selar carinhoso na testa dele.

"você se machucou?" Estebán perguntou, preocupado.

"não, está tudo bem." você começou a desabotoar a camisa de botões. por baixo, não utilizava nada mais. deixou os seios desnudos, revelando os mamilos rijos à luz amarela do quarto. "você se machucou?"

Estebán apenas negou com a cabeça, admirando o seu corpo. depois de sua esposa, não havia ficado com mais ninguém. não sentia o interesse, nem o desejo. você lavou aquele pensamento da cabeça dele com tanta facilidade que ele se sentia quase culpado.

você puxou a camiseta dele para cima, revelando a pele bronzeadinha pelos últimos dias. com certa impaciência, ambos chutaram os shorts para fora do corpo, além das peças íntimas.

passaram alguns segundos se observando, respirando pesado devido a umidade em que o quarto se encontrava. Estebán era lindo. tinha as bochechas avermelhadas e os cabelos bagunçados. o seu pau era grande, com a glande rosada, pingando o pré-gozo.

não se demoraram em preliminares. Estebán a tocou na sua intimidade, deslizando os dedos para dentro de si enquanto você o masturbava lentamente. beijaram-se mais uma vez, as línguas deslizando em harmonia, saboreando a boca um do outro. quando os gemidos abafados começaram a escapar, você soube que os dois estavam altamente sensíveis e necessitados.

encaixou o membro dele com facilidade na sua entrada. não precisava de muito para que ele a deixasse molhada daquele jeito. quando deslizou o pau dele para dentro, um gemido baixinho verberou pelo quarto. Estebán agarrou a sua cintura, gemendo com você.

o quadril se movimentou, você rebolou no colo dele e sentiu a cabecinha atingir o seu ponto sensível dentro do seu canal apertado. as unhas se alojaram no peito desnudo de Kukuriczka, arranhando com uma necessidade assustadora.

“porra… você é divina, chiquita." o homem gemeu, baixinho. as mãos encontraram os seus seios, os apertando com força para que guiasse a velocidade dos seus movimentos. "você não sabe quantas noites sonhei com você em cima de mim desse jeito."

"e eu correspondo às suas expectativas?" suas mãos viajaram até os fios de cabelo claro, os puxando para trás. inclinou o seu corpo para frente, colando seus seios no peitoral clarinho.

"é muito melhor do que as minhas expectativas." o polegar acariciou as suas bochechas antes que ele segurasse o seu quadril, a deixando parada para que ele pudesse se movimentar dentro de você. os movimentos de vai e vem eram lentos e fortes, fazendo o seu corpo saltar a cada estocada. Estebán observava os seus olhos brilhando e a sua boca em formato de 'O', deliciado pela visão.

você sentiu os sentimentos da última semana fluírem pelo seu corpo violentamente. lembrou-se de todas às vezes que ele sorriu para você depois de uma piada, como segurou as suas mãos quando vocês mergulharam pela primeira vez e quando ele leu os seus trabalhos pessoais, elogiando cada um deles profusamente. sentiu-se completa ao ser possuída por ele, viciada nos olhos pequenos e escuros que a observavam com tanto interesse.

seus gemidos eram baixos, escondidos pelo constante gotejar da chuva. estavam abraçados àquela altura, escutando os corações palpitarem a todo vapor, enquanto Estebán se dedicava aos movimentos que, naquele momento, eram rápidos e descompassados.

"eu acho que estou apaixonado por você." ele confessou entre gemidos, segurando o seu rosto para que você o encarasse. a vontade de chorar quase a tomou por completo. doeria saber que voltaria à Portugal e teria que esquecê-lo.

"eu também estou apaixonada por você, Estebán. profundamente." o selar que veio em seguida foi calmo, destoando de todo o resto do ato. quando ele se agarrou aos seus cabelos e os movimentos tornaram-se mais errôneos, você soube que ele estava próximo. a visão dos olhos dele revirando foi o suficiente para trazer você ao ápice em harmonia ao dele.

se encararam por bons minutos enquanto a respiração se regularizava. você tremia, tomada por uma gama de emoções que jamais sentira antes.

"fique em Menorca." ele pediu, acariciando seus cabelos.

"eu não posso." você sorriu, tomada pela vontade de chorar, mais uma vez.

"eu sei. mas, não custava pedir, certo?" seus dedos se entrelaçaram e ele deixou um selar sobre as juntas dos seus dedos. "volte para Menorca."

"isso eu pretendo fazer. com você aqui, de preferência."

"não se preocupe. eu esperarei ansiosamente."

[...]

a apresentação da sua monografia tinha sido um sucesso. uma nota dez e um convite para publicação em uma revista científica eram mais que suficientes por todo o trabalho duro que havia feito.

tinha escrito para Alfredo e Isabel, enviando o seu convite de formatura, além da sua aprovação. tinha, também, enviado o convite para Estebán, embora não tivesse esperança de que nenhum deles comparecesse.

você e Estebán tinham trocado poucas cartas desde a sua volta à Portugal. contavam sobre as suas vidas monótonas e divagavam sobre a saudade que sentiam um do outro, mas nada trazia de volta a sensação que tinha vivido em Menorca. sentia falta do cheiro dele, dos olhos pequenos e do sorriso bonito. queria beijá-lo de novo e beber com ele até o sol nascer. queria fazer amor como haviam feito no último dia, por incansáveis horas, no chão, na cama, no chuveiro.

a cerimônia de formatura havia sido cansativa, embora emotiva. ganhou o seu diploma, abraçou seus pais e o irmão mais novo e se despediu das amigas que iriam embora para sempre. estava usando um dos vestidos que comprara na Espanha e sentia saudades dos Kukuriczka mais do que devia.

quando a multidão se dispersou do local da colação e você tirou um tempo para tirar foto com os familiares, foi quando o viu. de terno preto e gravata azul escura. estava de braços dados com a mãe e o pai ao lado. uma gotinha salgada de lágrima escorreu pela sua bochecha.

"ai está, nossa escritora." Alfredo sorriu, a puxando para um abraço. "não achou que eu fosse perder a formação de uma nova escritora, achou?"

"ah, que maravilha! foi tudo tão lindo. nós amamos ler o seu trabalho." Isabel a encheu de beijos no rosto.

Estebán a puxou para um abraço apertado e as lágrimas vieram sem pudor. o cheirinho dele continuava o mesmo. você queria mergulhar naquele homem e nunca sair de dentro dele.

"vou te levar de volta para Menorca." ele colou a testa dele a sua, deixando um selar logo em seguida. "ao contrário de você, eu vou implorar. e caso se sinta arrependida, pode me usar como justificativa."

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f1 grid x reader

warnings: cussing, unhinged, satire, complete jokes (are they?...), dark humor ig…idk, talk of age gaps, sa allegations, no just kidding...very much reading people to the filth

authors note: lmaoo don’t ask me why i wrote this cause idk…but this is so unhinged 😭😭 please don’t take offense to this and if you do…i said don’t…all jokes i love them, some of them, you can find it funny or you won’t, just wanted to get this out of my drafts

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Video starts with Y/N holding the phone, in selfie mode.

Y/N: I'm passing the phone to someone who had the biggest breakup in F1 history with a blond German boy named Nico.

Lewis: Babe, no!

Y/N: What, too soon? It's been years but okay! Sorry! Okay, let me start again. I'm passing the phone to someone who said "Fuck Mercedes" and is going to Ferrari for 2025!

Lewis: Y/N, no!! You cannot say that! You’re gonna get me in trouble!!

Y/N: Fine, fine, fine. I'm passing the phone to the GOAT of this generation with the most wins in F1 history, yet he was robbed of the championship in 2021.

Y/N passes the phone to Lewis.

Lewis: stares at Y/N then laughs “I'm passing the phone to someone who is known more for his memes than driving skills.”

Lewis passes the phone to George.

George: laughs “Hahaha real funny…I'm passing the phone to someone who took six years to get their first win."

Lando: “Dude, what the fuck?! Fuck you, Woody! I'm passing the phone to someone who's younger than me yet acts years older than me.”

Oscar: “....You're not funny... I'm passing the phone to someone who's most likely losing their seat next season.”

Logan: “The fuck, Oscar! I thought we were friends! Low blow, mate. I'm passing the phone to someone who has yet to get P1, yet all his friends who got into F1 after him have won races already.”

Alex: “....And that, Logan, is why you're losing your seat. Mr. What The Fuck is A Kilometer. Anyway, I'm passing the phone to someone who just got brutally murdered by an interviewer on Sky Sports regarding their F1 career, if you could call it that.”

Daniel: “You shouldn’t be talking Mr. I Have No Wins….eat shit…I'm passing the phone to the shortest person on the grid but cusses more than anyone here.”

Yuki: “That interviewer was right, why the fuck do you still have a seat in F1?!! Dickhead. I'm passing the phone to a man with good fashion sense and his teammate might steal his seat.”

Zhou: “Bro….really. I'm passing the phone to someone who acts like he's Australian when he’s not…oh, and his seat is at risk too.”

Bottas: “Yeah, yeah, whatever mate. I'm passing the phone to someone who has enough penalties in just nine races that he can be banned from racing in F1… permanently.

Kevin: “You're so funny, Bottas, hahaha…ha. I'm passing the phone to a dickhead.”

Nico: “Fuck you too asshole. I'm passing the phone to a person who has a shitty ass dad who deserves to be in jail.”

Max: burst out laughing “Ah, no lies told there. I'm passing the phone to someone who only has a seat to protect me from having any real competition…”

You laugh in the background “Oh shit.”

Checo: blank stare “Motherfucker! That just shows your true colors... I'm passing the phone to... who am I supposed to pass it to... uhhh... Y/N.

Takes phone

Y/N: “Oh, I know! I'm passing the phone to someone who has sexual assault “allegations” against them, but the FIA wants to hide it. I can’t go near him for my safety, so I’ll just turn the camera towards him... *pans the camera to Christian Horner*

Everyone is stunned and silent, then there’s Lewis laughing in the background

Y/N: “Oh! I have another one! Hey Kelly, “i hear you like them young”, to be more specific at the ripe age of 17... mhmmm, she's a pedoo. What Kendrick say “TRYNA STRIKE A CORD AND ITS PROBABLY A MINNORRRR” *pans the camera to Kelly Piquet*

silence.

Lewis: runs towards Y/N and grabs the camera “Yup, that's enough for today. You're trying to start problems and get people beat up”

Video ends with Lewis taking the phone away from Y/N, shaking his head while laughing.

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blackswanmary

1 year ago

Something you paid for

Fernando Alonso x Reader

Summary: Two years into the best relationship of your life, you find out that Fernando thinks you don't love him. But it get worse and you realize the whole world think of you as gold digger.

Word count: 5.7k

Tags: female!reader, established relationship, slut shaming, reader is confused, fernando is even more confused, miscommunication, cursing, a bit angsty, hurt/comfort, soft smut (almost not there), happy ending, not beta read

Relationship: Fernando Alonso x Reader

Note: I'm honestly not 100% sure about this story, a had another ending planned but I wanted it to be HEA. I don't know. :(

I'm sorry if it's rushed or full of mistakes. Feedback and opinions are appreciated xx

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It was supposed to be just a pause in your studies. Something quick since your brain was already mushy from studying and writing your research for too long.

So when you picked up your phone, to aimlessly scroll through social media, you didn’t expect to see a new, sudden rush of comments on your instagram page. There were thousands of comments in your last post, calling you a gold digger, and much, much worse. Ever since you started dating Fernando, you had been getting these comments, and in the beginning they were worse but slowed down with time. Now they were on a new high again. Confused more than anything, you went on to try and find out what happened for this to happen all of a sudden. You and Fernando hadn’t gone out together for more than two weeks and you hadn’t been to a race week for a month.

After digging you eventually found out what happened. Deuxmoi posted something that made everyone quickly think it was you.

A lady who’s 12 years younger than her famous Spanish Formula One driver boyfriend, is known for being with him for his money. Many tried to warn him, but it seems like he doesn’t believe or doesn’t care.

Confused, you stared at the post, scrolling through hundreds of nasty, poisonous comments. That wasn’t true. Fernando did give you lots of presents and spoiled you a lot but he did this out of his own want, not because you asked for or demanded it. He was constantly giving you things, especially clothes, shoes and bags, and loved seeing you wearing them. He also gave you an Aston Martin car on your last birthday. He even went as far as getting you a credit card attached to his, for whenever you needed to buy books or go on a shopping spree. You never minded it because you knew he liked it, instead of refusing you were just grateful for his generosity.

You wondered if you should talk about it with him, but deep down you knew Fernando was never one to care for gossip of any kind. And this probably wasn’t even true to begin with, just someone trying to stir the pot. So you just limited the comments in your posts and went on about your day.

A week later you went to the race, it was Silverstone, and the last before summer break. You decided to dress your best, wearing clothes that were pretty and elegant and had been given to you by Fernando.

He always treated you like a princess, he was kind and patient, and always found a way to align your schedules to spend time together. He liked taking you on trips during summer break and to ski trips during winter break. Fernando adored having you around in race weeks, you could see in his face that he was radiant with your presence. And you loved all the gifts and the trips but you especially loved staying home with him, lazing around, making love on the sofa and taking walks hand in hand in his hometown. You loved helping him cook, trying your best to follow his orders and not mess up his recipes.

You walked into the paddock hand in hand, and you kept him company whenever you could. He would keep you around the most, only letting you go when he had meetings or media duties. During that time, you would go back to his room and do a little more of your research, writing your thesis.

You left his room so you could grab a snack and a coffee at the hospitality, but as you passed by a hallway, you heard someone saying your name in conversation. You stopped, leaning against the wall to hear, with a glance, you saw two mechanics talking.

“Seems like everyone tried to warn him, man. But it’s like he doesn’t mind dating a gold digger.”

“Is she a gold digger, really?”

“Man, she doesn’t do anything! She doesn't even work.”

“Has anyone warned Fernando?”

“Everyone.”

You went back inside his driver’s room, sitting down, completely shocked. So that’s what people thought of you? You knew people on the internet talked about it, but they were strangers so you wouldn’t allow yourself to mind because those people didn’t know you. But the people in the garage? They’ve known you for almost two years now, you were always kind and polite to them, even going as far as bringing them cookies and donuts as thank you for welcoming you so well.

You avoided crying, it would ruin your makeup, and Fernando would notice it very quickly. So you just sat there, numb. Thinking about how everyone believed you were with Fernando because of his money and nothing else.

When Fernando found you again, before he had to go get ready for the race, he noticed you were a little down.

“You should not study so hard on the weekends, princesa.” He muttered, hugging you from behind and leaving a gentle kiss to your neck. Of course, he would think you were just tired.

“You are absolutely right, mi amor,” you smiled a little, turning around so you could hug him properly, “do you have time for a little kiss?”

“Even two,” he joked.

You ended up sitting on his lap, making out like two teenagers, until someone knocked on the door, calling Fernando to go get ready.

“Hey, good luck, yeah?” You said, kissing him one more time then kissing the back of his hand, “I love you.”

You watched the race from the garage, feeling self conscious now that it seemed like everyone thought you were leeching off of Fernando.

In the end, Fernando got P3 which was a great result and you celebrated wildly, proudly watching him get on the podium.

After his post race meetings, you met him in his room.

“Let’s go out to celebrate! Dinner is on me!” You hugged him, mood better now than before.

You and him ended up going out for dinner, at a high end restaurant, dressed to the nines. It was fun, you listened to Fernando talking about the race, then he asked you what you thought about the race.

Before dessert, you went into the bathroom to retouch your makeup and freshen up. When you came back, your tiramisu was already there. You and Fernando shared the dessert, laughing to each other.

When the waitress came, you picked the opportunity.

“Dear, can we get the tab please?”

“It’s already taken care of, Madam.”

Your smile faltered, and you looked at Fernando as she left. He was smiling like he couldn’t hold it in.

“Fernando! I said dinner was on me!”

“Why would I let you pay, princesa?”

“Because you got a podium today! As a celebration!” You whined, upset. Fernando pulled your chair, until you were right beside him and he kissed your cheek.

“I like paying for you, Hermosa,” Fernando stood up, offering you a hand, “come on, you can treat me right in our hotel room, what about that?”

You smiled as he pulled you away, but something still nagged at your brain.

You and Fernando took the private plane back to Madrid after the date, because he had sponsor meetings over the week, and you honestly wanted to sleep in your bed. The trip was quick, and while Fernando took a nap, you tried studying, but your mind kept going back to being called a gold digger.

Deep down, you really wanted to talk to Fernando about it, but you were unsure if he could fix this in any way. What could he do? Make a post on instagram saying hey, my girlfriend isn’t leeching off of me as most you think!? You did live with Fernando, for six months now, and he paid all the bills and the house was his. But he also gave you many many gifts.

When you got home, putting your bags inside the closet, you two just changed into sleepwear, ready to doze off.

Then Fernando opened his bag and grabbed a small box.

“Oh, I had forgotten! Got you a present last week in Austria!”

He handed you the box, and with your heart beating fast, you opened it to a beautiful vintage watch. It was gold, delicate with a beautiful bracelet. There was a lump in your throat as you stared at the piece.

“You didn’t like it? It’s ok, princesa, I’ll get you another one,” he said, with a gentle smile.

“I don’t need another watch, Nando. You gave me this one not even a month ago,” you raised your wrist, showing him the brand new one he gave you.

“I want to give it to you. It doesn’t matter,” he shrugged.

“And I don’t want it,” god, you didn’t want to sound so ungrateful, but how could you tell him that his presents felt like something else now? “You have to stop giving me so many presents,” you said, trying to put into words what you were feeling.

“But that’s how I won you over, why would you refuse my presents now?”

Something about the nonchalance in his voice made you stop, stomach dropping. That’s how I won you over? That’s how he believed your relationship came to be? That’s why he thought you were together?

“What did you say?” You paused, suddenly turning to him, it felt like a punch to the throat, “You- you believe I’m a gold digger? You believe it?”

Fernando walked up to you, putting both hands on your waist, a soft smile gracing his face.

“Amor, you know I don’t mind spending my money on you. Quite the opposite, I love to spoil you.”

You stood there, speechless for a couple of seconds. Then you snapped out of it, pushing his hands off you.

“That’s not what I asked!” Your voice sounded louder, you tried to regain your composure, “people talk a lot, the press too, but you know the truth, right?!”

“I’m a rich man, I like providing you with the luxurious lifestyle you lead. I don’t care that you enjoy my money.”

His words made it so much worse. It made you nauseous, the idea that all this time, he’s been thinking of you as a gold digger, as someone who’s only with him for his money and for what he could provide for you.

“No, Fernando- no!” Your voice wavered, “that’s not true! I love you, you know that right?”

“Why are you so caught up in some silly rumor?

“You know right? You know I love you.” You pressed further waiting for an answer. Hoping against hope that he knew it deep down, that he could acknowledge that you harbored love for him.

“Amor, we have such a great dynamic like this. I don’t need your love, just your loyalty and for you to be my pretty girl.”

He was so calm and reassuring, like he had made peace with the fact that you didn’t love him. Like he wasn’t bothered at all by the fact that you were supposedly a gold digger. His dismissal broke something inside you.

“So you don’t- you don’t believe I love you?”

You felt pathetic and helpless, repeating the same words again and again, hoping and praying for a different answer from Fernando.

“Come on, I’m really tired, can we go to sleep?

“Fernando.”

“I’m going to wait for you in bed,” was all he said, dismissing you completely.

You walked out of the room at the same time he went into the bathroom, you held your head up until you softly closed the door behind you, then finally the tears spilled. You went to the bathroom downstairs, the farthest you could go away from him as the sobs broke from your throat violently.

Sliding down on the floor you wondered if everything was lie. You knew it wasn’t but the fact that he thought you were only there for the money was completely wrong. How long had he been thinking that? How many times had he heard you say “I love you” and thought it wasn’t true? You didn’t even know what to do or what to feel. How could you feel if this whole time while you were pouring your heart into this relationship he thought you were just leeching off of him? How can you love someone so deeply and still live with the fact they think of you as a freeloader? Did he joke with his friends like yeah, she’s a gold digger but at least she’s loyal and fucks me well?

Your chest hurt and you felt repulsive, making your way to the living room, opening a bottle of his whiskey, not bothering with a glass, just sipping it straight from the bottle.

What could you do now? Talk to him? Tell him you’re not with him for his money? After two whole years accepting his every gift with open arms? After getting a fortune worth of presents? After letting him pay for your books, textbooks, new laptop? After letting him pay for dates, trips, clothes, accessories, shoes and jewelry?

You hated yourself for it now. For taking it just because you thought it was his love language, not because deep down he was trying to keep you, buying your affection.

After spending the whole night awake, nursing a bottle and with only your repulsive thoughts as company, you watched as the sun rose from the big living room window.

It was time to fix it.

Fernando was an early riser almost every morning, so after the sun fully rose in the sky, you went in the kitchen and prepared coffee, to cut the effect of the alcohol. You weren’t drunk, really.

“Morning, bebé! You woke up earlier than me today?” He said, passing you with a kiss to your cheek, then going to the cabinet for a mug. He was so unbothered by your argument last night it was pissing you off.

“I didn’t sleep.”

He paused, looking at your face.

“We should talk.” You readied yourself. Fernando stopped in front of you, attentive. “I’ve been hearing a lot this past week that I’m a gold digger, this has been making me feel some kind of way, and I wanted to address this with you. Last night you were tired and we probably misunderstood each other…”

“Where are you going with this, corazón?” He asked, confused.

“I’m not with you for your money, Fernando. Do you understand that?”

He stood silent, which only made you feel worse.

“I want you to stop giving me presents without a proper occasion. And I want you to stop paying stuff for me. And we’re going to share house bills.” You laid it all out, after thinking hard all throughout the night.

“What are you talking about? No, I don’t accept it.” He frowned, “that wasn’t the deal when we moved in together.”

“Because I didn’t know everything back then. I don’t want to feel like I’m taking advantage of you, and I don’t live at your cost like this.”

“No, Y/N.” He took a step back, shaking his head as if you had said the most stupid thing he had ever heard.

“I’m serious, Fernando.”

“No, I’m not negotiating this. I pay for everything. That’s how it’s been and that’s how it will be.”

“I just want to show you that I’m not with you for the money! I’m not what they’re calling me! No more presents, Fernando.”

“You took them.”

“Because I thought you wanted me to have them!”

“I wanted you to have them so you would want to stay with me!”

You gasped, hearing it from his mouth finally. The tears finally started flowing, and you swallowed, trying to keep your voice steady even with the tempest happening inside your chest, staining the beautiful story of your relationship. Well, what you thought was a beautiful relationship.

“You’re just like them, right?” You said, defeated, “you think of me as a gold digging whore. You probably never defended me when they called me that.”

“I gave you all this stuff because I didn’t want you to leave!”

“It was never about the fucking money! And guess what? You lost me anyway!” You marched to the bedroom, Fernando hot on your heels.

“Don’t. Don’t leave.” He said, following you. “I did everything for you to never leave!”

“Everything but loving me! I don’t fucking care!” You unlatched your necklace, putting it on the table, “I don’t care about your money and the jewelry and the clothes and the bags!” You put down your watch and earrings too. Everything he had given you not because he wanted you or loved you, but because he thought they were the price to pay to keep you around.

“Fuck, I love you!” You shouted, feeling desperate and lost, “And all you see me as is something you paid for. A toy you can parade around and look pretty in your arm! You don’t even love me, Fernando. I could write a list about everything I love about you, and none of it would be your stupid money!”

In the closet, you picked a bag, and started putting your clothes inside. Then you noticed how most of them were gifts from him. So you put it back, taking only what you had bought yourself. Fernando stood there, helpless as you packed, putting clothes and a few shoes in a couple of baggage. You also took your study material and laptop, which he had gifted you, but you knew you’d refund him.

“Stop, no,” Fernando tried to stop you as went into the garage, “I do, I love you.”

“You don’t, Fernando. You’re not even sure of that.” You shook your head, putting the bags inside the car. The Aston Martin he had given you, “you have to think. If you really love me as you say, then why do you love me? Because I’m eye candy you can take to galas? Because I’m a good fuck? Because I stand there and look pretty when you have to kiss those old men’s asses?”

You didn’t give him a second, getting in the car and starting the engine.

“This is so messed up, oh my god, how could I let myself believe this for two entire years?” You whispered to yourself, accelerating the car and driving off.

Through the rear view, you could see Fernando standing there, doing nothing.

You drove and wiped the tears away, breathing in. When you moved in with Fernando, you hadn’t been able to get out of the lease of your flat because you still had a few months on your renting contract. Now it felt like luck that you had a place to stay. Despite getting your doctorate degree, you didn’t have any friends in the city, only a few acquaintances here and there.

You got to the apartament, not bothering to unpack your bags, only leaving it on the bedroom floor. You took your study material and with your phone in hand, you sent Fernando via transfer a total 4000 euros, for what you hoped covered the “laptop and books expenses” as you wrote in the little note.

Then you laid on the bed, crying yourself to sleep.

You woke up and it was getting dark, the sun setting outside. Checking your phone, there were fourteen missed calls from Fernando, and a notification, showing that he had returned the money to you, with additional 30000 euros and only “no” written on the little note. Huffing, you sent the whole amount back and blocked him, so he couldn’t transfer any more money to you.

He still had not realized what was wrong, he was still thinking money was your motivation.

The next few days felt like a haze, you were barely getting any sleep, only eating and writing your research, which ultimately reminded you of Fernando, since it was a study on aerodynamics. You couldn’t lie to yourself, thinking of how many times you stared at the door, waiting and hoping he would understand and come after you.

Fernando had work commitments in England, and going back to Madrid, he ended up giving George and his girlfriend a lift. Fernando was visibly not himself as soon as George saw him.

“How’s Y/N doing?” George asked, casually. But from the way Fernando’s face dropped, he could tell something was wrong, “trouble with the missus?” He joked, tried to lighten the mood.

“She- uh, she left.” Fernando muttered.

“What do you mean, she left?” Carmen joined the conversation, “She’s traveling?”

“No- no- I guess we broke up.”

“You guess?!” George’s voice went a little high pitched out of nervousness.

“Fernando, what happened?” Carmen tried to understand.

Despite not being exactly best friends, you and her were pretty close, always spending time together whenever both of you were on race weekends. The fact that you’re both engaged academics was also a common topic between you.

“You know about the rumors, right?” Fernando started, hesitating.

“What rumors?” George paused.

“That she’s only with me for the money,” Fernando muttered.

“All girlfriends of drivers are accused of that at some point, what’s new?” George pushed.

“I might have implied that I agree with that.”

“Oh, my god,” Carmen covered her mouth, absolutely shocked, “What?”

“Fernando, respectfully- Are you fucking insane?!” George exclaimed, jaw slack, “she looks at you all lovey-dovey, like- like- you’re the only person in the entire earth and you think she’s with you for the money?”

“She would never be like that! She’s so smart and kind,” Carmen added.

“I know- I just- I don’t know! Maybe I let the rumors get to my head!” he ran both hands over his face, exasperated, “And she always lets me pay, and she always takes the presents, I don’t know!”

Then, Fernando explained about how you tried to pay for dinner, and you refused his gift, he told them about the argument and how you wanted to set boundaries about money and gifts.

“She was trying to prove to you that she’s not a freeloader. She was trying to show that the money didn’t matter, and what did you do? You pushed more money on her!” George practically spat the words in Fernando’s face.

“Eres muy estúpido, Fernando. Te lo digo como tu amiga.” Carmen muttered.

“I don’t know what she said but I heard the word stupid, and I agree.” George backed her up, “Go talk to her, apologize and fix it.”

“That is,” Carmen interrupted, face serious, “If you really love her. Otherwise, better let her go find someone who can really love her, it’s what she deserves. Love and happiness.”

Fernando swallowed, his chest constricting with the mere thought of you moving on, of someone else having you in their arms.

Getting back home without you there felt like a thick fog day, cold and empty and he missed you, he missed his sun. He missed you jumping into his arms as soon as he opened the door. He missed the smell of the candles you always lit while studying. He even missed the little mess of textbooks, colorful highlighters and notes scattered around.

Home didn’t feel like home without you.

In the middle of the living room, there were big cardboard boxes, as he opened, he noticed they were full of clothes, shoes and bags he had gifted you throughout your relationship. In a smaller box, all the jewelry he had given you, even anniversary gifts. Even the beauty products he had given you like perfumes, makeup products, and face creams.

You had returned every single thing.

And on the coffee table, your keys to the house and the keys of your Aston Martin DB12.

It seemed like you had returned everything that could tie you to him, everything that made him wrongly call you a gold digger. And it felt painfully like a goodbye.

While mixing your homemade coffee, your eyes flicked to the door, then to your phone on the table, facing up. Despite the searing pain in your chest, and the sorrowful hole in your heart, maybe it was time to start to move on. It had been more than a week, if he wanted to come back to you, he would’ve come by now.

You got ready to meet with your advisor, and she brought up a topic that had been common now, about you taking a position as a professor for a couple of Engineering subjects. She said it’d be good for you to work in your area while on the last few months before getting your doctorate degree. You had mostly denied the other times she offered the position, because you wanted more time with Fernando, because you wanted the freedom to fly around the world following him to his races.

Now- now you had more bills to pay and no boyfriend to follow. You also had more free time, a broken heart and a vacant mind.

“I’m considering the position. I believe it could do me good right now.” You said to her, thoughtful, “can I confirm with you tomorrow?”

After going through the meeting and getting a review on your thesis, you went back to your flat, taking a long shower. You had just dressed in pajamas when the doorbell rang. With long strides, you were faced with Carmen, and not Fernando as you expected.

“From your face I take it he hasn’t spoken to you, yes?” Carmen muttered, seeing the visible disappointment in your face.

“I’m sorry, please come in,” you opened the door wider, forcing a smile. Carmen had a couple of bags that she set on a nearby table.

“He told us what happened, I’m so sorry,” Carmen hugged you and you immediately started crying, since you had no one to talk about the past few days, “I brought chocolates and wine, so we can talk.”

Over chocolates and a bottle of Merlot, you told her everything, starting at the deuxmoi rumor. She looked horrified when you said word for word what had transpired the last time you spoke with him.

“I just don’t understand why he didn’t come talk to you yet,” Carmen added, at some point.

“Because he won’t, at all.” You say with your voice shaky from crying so much the past hour.

“Don’t say that. He loves you.” Carmen said.

“I’m not entirely sure about that,” you shrugged, pretending it didn’t hurt as much as it did, “He’ll find another one, someone who can enjoy his money since it seems like it’s all that matters to him.”

Carmen didn’t say anything to that and you knew she couldn’t argue with the facts. Later, George dropped by to get her, going up to your flat so he could hug you quickly and mutter “I’m sorry”.

With a heavy heart, you slowly rebuild a healthy routine again, doing grocery shopping, cooking meals, going to the gym, studying and everything.

One day, you went back home after going on a shopping spree, and as you got into the hall, Fernando was there, standing in your hall, waiting by the door. You stopped, almost losing the timing to leave the elevator. When you walked closer, he noticed you. Meeting his eyes was different this time, uncertain and a little distant.

“What do you want?” You asked, you hoped your voice would come out harsh, but it only sounded defeated.

“Can we talk?” He asked, and you nodded, opening the door and letting him in.

There was a moment of awkward silence as you put the shopping bags down. After doing that, you crossed your arms and stood against a side table, waiting quietly.

“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry, for not fully believing your love, I guess I was so focused in protecting myself, that I ended up hurting you, and it was never my intention,” Fernando stood just two steps away from you, his eyes holding such pain and fear, that it made you crumble, he didn’t look like he’d been sleeping well, “I love you, I really do. For who you are and nothing else.”

You wanted to give in so bad, you wanted to run into his arms and never let go, but you also didn’t want to suffer again.

“How do you know? You never knew that for two years, how would you know it now?” You shook your head, tears starting to fill your eyes again.

“Because it is hard being without you,” he said, like he was trying to find the right words, “I can’t sleep without you. My life is miserable without you around.”

You only nodded, covering your lips with a hand. You wanted to tell him that you had not gotten proper sleep without him, that your life feels empty, that not knowing about him everyday was painful. But you needed more. You needed something you could hold onto, and maybe, just maybe take another chance at the two of you.

“I- I made a list. Like you said,” his voice failed, and you noticed his hand was shaking a little as he held the paper, “I love you. I love coming home to you every time and feel our house so lived in. I love how you always hug me first thing after I’m back home. I love the silly texts you send me randomly throughout the day talking about your day. I love the selfies with your tongue out too,” that made you two chuckle, and the movement made your tears fall, so you wiped them, staring at him intently, “I love that you’re always the smartest person in any room we’re in. I love that you’re humble, never showing off or being a smartass. I love how cheeky and witty you are. I love that you talk in your sleep. I love that scar in your knee, because it shows you were always a little naughty, even as a kid. I love that there’s always fresh flowers at home. I love that you love kids. I love that you get along well with my family. I love that you-”

He didn’t finish, as you closed the distance and launched yourself at him, hugging him tight. Fernando held you close, pressing you into him, inhaling your perfume, feeling like he was at home again.

“I’m so sorry, princesa. So so sorry. I missed you so much,” he whispered against your cheek, kissing it softly.

“I missed you too, Nando” you said, eyes closed and allowing yourself to just feel him again, “I love you so much.”

You let go, holding his face with both hands, looking into his eyes before kissing him softly. He, on the other hand, held the back of your neck firmly, licking your mouth open, until he had tasted your mouth, leaving you breathless.

“Come back home with me, princesa.”

At that, you took a step back.

“I- I can’t, Nando. I got a new job at the university.”

“What?”

“I thought you weren’t coming back to me,” you muttered, and your words made him wince, “I needed something to hold on to.”

“I’m sorry, I’m so sorry” he ran a hand over his face, looking embarrassed for taking so long to come after you.

“I believe we should- we should take a step back, rethink a bit about our dynamic,” you told him, hesitant of his reaction.

“Are you unsure about us?” He asked, visibly worried.

“No, no- I love you- I do-” You started, taking his hand, holding it firmly against yours, “I just think we should rewind a bit. Have my own place and pay my own bills, I just don’t want to feel like that again, I need to regain my dignity in this.”

He kept quiet, because he knew deep down you were right. He felt awful about all the misunderstandings, but he knew you probably felt much, much worse. He should just get on his knees and be thankful you still loved him and still wanted him. He’d take all your conditions to get back with him.

And deep down both of you knew it was for the best. Moving out and living alone, working and seeing him occasionally as a boyfriend.

Holding your face, he kissed you, leaving little pecks on your lips, your cheeks, your chin, your forehead. You closed your eyes, letting him kiss you, and he muttered how much loved you and how much he missed you, kissing down the side of your neck. He walked you inside and let him, feeling his hands quickly peeling your clothes off, leaving a trail of clothes from the living room to your bedroom.

You parted so you could undress him, pulling at his jacket and the t-shirt.

“I love you, I love you so much,” he mumbled into a kiss, laying you down in bed.

You laid on the bed and he hugged him, making space for him between your legs. He held you, touching your nose with his gently.

“I missed you, princesa,” he kissed your cheek, “I promise I’ll do better from now on.”

“I know you will, baby.” You kissed him again, running your hand down his back, “make love to me now.”

He filled you up at once, and you groaned into his mouth, scratching your nails down his back as you cunt welcomed him. As he fucked into you, slowly at first then picking up pace, he muttered how much he loved you and how sorry he was, over and over.

As you cuddled after, quietly enjoying each other’s company.

“What do we do about all your gifts?”

“Give them away,” you shrugged.

“Can I convince you to take it back?”

“Not if you still want me in your life,” you muttered. He nodded, placing a gentle kiss on your shoulder.

“You know how I know I love you?” Fernando asked, drawing invisible patterns on your back, “there’s an engagement ring in the third drawer of my bedside table.”

You hesitated for a second, but he knew you well. Better than anyone else.

“I know what you said, I just wanted to let you know. I bought it a week after you moved in with me. I know we’re rewinding a little bit for now, but you’ll be my wife one day.”

“And what if I refuse when you propose?” You smirked, and he pulled your leg over his waist.

“You won’t.”

Note: UGH IDK GUYS :(

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blackswanmary

7 months ago

✓ WHAT IF NICHOLAS CHAVEZ WAS YOUR BOYFRIEND?

— Sempre vai fazer questão de andar de mãos dadas com você, sempre. É como se para ele fosse uma certeza de que você estava perto e estava bem

— Ama dar selinhos em você. Uma vez deitados na cama, ele ama abraçar o seu corpo, acariciar o seu rosto e te encher de selinhos e beijinhos por todo o rosto, às vezes fazendo cócegas com a barba por fazer

— Adora te abraçar por trás e ver como o corpo dele cobre o seu pela diferença de tamanho, dependendo da situação, quando ele te abraça por trás você já pode imaginar o que ele quer

— Não tem masculinidade frágil. Vai te deixar maquiar ele quando estiver entediada, adora as noites de skincare e quando você separa um tempo para fazer hidratação no cabelo dele, se sente até mais leve

— Vai sempre preferir te tocar do que ser tocado. Não que ele não goste, ele apenas sente mais tesão com isso, de ver suas expressões, seu corpo se arqueando e se arrepiando, tudo, tudo o excita

— Tempo de qualidade e toque físico vão ser as coisas pelas quais ele mais preza, sempre vai querer estar te tocando de alguma forma, mesmo que seja andar com os mindinhos dados pela rua. E odeia ficar muito tempo longe de você, não que ele seja carente, mas ele simplesmente só se sente genuinamente feliz quando você está por perto

— Vai amar tomar banho junto com você, seja depois de transar ou não e seja para fazer sexo debaixo do chuveiro — ou na banheira — ou não. Simplesmente gosta de cuidar de você, ajudar a lavar seu cabelo e vice versa

— Gosta de deixar marcas pelo seu corpo. Chupões, mordidas, qualquer coisa, mas nunca em um lugar muito visível, sabe que você não gosta

— É ciumento, muito. Não em um nível hard, mas não nega que fica irritado e emburrado o rolê inteiro se ver alguém claramente tentando algo com você

— Vai amar ter você como parceira na academia, mesmo que não seja diariamente e sim raramente. Vai amar te ajudar, vai te deixar mais relaxada quando sentir vergonha de fazer algo e claro, vai ficar com a cara fechada assim que notar que alguns caras estão olhando para você com segundas intenções

— Vai sempre evitar brigas, sempre vai procurar conversar e manter tudo na maior paz e calma possível. Claro que, uma vez ou outra, vocês vão discutir feio, mas ele sempre vem pedir desculpas — até quando está certo

— É doido para engravidar você, não sabe exatamente o porquê, mas adora a idéia de gozar dentro — algo que você nunca deixa — e meses depois te ver com a barriguinha maior guardando um bebê que seria uma mistura sua e dele

— Seria o mais romântico possível, fazendo até cartinhas quando você disse que achava isso fofo

— Ia amar te fazer rir, sempre fazendo palhaçada para tirar um sorriso seu

— O que mais iria te atrair nele é o senso de humor e os olhos

— Irá amar tirar fotos suas, guardar elas em uma pasta especial no celular, na carteira, em porta retratos, ama registrar os momentos entre vocês

— Durante o sexo, sempre vai gostar de olhar nos seus olhos, ter a certeza de que você está gostando e vai amar ver as suas expressões enquanto mete fundo em você, te sentindo apertar o pau dele mais e mais

—Ama ser a conchinha menor e não tem vergonha de falar isso, mas nunca se nega a ser a maior

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1 month ago

Habits they break for you.

Bruce: His worst habit is the fact that he's utterly and completely unable to stop working for longer than 4 hours. And that's only because that's how long he sleeps each time. Learning to put down a file or let one of his kids handle something kills him at first, but for you, he learns.

Dick: His worst habit is his sleep. It's obscure. Unlike most of his family, who at the very least have some set pattern, he can never fall asleep at the same time two nights in a row. He'll go to sleep at 3 am one night, 6 am the next, sometimes pull an all nighter altogether. Learning to set his alarm and actually get up at the same time each day is frustrating as hell, but it's worth it if you're actually there when he wakes up instead of already at work.

Jason: His worst habit is smoking. Well, really it's the self destructive nature he embodies so well. But second to that, it's how many packs of cigarettes he goes through a week. You hate it. It gets to the point you cough when he tries to hug you. So, despite the withdrawal of it, he quits. And he thinks you don't even notice, at first. But you do. You hold him tighter, kiss him more often, and get to breathe him in without the smell making you wrinkle your nose.

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blackswanmary

1 month ago

Guys! Clark has started to invade too!!! Anyway, today I was thinking about Smallville Clark Kent (personal go to when thinking about the character) with a new neighbor from the city...

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Clark Kent: Who sees you by the fence, petting his family's horses, and doesn't recognize you, which is odd because he recognizes everyone in such a small town.

Clark Kent: Who quickly realizes from the way you dress to the lack of an accent that you're not just new in town, but from some larger city that probably has apartment buildings with more tenants than the entire town has people.

Clark Kent: Who brushes off your apology for petting the horses, which you'd only done because you've never seen any in real life and couldn't resist how sweet they looked.

Clark Kent: Who watches you insist on going home to unpack instead of keep talking, but runs into you at school the next day and offers to show you around.

Clark Kent: Who you offer a ride home in your car as a thank you for being an extremely patient tour guide.

Clark Kent: Who accepts, under the condition that you let him show you the town too and when you tell him you pretty much have with how small it is, shakes his head and tells you there's a lot of places people don't know about aside from him or a few other kids.

Clark Kent: Who not only shows you his favorite places the next time you're both free, but also says he would be glad to teach you to ride, if you ever wanted.

Clark Kent: Who is thrilled when you take him up on it and spends several hours on a trail with you at a calm pace, keeping close in case anything suddenly spooked your horse. Although they were incredibly good horses so there weren't any problems.

Clark Kent: Who was fascinated by watching you slowly get more accustomed to the town—wearing clothes that were from a local boutique instead of a designer brand, engaging in the rather silly but beloved town traditions, even cutting off some of the friends from the city who you realized weren't really your friends at all after they once visited and immediately started making fun of Clark and his friends.

Clark Kent: Who was surprised at first, when you showed up at his family's door one day asking to help with the animals, but quickly got used to you coming over to help him feed or bathe them, which you claimed was your way of thanking him for the riding lessons but he suspected you just wanted an excuse to be with the animals.

Clark Kent: Who knew you'd fit in with his friends after they got over their own prejudice of you being rude or pretentious because you're from the city and likes hanging out with you with them but likes it just as much, maybe more, when everyone leaves and you're able to stay a bit longer in the barn.

Clark Kent: Who leans out the window next to you, enjoying the breeze as the sun sets and tells you he's glad you moved to Smallville.

Clark Kent: Who sees you shudder from the cold and instantly wraps his jacket around you, conveniently ignoring your blushing cheeks in case he was misreading the situation.

Clark Kent: Who still carefully tucks a piece of hair out of your face—while the voice in head screams not to ruin things—just to see it better and wets his lip while staring at yours.

Clark Kent: Who leans in slowly, waiting for the moment you'd slap him and walk out for daring to try something with you, but only sees you leaning in too.

Clark Kent: Who kisses you for the first time while you're in the barn, wearing his jacket, but promises himself then and there that it wouldn't be the last.

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blackswanmary

1 month ago

"In shock" - Joel Miller x Fem Reader

Angst & Comfort

Word Count: 643

While traveling through an abandoned department store, an infected attacks Y/n, and Joel does his best to assure her that everything is okay.

Travelling through major cities was hell, to say the least, and there were few things Y/n hated more than doing so. Her survival skills paled compared to Joel’s, so she was always terrified of something happening to her, considering that there was nothing much she could do to fight off an infected. Yes, he had tried to teach her how to shoot a gun, and she was fine when it was just the two of them practicing, but once the real thing happened, she’d freeze, terror running through her veins.

Everything had gone fine so far; however, Y/n wasn’t sold as she walked with Joel through an empty department store. It was too quiet, and she couldn’t get rid of the feeling that something was watching them in the shadows. Their flashlights only shone so far, and the magnitude of the location made it extremely difficult to notice every hiding spot where something could pop out.

Y/n wasn’t too far behind Joel, but she had slowed down slightly, taking in everything around her, probably too intently. On the other hand, he was more focused on getting out of there quickly, so he was prepared to deal with something if it popped up, but he hoped they’d be in and out of there fast enough that they wouldn’t have to.

The woman paused for a moment when she heard a noise to the left of her. When she turned her head, she locked eyes with an infected who was not an advanced case of cordyceps.

“Joel! Help!” Y/n screamed, her feet doing their best to get her away from the danger, however, she wasn’t fast enough, and within a couple of seconds, the infected threw her to the ground.

Her screams echoed through the building briefly until Joel’s gun sounded, and the infected fell to the ground beside her, its body still slightly twitching. After shooting it one more time, he quickly ran over to Y/n, who was lying on the ground, with tears streaming down her face.

“J-J-Joel,” the woman stuttered, only able to take short, panicked breaths, practically hyperventilating.

“Shh, it’s okay, you’re okay,” Joel reassured, looking at her body to ensure she hadn’t been bitten during the encounter.

He sighed in relief when he didn’t notice anything out of the ordinary, before scooping her up in his arms and pulling her close to his chest. Joel’s hand immediately cradled the back of Y/n’s head and held her body tight, hoping to stop the woman from shaking as much as she was.

“It’s going to be okay now, baby, deep breaths. In through your nose, out through your mouth,” he spoke softly, tenderly kissing the top of her head. “Everything’s going to be alright, I’m not going to let anything happen to you.”

“D-Did it g-get me?” she asked, looking up at the man with red glossy eyes and worry prominent on all her features.

“No, it didn’t. I already checked, you’re clean,” he responded, looking at her with nothing but the truth behind his eyes.

She nodded in confirmation and swallowed hard, some relief showing on her face as some of the shock wore off. Joel took the pad of his thumb and wiped away some of the tears staining her face, before kissing her on the cheek sweetly.

“Are you okay, too?” she asked, furrowing her eyebrows, scanning his face to try and get an answer early.

“Yeah, I’m completely okay. It didn’t get close to me,” he replied, sending her a small smile to try and make her feel better.

“Okay, good, I love you so much, Joel,” she told him, and this time she wrapped her arms around the man tightly, not wanting to let go.

“I love you, too, baby,” Joel responded, his body instantly feeling less tense at the sensation of her body pressed against his.

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