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Guys! Clark has started to invade too!!! Anyway, today I was thinking about Smallville Clark Kent (personal go to when thinking about the character) with a new neighbor from the city...
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Clark Kent: Who sees you by the fence, petting his family's horses, and doesn't recognize you, which is odd because he recognizes everyone in such a small town.
Clark Kent: Who quickly realizes from the way you dress to the lack of an accent that you're not just new in town, but from some larger city that probably has apartment buildings with more tenants than the entire town has people.
Clark Kent: Who brushes off your apology for petting the horses, which you'd only done because you've never seen any in real life and couldn't resist how sweet they looked.
Clark Kent: Who watches you insist on going home to unpack instead of keep talking, but runs into you at school the next day and offers to show you around.
Clark Kent: Who you offer a ride home in your car as a thank you for being an extremely patient tour guide.
Clark Kent: Who accepts, under the condition that you let him show you the town too and when you tell him you pretty much have with how small it is, shakes his head and tells you there's a lot of places people don't know about aside from him or a few other kids.
Clark Kent: Who not only shows you his favorite places the next time you're both free, but also says he would be glad to teach you to ride, if you ever wanted.
Clark Kent: Who is thrilled when you take him up on it and spends several hours on a trail with you at a calm pace, keeping close in case anything suddenly spooked your horse. Although they were incredibly good horses so there weren't any problems.
Clark Kent: Who was fascinated by watching you slowly get more accustomed to the townâwearing clothes that were from a local boutique instead of a designer brand, engaging in the rather silly but beloved town traditions, even cutting off some of the friends from the city who you realized weren't really your friends at all after they once visited and immediately started making fun of Clark and his friends.
Clark Kent: Who was surprised at first, when you showed up at his family's door one day asking to help with the animals, but quickly got used to you coming over to help him feed or bathe them, which you claimed was your way of thanking him for the riding lessons but he suspected you just wanted an excuse to be with the animals.
Clark Kent: Who knew you'd fit in with his friends after they got over their own prejudice of you being rude or pretentious because you're from the city and likes hanging out with you with them but likes it just as much, maybe more, when everyone leaves and you're able to stay a bit longer in the barn.
Clark Kent: Who leans out the window next to you, enjoying the breeze as the sun sets and tells you he's glad you moved to Smallville.
Clark Kent: Who sees you shudder from the cold and instantly wraps his jacket around you, conveniently ignoring your blushing cheeks in case he was misreading the situation.
Clark Kent: Who still carefully tucks a piece of hair out of your faceâwhile the voice in head screams not to ruin thingsâjust to see it better and wets his lip while staring at yours.
Clark Kent: Who leans in slowly, waiting for the moment you'd slap him and walk out for daring to try something with you, but only sees you leaning in too.
Clark Kent: Who kisses you for the first time while you're in the barn, wearing his jacket, but promises himself then and there that it wouldn't be the last.
Blue Christmas
dark!Rafe Cameron x f!Reader
Warnings: noncon (rape), p in v sex, kidnapping, murder, drugging, stalking, obsessive behavior, possessive behavior, choking, unprotected sex, breeding kink, abusive behavior
A/N: this fic is directly inspired by the movie P2 (2007) but I changed a couple plot things to make it fit for Rafe. Hope you enjoy!
The click of your heels echoed throughout the large, empty parking garage. You let out a frigid puff of breath as you shivered, pulling your coat tighter around your shoulders as you looked for your car.
After the holiday party had died down, you had volunteered to stay late to finish up a report so you could have Christmas day off with your family. And now, a full hour and a half after everyone else left, you were finally about to be on your way home.
You reached into your purse to fish your keys out, clicking the unlock button to help you find your car.
Chirp chirp!
The sound came from the level above you and you let out a small groan as you began the walk up to the next level.
After spotting your car, you let yourself in, sliding into the seat and closing the door behind you.
You slid the key into the ignition and turned it, but instead of coming to life, your engine stuttered, refusing to start.
âShit!â You cursed, slapping the steering wheel in frustration. âFucking seriously?!â
All you wanted right now was to get home to see your family, but now it appeared your car might not even be leaving the garage.
You reached into your purse to pull your phone out, dialing your mom, but when no sound came over the speaker, you pulled the phone away from your ear to realize that you didnât have any signal.
Realizing that your only options were to find the parking security guard or walking out into the cold air to get better signal, you decided that you needed to find the parking office.
However, before you could even open your door, you saw the lights on the opposite side of the garage begin to turn off, one by one, growing closer until you were swallowed by the darkness of the garage.
âIâm still in here!â You shouted, feeling freaked out by the dark.
But the sudden sharp knock against your window nearly stopped your heart.
A bright flashlight flicked on, pointed at your face like the person was trying to get a look at you.
He must have seen the fear in your eyes because the light lowered to the ground, revealing the parking security guard, and you let out a sigh of relief at the familiar face.
âThank god itâs just you,â you joked nervously as you opened your car door to step out.
You looked up at the tall, blond man, remembering the many times he had let you in the parking garage or waved goodbye as you drove out. He was a shy and somewhat awkward guy, but he had been nice in all of your previous interactions.
Underneath the nerdy looking glasses, you might have even considered him handsome.
âIâm glad youâre still here so late, or Iâd be in a lot of trouble,â you groaned, gesturing to your car. âIt wonât start and I donât have any signal in the garage.â
âAh that h-happens here more than youâd think, I can help you out,â he grinned, taking a cursory glance at your car. âYou could um- make a call from the office, if you wanted.â
âOh that would be perfect! Thanks um⊠Ray?â
âRafe,â he corrected you with a lopsided smile.
âOh. Rafe, sorry,â you repeated. âMy name is Y/N.â
âI know.â
âYou do?â You tilted your head to the side in confusion as you looked up at him.
âYou hand me your parking pass every day, remember? Everyone who works in the office does,â he smiled.
âOh yeah, true,â you let out a small laugh.
âDid you enjoy th-the party?â
You blushed, smiling to yourself as you remembered your coworker, Jack, pulling you into one of the empty offices for a quick make out session. This was the first time the two of you had ever done something so risky at the office before, and it had been pretty thrilling.
âYeah, it was nice. Iâm ready to get home to my family though, theyâre all waiting on me.â
âThen we better call you a taxi, huh?â
âGuess so.â
You followed him as he lead you to the parking office, and your eyes widened as you took in the sparkling Christmas lights that were wrapped around the small space.
âDid you do all of this decoration yourself, Rafe?â
âUh yeah,â his lips curled into a shy smile and he scratched the back of his head nervously. âI donât know, it just brightens the place up. Makes the job less depressing.â
âOh yeah, I totally get it.â You sat down at the chair opposite from his desk, mindlessly glancing over at the monitor that was showing multiple grainy camera angles throughout the garage, cycling through all the cameras throughout the building.
You looked over at the corner of the office to see a large black dog curled up on a bed.
âSo, hereâs the office phone,â he passed the landline to you. âIâm gonna step out for a quick smoke, you can uh, call your family or a cab, or um whatever you need to do. Iâll be b-back in a couple minutes.â
âOkay! Thank you so much for your help!â You smiled, waving as he stepped out the front door of the office.
You dialed your momâs number, holding the phone to your ear as you waited for her to pick up.
âHello?â You could barely hear your motherâs voice over the sounds of children playing.
âMom? Itâs Y/N.â
âWhere are you?? Weâve been waiting for an hour at this point sweetheart.â
âIâm sorry, I had a little extra work to do tonight so I could spend all of tomorrow with you. And youâll never guess what happened when I left the office.â
âWhat?â
âMy car wouldnât start! So Iâm waiting in the security office and Iâm going to call a cab,â your mother started to interject, but you cut her off, âdonât wait up on me. Iâll get there soon hopefully, but with this weather it might take a bit for the cab to get here.â
Your mom was saying something about sending your aunt to pick you up, and you waved her off, but when your gaze landed on the monitorâs camera feed, your blood went cold and the ringing in your ears prevented you from hearing anything.
Your eyes widened as you watched Jack open the office door building on the camera feed, pulling you inside, leaving only a moment before his lips were on your neck, and his hands were trailing down your body.
Your stomach lurched when you heard yourself softly moan his name before his lips covered yours.
This video was from earlier tonight.
âY/N?â Your mom asked and you realized you had gone silent.
âI-â your mouth felt dry, your mind was racing, but you knew you needed to call the cab as soon as possible. âIâm calling the cab now.â
You hung up quickly, looking behind you and around the now cramped feeling office for the security guard.
Would it be safe to leave the office? How would you find your way out quickly with the lights off?
He was nowhere in sight, so you dialed the number of the cab company, hand shaking as you held the phone to your ear and cursing when it kept ringing with no answer.
Finally after what felt like an eternity, someone picked up.
âHello? Please, I need a cab at 9876 Main Street.â
âHow many passengers?â
âJust one, please hurry,â
âWeâll be there in under 5 minutes.â
You let out a sigh of relief, you were finally going home.
However, you were shocked back into reality when a hand suddenly clamped over your mouth, pressing a damp rag over your nose and mouth.
You let out a muffled yelp, struggling against them, but the strong arm that wrapped around your chest held you firmly in place.
You had only taken three gasping breaths before the world around you grew fuzzy, and then your vision went black.
Your eyes cracked open slowly and you lifted your aching head to find yourself still inside the security guardâs office, laid out on the couch. A chill ran up your spine and your noticed your coat was missing.
Rafe was sitting at his desk with his back turned to you, watching the video of you and Jack on a loop.
You let out a soft whimper of fear, shifting to stand up and try to run out of the room, but you quickly realized your right wrist was handcuffed to the sofa when it dug into the skin of your wrist, pulling you back down onto the couch.
The clinking of the metal alerted Rafe to the fact that you were awake and he turned around, a sick grin spreading across his face.
âYouâre up! Sorry about all that with the rag and stuff,â he chuckled, acting as if it was some run of the mill accident.
His casual ease as he looked over you sent a chill down your spine.
You didnât miss the fact that his large dog was awake now, sitting beside him and staring you down imposingly.
âAlso, I um- I cancelled your cab,â he told you and your heart skipped a beat.
âW-why?â
âWell⊠I thought maybe youâd want to spend your Christmas Eve with me,â Rafe nervously offered.
You blinked at him in shock, at a complete loss for words.
âW-we could get to know each other, and finally have our first date.â Rafe stood up from the chair and approached you, and you shrank away from him.
âListen, Rafe..â you swallowed dryly, heart hammering against your chest as you carefully chose your words, âI- Iâm sure youâre a really nice guy, but Iâm already seeing somebody.â
There was a deadly silence at your words and Rafeâs eyes narrowed, his jaw tightening in a way that made you nervous.
His dog noticed the subtle change in his attitude, a low growl building at the back of its throat and he slowly started to walk towards you.
âEasy Max,â Rafe warned, his tone cold and mocking. âDonât wanna scare poor Y/N too much.â
The dog backed off at that, laying down in his bed, but still eyeing you suspiciously.
Rafe sat beside you on the couch, one arm wrapping around your waist and you shuddered at the physical contact.
âListen, Y/N, just give me a chance okay? Why donât you tell me a bit about yourself?â
âI-â you stuttered nervously, your mind too blank with fear to know what to say. âI have t-two siblings.â
You tripped over your words, face warming up when you felt his hand slowly begin to trace up your back.
âKeep going,â he ordered with a whisper, his hand rising to the rest at the back of your neck. Your pulse was racing and your breath was beginning to grow uneven with tension.
âIâm f-from a town 40 minutes from here. Iâve never ah-â you winced when his fingers flexed slightly, putting you even more on edge. âIâve never lived outside of the state.â
âReally? Thatâs incredible. Me personally, Iâm from North Carolina, but Iâve traveled all over the world.â
His eyes flicked from your face to your chest, eyeing the way your breath was coming quickly. He grinned wickedly, drawing so close you could feel his breath against your cheek.
âAm I making you nervous, Y/N?â
He adjusted his hand, wrapping his thumb and pointer finger around the back of your neck while his other fingers splayed down your spine, and you let out a shaky breath.
âWould you feel more at ease if I was Jack?â Rafe spat his name out like it was poison in his mouth and you winced.
âN-no. I- I donât- no,â you whimpered, not sure what he wanted to hear from you.
This night had taken a turn that you never expected and your head was still spinning as you tried to come to terms with what was happening.
Rafe let out an annoyed huff, a scowl blooming across his face as he stared at you.
âDo you want to see him again tonight?â
âWhat?â
âI said, do you want to see him again tonight?â
âI-â you stuttered, but you trailed off, not knowing what he meant or how to answer.
Rafe rolled his eyes, clearly growing irritated by your indecisiveness. He turned to find something on his desk before returning to you with a key in one hand and a small knife in the other.
Your eyes widened at the sight of the knife, your breathing picking up as you looked to him in fear.
âWhat-?â
âIâm going to unlock you and weâre going to take a short drive, but I canât have you getting any smart ideas, sweetheart.â Rafe grabbed your cuffed wrist, jamming the key into the lock on the cuff that was attached to the sofa.
He grabbed your wrist tightly with one hand, pulling you off the couch and turning you away from him before reaching over your shoulder and bringing the knife to your throat.
He leaned forward, letting his lips come to your ear and you held back a shudder as he spoke, âif you so much as think about trying to get away from me, I wonât hesitate to kill you, do you understand?â
You nodded, choking down your tears as he pushed you forward to signal you to walk out of the office.
Rafe led you to a car, opened the door, and shoved you inside, giving you a warning glare to not run before walking around to the driverâs side.
âW-where are we going?â You asked as he started the car and backed out of the parking space.
âYouâll see, sweetheart.â
He turned towards the exit of the garage, and for a moment you could feel your escape within your grasp, but he steered away, instead steering towards the ramp that led to the lower levels of the garage.
âW-weâre not leaving?â You could feel your heartbeat pick up again in your confusion. Where the fuck was he taking you?
âWeâre almost there, Y/N, calm down.â
Your eyes scanned the dark garage, but they widened when he turned the corner, his headlights revealing Jack duck taped to one of the office chairs.
âOh my god,â you whispered in shock, taking in the blood that was already dripping from his forehead. Jack shifted in the chair, his eyes squinting as he tried to look through the windshield.
âWhatâs going on Rafe?? Why are you doing this?â You hissed through tears, frantically looking back and forth between Rafe and Jack.
He chuckled, but it lacked humor and you felt nauseous at the sound.
âDonât you get it, Y/N?â His hand came to your cheek, forcing you to meet his gaze. âI love you so much, and heâs whatâs keeping us apart.â
Now you were almost certain you were going to be sick and you let out a sob as his thumb lightly traced your face.
âI- I donât even know you, Rafe! I barely knew your name before tonight,â you cried hysterically, begging him to find reason. âPlease, whatever youâre planning, just stop!â
You couldnât stop the burning tears from falling now, anxiety making your heart beat so fast you felt dizzy.
âShh Y/N, calm down.â He wiped away some of your tears with his thumb. His blue eyes watched you with concern, but there was a coldness underneath the surface that frightened you.
âIâm gonna take care of it, okay? And heâs never going to come between us again.â
Before you could question him, he closed the gap between you, holding you in place as his lips covered yours.
Your eyes shot open in surprise, stomach turning in disgust as you squirmed against him, and you whimpered when he forced his tongue into your mouth. His lips felt hot against yours and the kiss lasted too long, as Rafe held you down against the chair by your throat until you were gasping for breath.
He pulled away with a dreamy look in his eyes as he scanned your distressed expression.
âDo not try to run. Got it?â
You stared at him blankly, taking a beat too long to respond and his hand tightened around your throat.
âGot it?â He repeated with a sickening edge to his voice.
âMm, mm hm,â you nodded, mouth too dry to make any noises other than humming yes.
âGood girl,â he purred, leaning forward to press one last kiss to your trembling cheek before reaching over to open his door and climb out.
You were glued to your seat, too scared to attempt running with him still so close. You could barely watch as he approached Jack with the knife brandished in his hand.
âPlease- stop it! Donât get any closer!â Jack cried out and your heart skipped a beat, more tears sliding down your face was you watched with horror.
âYou were never good enough for Y/N, you know that?â You could hear the rage in Rafeâs voice simmering beneath the surface, ready to be released.
âAlways taking her for granted and treating her like sheâs some everyday slut.â He spat, pulling his arm back before punching James hard across the jaw.
You stifled your cry by biting your lip, trying to ignore Jackâs groans of pain when Rafe punched him again.
âRafe, stop it!â You cried from inside the car and he turned around to look at you before punching him in the stomach with a grin.
âShe may not understand what kinds of tricks youâre pulling, but I do.â He slammed his fist into Jamesâ gut again. âI know guys like you, who get off on playing nice girls like Y/N and treating them like shit.â
âNo- Iâm not-â Jack grunted, blood trickling past his lips as he struggled to breathe. He strained against the layers of duck tape wrapped around his chest and the back of the chair to no avail.
âAnd Iâm sure you look down on the guys like me. You think youâre so much better because you went to college and got a comfy, corporate job, and assholes like you always get the girl in the end,â Rafeâs voice was downright venomous at this point, and you could tell that he was working himself up to a boiling point.
âNot this time,â he chuckled darkly, bringing the knife to Jackâs throat threateningly.
âRafe please!â You screamed, tears flowing down your cheeks as you watched the scene before you unfold, feeling utterly powerless.
In one smooth motion, Rafe brought the knife across Jackâs throat and a river of crimson sprayed from his neck, splattering across Rafeâs face and clothes.
You sobbed as Jack slumped against the chair, his head leaning back to reveal the large cut splayed across his throat, and you knew in your heart that he was dead.
Before you could think twice, your hand was wrapped around the door handle, and you pushed yourself out of the car.
The garage was almost pitch black, save for Rafeâs headlights and you didnât notice the cement wedge in front of you.
âShit-!â You cursed as you hit the ground, adrenaline too high to register any pain from the fall.
You turned your head as you scrambled to your feet to find Rafeâs angry gaze fixed in your direction. Heart pounding, you stumbled to your feet and took off towards where you remembered him turning from the ramp to the upper levels, the sounds of your heels echoing off the walls of the parking garage.
âFuck!â You heard Rafe roar from behind you followed by the sound of him hitting something hard in frustration, likely his car, before you heard his heavy footsteps chasing after you.
âY/N!!â He yelled, his voice reverberating and repeating as he cursed.
Knowing that this was likely your only chance to escape, you frantically looked around for an exit once you got onto the ground floor, only to find that it was gated off, and there was no way for you to leave.
When you passed a second exit that was gated off, you realized Rafe must have closed them all down to keep you inside and your heart fell.
âWhere are you hiding?â Rafeâs voice sent a shiver down your spine, and you could tell he was getting closer.
If you were going to escape, you werenât going to be able to do it alone.
You could hear his footsteps getting closer behind you in the dark, and you tried to quiet your shaky breath as you ran to the brightly lit office, hiding behind the support pillars along the way.
Even if he caught you in the office, if you could just make a call to the police, hopefully that would be enough to save you.
You finally reached the front, pushing the door open slowly and quietly before crouching and entering.
Unfortunately, in your panic to get away, you had forgotten all about Rafeâs large dog, and you nearly jumped out of your skin when he ran up to you, barking and lunging, only to be yanked back by his chain at the last moment before reaching you.
Your heart rate spiked as the dog growled loudly in between sharp ruffs, barring his teeth and trying to nip at you.
âShhh!â You whispered. âGood doggie, please be quiet!â
You eased past the dog and towards the landline, trying to stop the uncontrollable shaking in your knees as Max continued to bark.
Images of Jackâs throat being slit flashed through your mind and you choked back a sob as you reached for the phone.
Your sweaty fingers slid over the numbers and you held the phone up to your ear waiting for the ring.
But it never came.
You pulled the phone away from your ear in confusion, and looked down at the handset, following the wire connected to the phone to where it should have been plugged into the wall.
Instead, you stared at the severed wire in terror, realizing that Rafe must have cut it while you were knocked out earlier.
âWhy are you trying to ruin our first date?â
Rafeâs voice from behind washed over you like a bucket of cold water, and you slowly turned around to find him standing in the doorway of the office.
He was an imposing figure, made all the more terrifying due to the flecks of blood painted across his face and shirt. His glasses were gone now, and you realized just how much they had been hiding the threatening glint in his eyes.
Rafe no longer seemed like the shy, nerdy guy you had taken him for before tonight, but instead a dangerous predator who had finally cornered his prey.
âRafe,â your voice was so faint you werenât sure if you were even speaking. âPlease, Iâm scared.â
Your throat felt tight, tears filling your eyes when you noticed the blood on his hands.
âScared?â He asked incredulously. âYou should be thanking me for getting that loser out of our way.â
A sob clawed its way out of your throat, and you took a step back, only to jump forward again when the dogâs low growl came from behind you.
âNow itâs time to stop running,â Rafe taunted.
You felt dizzy with fear as you watched him step closer, towering above you, the outline of his muscular form barely hidden by his leather jacket.
Heart beating loudly against your chest and blood rushing in your ears, you didnât have any time to think your decision through before acting.
You rushed forward, trying to push past him to get to the front door, but you were a moment too slow.
Rafeâs strong arms wrapped around your waist, easily picking you up and spinning you away from the door.
You cried out as he carried you forward, pushing you against the table in the middle of the room and bending you over it.
âStop it-!â You screamed as you struggled against him, but he easily pinned you against the hard wood, letting out a wicked snicker as he roughly pushed the skirt of your dress up.
âDonât you want someone to take of you, baby?â The blond groaned desperately, fingers grasping at your tights before ripping them open.
âI just wanted to treat you nice, Y/N.â He growled, anger radiating off his tongue. âLike the good girl I thought you were.â
You wretched your arm free before bending your elbow and thrusting it into Rafeâs stomach.
He cursed loudly, his grip on you loosening for just a moment before his hand clamped down around your wrist, painfully twisting it behind your back and harshly forcing you against the table. When you heard his belt jingling behind you, your heart skipped a beat.
âLooks like I was wrong.â Rafe spat, and you whimpered in fear as he pulled your panties to the side. âMaybe you are a fucking slut.â
âRafe please, Iâm sorry, Iâm so sorry. Please donât do this, Rafe,â you were quaking beneath him, crying harder as your pleas fell on deaf ears.
You froze however, voice dying in your throat when you felt the tip of his cock run along your folds.
âOh god,â he strained, and you squirmed beneath him, cringing when his lips came to your ear.
âYouâre so wet youâre dripping down your fucking thighs, sweetheart,â he taunted, barely shifting his hips forward and spreading your lips with his dick.
You sucked in a shaky breath, legs growing weak underneath you. You fisted the hand pinned against your back until your knuckles grew pale. His fingertips brushed your clit as he languidly dragged his tip along your pussy, up near your ass, then down to your clit. Up, down, languid strokes as he hissed through his teeth.
"Bet Jack wouldn't ever get you this wet, huh?"
Jackâs lifeless body flashed before your closed eyelids again, quickly replaced by the sharp sting of Rafe's fingers clamping your clit, rolling his slick-covered digits over your nerves. An instinctual whine left your lips, and Rafe sneered down at you as he dragged his dick back up to your hole, circling the head around your entrance as you protested.
"Rafe, please, please," you cried into the table, clenching your knees together and tilting your hips from him, anything to get him to pull away.
âFucking stay still!â He hissed, wrapping his thick bicep around your throat in frustration. You let out a choked whine, tears coming to your eyes when his muscles flexed, cutting off your breathing, and Rafe ignored you as you helplessly scratched at his arm.
He groaned as he pushed into your cunt, his tip nearly sliding all the way inside of you, met with resistance that only fueled him further. Your pleas were lost to the heat that blushed Rafe's face.
"Fuck, sweetheart, you been holding this back from me?" He dragged himself out of you, watching as you clenched and quivered from the sudden withdrawl. Again, he pushed his flushed head into your warmth, and then out, in slow teasing strokes that made your head spin.
Against every survival instinct that was screaming at you, you stopped fighting. Each sting of his dick breaching you, each wet squelch of his fat tip inside you left you feeling dizzy with want.
However, when you felt his cock inch deeper inside, you whined in protest and squirmed in his arms, but one flex of the bicep at your throat quelled your resistance quickly.
âYouâre so pretty, you know that, Y/N?â
You shuddered as Rafe groaned against your ear, his arm locked around your neck and preventing you from turning away. Your knees shook beneath you as he slowly forced himself deeper, and you felt betrayed by your body when you felt yourself growing slicker around him.
âToo pretty to be trapped in this shitty office job, wasting your hours at work, if you ask me,â he purred.
His fingers found your clit again, thumb rolling over your sensitive bud, and you bit back a moan as your back arched instinctively, allowing Rafe to dip deeper inside.
He was much bigger than you expected, stretching you out with each thrust, and pushing himself deeper and deeper until his tip kissed your cervix.
The blond wasnât holding back anymore, reveling in every mewl and whimper he could draw out of you; and the way your snug walls clenched around his length had his hips snapping against your ass as he chased his release.
âDonât you want a family to care for, baby?â He groaned, fingers swirling over your clit and you whined, trying to squeeze your legs shut in a desperate attempt to stop him.
His words echoed in your head, the sick irony completely lost on him.
You already had a family and he was holding you hostage to keep you away from them.
âWe could start our own, together,â he whispered, and a muffled sob escaped your lips. When you squirmed beneath him, he easily held you in place, punishing you with quick, painful thrusts.
âYouâll never have to worry about working again,â he groaned when your tight walls squeezed around him. âJust- fuck- stay at home ân be my pretty, little housewife.â
Disgust and terror bloomed in your gut as you realized with a shock just how twisted his fantasies were. You felt sick thinking about how long his obsession had been festering beneath the surface and you had been too blind to see.
Rafe pinched your clit between two fingers and you whined, tears running down your cheeks as he forced your legs open again. You tensed around him, letting out a choked moan when he rolled his thumb over your tender clit.
You hated him, but even worse, you hated how much control he had over your body, and how painfully delicious each stroke of his cock felt.
âPlease-â you whimpered, not entirely sure if you were begging him to stop or keep going, twisted desire clouding your head as he plunged into you again and again, the sticky sounds of your slick cunt filling the cramped room.
Rafe groaned, easing his hold on your neck to lean forward and trail messy kisses from your cheek to the side of your throat that was exposed, never slowing his pace or the steady circles around your clit. Nausea churned in your gut at the overly intimate gesture; and when the scent of copper reached you, you realized he had smeared some of Jackâs blood onto your cheek.
You gasped loudly when his lips attached to your neck, nipping and sucking at the sensitive skin. Rafeâs low grunts vibrated against your throat when you squeezed down around him.
Your body rocked with every thrust of his hips, your knees quaking beneath you as his thumb circled around your clit faster now.
âRafe-â your breath hitched and you shamefully realized that your undoing was hurdling towards you.
âThatâs it sweetheart,â he hissed through clenched teeth, his bicep flexing around your throat as he lost himself in his pace, plunging into you again and again.
You let out a choked whine when his thumb pressed harder against your tender bud, and you were finally pushed over the edge.
Your body tensed, legs shaking as your slick walls spasmed around him. You squeezed your eyes shut as the waves of pleasure crashed over you, whimpering pathetically as Rafe pushed his cock into you again and again.
He snickered as you cried beneath him, reveling in the way you helplessly scratched at his arms, tearfully begging him to stop.
The blond slammed into you harder, each slap of his balls against your sensitive clit made your head spin and it wasnât long before you were coming around him again.
You trembled beneath him, so dazed that you could only whimper mindless pleas.
âFuck-â Rafeâs breath caught in his throat as you squeezed around him, his pace stuttered, and the arm at your throat tightened as he grew closer.
You could barely breathe now, and you struggled against him as he choked you, panic overtaking you when your vision grew fuzzy around the edges.
Rafe groaned loudly when he came, forcing his cock deep inside you and painting your walls with his hot, sticky cum.
You shuddered when he nudged himself deeper and you felt his thick cum overflowing past your sensitive, puffy lips. Out of instinct, you tensed beneath him, and he moaned against your ear when you tightened around his softening cock.
After what felt like forever, he finally pulled out, loosening his hold on you, although you couldnât have fought back now even if you tried.
You heard him pulling his pants up behind you, and you flinched when his hands came to your back to pull your skirt down to cover you.
âCâmere honey,â he cooed, carefully lifting you off the table and guiding you to the couch. You obeyed him, much too out of it to put up any more resistance.
You cringed in pain as you sat down, but tried to make yourself as comfortable as you could.
Rafeâs hand was on your back, lightly drawing small circles on your exposed skin, and you found it nauseating that he could be so gentle after treating you so savagely.
He was staring at you, studying your nervous face for a few moments before reaching out to cup your cheek.
You flinched, turning away slightly as he drew closer, but his grip was firm, and he held you in place as he leaned in and draped his lips over yours.
Your stomach turned as his lips slid over yours possessively, and you let out a squeak of surprise when he pushed his tongue into your mouth, groaning as he staked his claim on you.
When he finally pulled away, your head was swimming, and the dazed look in your eye made Rafe smirk.
âAw look at you, never seen you so cock drunk before,â he chuckled, before leaning in to give you another quick peck on the lips.
âYou gave me the best Christmas gift I could ask for.â He grabbed one of your hands, wrapping his fingers around it and squeezing gently. âIâll take care of you Y/N.â
You stared at him blankly, a tear rolling down your cheek that Rafe chose to ignore as he looked deep into your eyes.
âI love you, and I promise, Iâm never leaving your side again.â
loser bf! RODRICK HEFFLEY hc
tags â fem!readerïčsfw + nsfwïčheadcanons
loser bf!rodrick, who makes a huge show of pda whenever his brother is around. heâll sling his arm around your shoulder and be like, âyeah, greg. my girlfriend. isnât she hot?â greg is still fully convinced rodrickâs paying you to be his fake girlfriend, though he has no idea where heâs got the money.
loser bf!rodrick, who lets you sit in on band practice and tries so hard to keep it together, but the second his bandmates start flirting with you, he completely falls apart. his drumming gets so off-tempo that they have to stop and start over.
loser bf!rodrick, who lent you his algebra textbook and completely forgot heâd been doodling your name with his last name all over the margins. when you handed it back, smirking, he looked like he wanted to die.
loser bf!rodrick, whose idea of a date is a night drive to the gas station, where you both load up on slushies and hot dogs. you sit in the parking lot and steal bites off each otherâs food (even though you have the same toppings)
loser bf!rodrick, who awkwardly asked his mom to use the ânice-smellingâ laundry detergent on his shirts because he knows you like to steal them after having sex and he doesnât want you thinking heâs gross.
loser bf!rodrick, whose mom acts like youâre already part of the family, offering you snacks and calling you âsweetieâ every time you visit. she loves to (unintentionally) embarrassing her eldest son by showing you all of his baby pictures. all the while rodrick hides in the basement.
loser bf!rodrick, whose dad corners you during family dinners and awkwardly tries to sell you on how ârodrick is really a fine young man, despite, uh⊠some quirks.â you just nod politely while rodrick sits there, sinking into his chair with a beet-red face.
loser bf!rodrick, whose bandmates are constantly making moves on you, asking if you âneed anythingâ during practice or offering to carry your stuff. rodrick will get so pissed that he threatens to kick them out of the band. you think itâs hilarious how defensive he gets.
loser bf!rodrick, who always gives you the front seat in his van, no questions asked. greg has to squish in the back with the instruments, too bad lol.
loser bf!rodrick, who pretends to be terrible at eyeliner just so youâll do it for him. in return, he paints your nailsâor you can also paint his (in exclusively black).
loser bf!rodrick, who acts reluctant whenever you drag him into photobooths at the mall. the two of you end up making the dumbest faces before you lean in and kiss him right on the mouth⊠with tongue.
loser bf!rodrick, who lets you doodle on his arm with a sharpie, and he refuses to wash them off. they stay there until they fade completely.
loser bf!rodrick, who finally starts wearing deodorant consistently because of you. itâs not even something you asked him to doâhe just noticed you sniffing his shirts a little more critically and panicked. now, heâs always freshly applied before seeing you.
loser bf!rodrick, who gets hard every time you kiss him.
loser bf!rodrick, who tries his best to keep his room somewhat presentable whenever you come over. he knows itâs still a fucking disaster by normal standards, but for rodrick, clearing a path to the bed is a grand romantic gesture.
loser bf!rodrick, whoâs obsessed so with seeing your hickeys on him. he never bothers to hide themâin fact, he wears them like badges.
loser bf!rodrick, who almost accidentally used the wrong side of the condom when you had sex for the first time.
loser bf!rodrick, who absolutely melts when you tug on his hair during sex. he didnât even realise he had a thing for it until the first time you did it. now, he practically begs for it without using words, tilting his head back and grinning like a total idiot whenever your fingers get close.
loser bf!rodrick, who keeps every random thing youâve ever given him â notes youâve passed to him in class, concert tickets, even candy wrappers.
loser bf!rodrick, who hates being bossed around but will do anything you ask, especially if it involves you kissing his cheek or ruffling his hair in thanks. heâs so whipped and everyone knows it.
loser bf!rodrick, who brags to greg about how sexy and smart and pretty you are, just to rub it in, but secretly feels like he doesnât deserve you. he gets this dumb, soft look on his face whenever youâre around, like he still canât believe you chose him.
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Summary: Fernando doubts that his girlfriend will want him for long, but she promises that her love has no conditions.
Themes: age gap
No part 2 requests please
There wasn't exactly subtle thoughts on Fernando and y/n's relationship. Headlines from media, sly comments from commentators. Even other drivers had shared some thoughts on the matter.
Admittedly some of them were hoping to be the ones who got to date her. But Fernando was the only one who she had eyes for.
Y/n is unshakeable when it comes to being fazed by any of that. She found a man she loves and who takes care of her. Why would she care what strangers have to stay on the matter?
Fernando loves her all the more for it, but sometimes he does wonder if she feels doubts secretly. Doubts that she'll be there for long, she'll realise that her time with him is more limited than if she chose another man. One closer to her age.
"Nando! Stop staring at yourself in the mirror and come watch a movie with me. This suite didn't give us a cinema sized tv for us to waste." Y/n states excitedly, her energy always so contagious. At least for Fernando.
"I am coming, you are always in a rush."
"I got so many good snacks from room service. I know you can't eat most of it. But...you can live vicariously through me." Y/n smiles making the old man smile at her and nod taking her hand as he allows her to guide him into the lounge area where she has taken the make yourself at home curtesy to heart.
Y/n smiles as she pats the seat next to herself and he sits down, enjoying as she cuddles into him.
"Te amo." Y/n smiles making him look down at her finding her gaze already directed up at him. "If we spent every day like this in a few years when you do finally retire, then I'll be content. But also I know you and your restless self need more fun activities to kill time."
"I would happily watch movies if it means that you still love me when I am old and ugly." Fernando semi-jokes, he does actually wonder what he might have to do in hopes of keeping her in his life for a long time.
"You could never be old and ugly. You age like fine wine, Fernando Alonso." Y/n laughs then picking up his hand to kiss her. "Anyway, it's me who should worry. Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?"
Fernando is in shock of her words, joking or not he is hurt by the idea that he'd lose interest in y/n because she has to age at some point.
"You will always be beautiful. No matter how old you are." Fernando states earning a small grateful smile. "You are beautiful, and beauty does not fade with age unless you have bad taste."
"It's a very good thing we both have good taste." Y/n chuckles earning a smile from the older man. "I think you should have at least 1 bite of food."
"I will have more than 1 bite. I am old, but fit. I do not need to always follow a strict diet and I enjoy eating when I am with you."
-
Y/n smiles picking up her bag from the car only as she moves around linking he hand with her awaiting boyfriend but he quickly takes her bag to carry for her.
"Oh thank you." Y/n laughs before leaning over and kissing his cheek. "I was thinking. I might actually spend a couple hours around here then see if there's somewhere to get my nails done. With all the travelling I've not been staying on top of them."
"Not the nail." Fernando gasps lifting her hand and looking at her outgrown nails. "Ah mi amor, your nails!"
Y/n can't help but laugh pushing him away from herself as he mocks her though she knows he will fuss over her fresh nails. She got a set inspired by his helmet designs few races ago and he posted it online himself along with showing several of the team at the time.
"You get new nails and toe." Fernando states making her smile at him for a moment.
"I'll let you choose the design. I'll send you some pictures for inspiration and you can choose." Y/n smiles as he then kisses her hand softly.
"How did I get so lucky?" Fernando questions before helping her into the paddock ahead of himself.
"You are a lucky man." Y/n giggles spinning around to face him as she steps backwards walking ahead of him. "But I am the luckiest woman."
Fernando tsks never liking for her to value herself as less than him because he doesn't think plucking the moon and every star from the sky would be enough for her to understand how much she means to him.
But in some ways he also just feels that he does not deserve her. He's more subtle in it than she is, and she always reaffirms that while she might say such things. She is there to stay.
"Maybe I should get Aston Martin green?" Y/n hums in a moment of thought. "It'd be quite nice wouldn't it."
"The white and green is nice."
"Mmm...I'll see if I can think up a design idea or find one that would work with those colours." Y/n hums while he smiles.
-
Fernando considers himself very luck knowing that y/n had the pick of the litter when it comes to dating. There's no shortage of interest and even with Fernando by her side as she dotes on him.
But admittedly there's nothing better than seeing y/n in her nightly routine which is much longer and more tedious than his but sometimes she pulls him along to join in when he is feeling more energetic at the end of a day. But most of the time he just watches.
She patters around the room, always well presented in a matching set for pyjamas, usually something silky and lacey. He loves it so much.
"You always watch me." Y/n comments climbing in bed with him.
"It is hard to not look at the most beautiful thing in the room." Fernando shrugs watching her get a little flustered. "I love you a lot and I like to watch you."
"You are...perfect. I don't know what I'd do without you." Y/n sighs shaking her head as she slides down to lie half on top of him.
"Some days I worry you will leave me when you get too old. You will realise that there is a reason people tend to date people their own age." Fernando admits in a sudden vulnerable moment while y/n softens slightly. "It is me that needs to worry about what I will do without you."
"Mi amor." Y/n grins proud to be the one who gets to use the term of endearment in such a way. "Your age means more to you than it means to me. I don't care how old you are, I will age too and I want to live out our long lives together. There is no one else that I want."
"You say that but-"
"No. No but. Fernando Alonso. The love I feel for you is like nothing else I've felt and it has no limit. Why would I choose less than what I have with you? Unless you think me stupid?" Y/n challenges making Fernando tsk at her.
"You are not stupid." He states earning a huff and nod. "I just never want you to feel unhappy with me or like you are unable to leave."
"Two things that are impossible." Y/n promises in a soft whisper then sighing. "We'll live a long life together, one that I want for both of us."
"I want that too."
"Good...and I'll do whatever I need to for as long as I need to for you to believe me when I say it." Y/n states shifting around to lie down properly. "Now, cuddle me and let's get some sleep."
"Yes boss." Fernando smiles rolling over to kiss her softly. "I did not not I could love you more but you really gave me so much reason to love you the impossible amount more that I do."
"I love you too. But I think I've made that clear by now."
"Yes. I will have to find a few ways to make sure the message is returned loud and clear."
â ËËË TWIRL KISS ÂŽËË â r. cameron x reader
"hey rafe, i wanna try something," you chirp, stepping into his personal space with a spark in your eyes, bright with whatever wonderful idea just bloomed behind them.
your boyfriend regards you with that familiar brand of fond detachment â half-bored, half-curious. as if he's already expecting some kind of tomfoolery, but willing to humor you.
you rise eagerly onto your tippy-toes and kiss him.
pivoting lightly on the balls of your feet, you begin to spin, rotating your mouth against his in a crooked arc. the kiss distorts but stays connected â your lips sliding across his with uneven pressure, nose bumping his chin, cheek skimming bone, until you realign.
eyes closed, rafe lets it happen. he follows the motion with the barest tilt of his chin but doesn't move otherwise.
you complete a second, a bit clumsier circle. your neck begins to ache and your mouth slips briefly off-course, but you power through. arms loop around his neck at last, steadying yourself. your lips are swollen and damp with effort.
that's when he lifts you â hands around your waist, clean off the ground. one cradles the base of your skull, thumb resting just beneath your ear.
"you're gonna give yourself a neck cramp, dumbass,"
and then he really kisses you.
Hi! I recently watched the new Gladiator sequel and Iâm so obsessed with the emperors, theyâre absolute cuties<3 I was just wondering if you could write some headcanons maybe about being married to both of them, of course itâs fine if you donât write about polygamy
Have a great day
My freaky gingers! Fred and Joseph did amazing as Caracalla and Geta in my opinion, my freaky little sadistic ginger emperors.
Being wanted by one sibling meant being desired by the other.
Geta and Caracalla shared everything, for nothing could ever belong to one of them as the other was bound to grow envious and want the same thing for himself.
So letâs say you were originally planned to marry just Geta or Caracalla, but the pair would abuse their power as emperors and demand that you were to marry both of them instead.
âItâs the will of the gods after all.â Geta would say.
âAnd we wouldnât want to displease them now would we?â Caracalla would add with a cackle.
You had no say whatsoever but to agree to marry the brother emperors, which many didnât bother to bat an eye of how curious a case this was, but again they too were under the belief that this was the will of the gods for the emperors to share a spouse for the betterment of their rule.
Both brothers thrive for your attention to be on them and theyâd do anything to have it wherever and whenever they can, and all you could do was give them the attention that they so desire.
Hold them close to your chest, cradle them there and let them hear your heart and your breathing to smooth them in knowing that someone did love them, for being there for them as a safe haven from the frequent scheming of the senate and the betrayals and the constant needed to look over their shoulders to make sure no one was going to stab them in the back.
So being with you and held so closely like they deeply desired when before ascending the throne, made it all seem worth while if it meant being gifted the love that they so sought after in those they considered a close confidant within the senate, or just in general approval from the public they rule over.
Marriage life with Geta and Caracalla wasnât easy, you didnât expect it to in the slightest as you were constantly seen between the two emperors, draped in the finest of silks and jewellery they could find as to signal your beginning to them both, to show that you were on equal footing as your emperor husbands as your counsel was the one they often followed more often then not.
Does this mean they are rid of the concubines? Probably not and whether or not this was an issue for you is up for debate.
If it is then youâd naturally be questioning the loyalty of your emperor husbands in a fit of embarrassment and shame, not wanting to look a fool within your own marriage, especially not in front of the Roman public nor the senate that would try to whisper words of infidelity about Geta and Caracalla.
âAm I not your spouse? You forced me into marriage with the two of you and yet you both still seek paid comfort.â Youâd spat as though it was venom in my mouth.
âMy love-â
Youâd glare at Geta who stopped short in his tracks as Caracalla watched you both with eerily silence.
âIf you are to seek paid comfort, then donât expect none from me should you continue this route of self indulgence.â You say before leaving the room, not once looking back as you returned to your shared chambers. Again you wouldnât want to look a fool when your emperor husbands run to the arms of concubines, you were above it.
Letâs hypothetically say you have concubines yourself in retaliation, theyâd unfortunately all be dead on the orders of Geta and Caracalla in a fit of rage.
Your marriage isnât pretty nor romantic in the slightest, and Iâm not trying to make it out to be like that, just only that your marriage to them both could be full of hypocrisy and jealousy and sometimes accusations of cheating would arise also as a result.
Itâs a mess and wouldnât get sorted unless your three are clear headed and clam enough to talk it out like healthy lovers should. And when it does get sorted, you all act as though everything that had come to this point of peace didnât happen at all, as soon enough you were back to holding the emperor brothers again your chest as they slept.
Due to being their spouse you naturally had a target on your back, so it would be of no surprise that you were to be the intended victim for an assignation attempt by shadowy figures hiding their identities in the background.
Shadowy figures that wanted you dead as to kill any sort of morale the emperor brothers had by taken whatâs theirs.
Letâs say you survive the attempt, make no mistake that your emperor husbands would be by your side immediately, anger and fury written as clear as day across their faces as they had you pressed between the two of them, theyâd whispered hushed words into your ears about finding who did this to you and killing them publicly to show their intolerance to attempts on their spouse.
Your emperor husbands would make sure you were constantly guarded no matter what afterwards, killing those who didnât do their duty and replacing them with new guards that would keep you safe when they were with the senate, or in the study.
They become insufferably clingy and overprotective afterwards that it felt suffocating to be in the same room with them being so close to you, it was overwhelming and theyâd even have people test whenever or not your drink and or food was tampered with as extra precaution.
You understood their worries to an extent but if itâs been a good while since the attempt, then you find it unnecessary to continue such tight and overbearing conditions they had put in place. So itâs best to speak with them about that for paranoia had overtaken them both with the ideas that youâd be killed or taken even if they were to even dare blink.
Being married to Geta and Caracalla was chaos incarnate, discord and mayhem disguised in gold, jewellery and expensive silks and lavished lifestyles; a perfect facade to cover the true nature of their own unravelling beneath the mask theyâve made to get by as rulers of a powerful empire ever known.
Hello! Since I read your Yandere stories, my head began to ask these questions, how many children do our yanderes want to have for us? Would they get a little jealous when our babies are feeding from us?
Hii Dear Anon!
First of all I'm glad you liked my content, thank you! And secondly, your question is very good Anon, although this will be a bit short, I hope you like it! đ€
How many children would the yanderes have with reader? Would they be jealous of their children?
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This man definitely wants lots of kids, five or six at the very least and about nine or ten at the most, I think he'd mostly prefer to have boys (since he thinks they're easier to handle) but he wouldn't mind having one or two girls, he has a big farm so he doesn't worry about space and he makes enough money from the cattle and crops to support them all.
As for being jealous of his children when they're breastfed or jealous in general, I don't think so. I honestly don't think he's the "Stay away son, she's mine" type but he also wouldn't let you have much time with the kids especially if they're boys since if you spoil them too much he thinks you'll make them "weak" and "mama's boys" which he doesn't want, so when they learn to walk he'll take them with him to do the farm chores.
"The kids are coming to work with me today. What if they're three and four? That's the perfect age to start getting to know everything, don't question me."
He would want at least 3 children, two boys and a girl, although he might want more, depending on his mood.
And regarding getting jealous when watching his child eat or in general, I think he would get a little jealous, although he would try to be playful and downplay it, saying things like "He's a little chubby, don't you think you feed him too much?" Or "Look, it's 1 PM, isn't it time for a nap? Come on, son, it's time to sleep." Of course you don't let him take the baby away, it's not his bedtime yet.
"Baby doll, when I was a child I was fed and put to sleep at any hour even if I didn't want to, and look at me, everything turned out fine!"
This poor man wants to have two girls, two little princesses that look like you, he already has one son so you'd rather have girls but he doesn't care if one is a boy or if they both end up being boys (although not having a daughter that looks like you would break his heart) he's one of the few yanderes that promises to have only two children and keeps it. He doesn't force you to have more even if the ones you give birth to aren't the gender he wanted.
Well now I don't think he would get jealous of his children while breastfeeding, rather I think he would touch the baby's head while breastfeeding even leaving kisses on its chubby cheek, although seeing you breastfeeding might excite him a little (he has a thing for tits and milk, okay?) but he wouldn't try anything at that moment on the contrary he would try to hide it.
"You're so pretty little girl... look at that little nose and those round cheeks... you're so precious sweetheart... just like your mommy"
Another one who wants to have two kids, only he wants to have a pair a boy and a girl, no more kids, just two. Not one more, not one less. I think he would have favoritism with his girl and the boy would be more attached to you as a result.
He would get jealous, he doesn't even want to hide it, although he would be more mean if the one you were breastfeeding was the boy, he would stare from the leather chair right in front of you, watch you rub the baby's head while he eats and make comments like "You don't rub my head when I suck on your boobs, don't rub his head either" or "You know there are high end milks on the market made from breast milk, why don't we try giving him that instead of your milk?" if you scold him or look at him the wrong way he would throw up his hands in surrender and say in an offended voice.
"Hey! Don't look at me like that! You should be grateful that I care, that brat will make your tits sag!"
â aviso: dark romance, stalker!enzo, menção Ă sexo e masturbação, homicĂdio e violĂȘncia, menção Ă autoextermĂnio. NĂO LEIA SE FOR SENSĂVEL. (+18).
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â notas: eu nĂŁo sou estudante de psicologia, entĂŁo provavelmente pode ter alguns conceitos errados ao longo do texto. Ă© tudo ficção, manas e manos. Ă s psicĂłlogas do site: minhas desculpas caso haja um erro muito grotesco!! nĂŁo Ă© um smut. uma coisa meio Mavi de Mania de VocĂȘ.
a cabeça latejava como se as tĂȘmporas estivessem sido apertadas pelas mĂŁos de um gigante impiedoso. os olhos lutavam para continuarem abertos, embora a luz branca do consultĂłrio parecesse tirar sarro do seu esforço. o som da caneta deslizando pelo papel tambĂ©m nĂŁo ajudava em nada. vocĂȘ estava considerando parar de anotar o que o paciente lhe dizia, mas seria falta de educação.
"Enzo, eu preciso que vocĂȘ me dĂȘ mais detalhes da sua infĂąncia. vocĂȘ fica repetindo que as coisas eram muito difĂceis, mas vocĂȘ ainda nĂŁo disse como as coisas eram difĂceis." seu tom de voz sereno mascarava a dor profunda em que vocĂȘ se encontrava. "tudo bem por vocĂȘ?"
o homem bonito assentiu timidamente. era a terceira vez que vocĂȘ o via naquele mĂȘs e sentia que nĂŁo obtivera muito sucesso nas consultas anteriores. ele respondia Ă s perguntas e falava muito sobre coisas do dia Ă dia, mas costumava a ser um pouco vago sobre coisas pessoais. sempre que podia, contornava a pergunta com uma oratĂłria impressionante.
Enzo era muito bonito. tinha cabelos longos, andava sempre com as peças de roupa impecåveis e estava sempre cheiroso. costumava usar colares e anéis e os sapatos estavam sempre limpos. tinha uma voz profunda e envolvente. um sorriso de causar suspiros e um olhar que parecia despir quem quer que fosse.
"eu fui abandonado pelos meus pais quando criança. como nĂŁo tinha nenhum parente prĂłximo, fui deixado em um orfanato." vocĂȘ anotou tal fato no prontuĂĄrio do paciente, um pouco perplexa por ele ter escondido aquilo desde a primeira sessĂŁo. voltou a mirĂĄ-lo depois de feito, mas ele apenas se manteve em silĂȘncio.
"e como era esse orfanato?"
"pĂ©ssimo." a postura mudou. estava relaxado momentos antes e, de sĂșbito, travara em uma posição de desconforto. os dedos batucavam no braço estofado da poltrona. "as freiras que cuidavam do orfanato nĂŁo eram muito bondosas. irĂŽnico, nĂŁo?"
"vocĂȘ acha que o abandono dos seus pais Ă© responsĂĄvel por algum mecanismo de defesa que, hoje, possa te atrapalhar na sua socialização?"
"como assim?" o uruguaio a olhou desconfiado. vocĂȘ conteve a vontade de sorrir. alguns pacientes demonstravam muito mais do que pensavam demonstrar.
"quando algumas pessoas sĂŁo abandonadas, elas criam mecanismos de defesa para lidar com o abandono." vocĂȘ explicou, massageando a tĂȘmpora cuidadosamente. "por exemplo, algumas pessoas podem evitar a socialização e, consequentemente, evitar um possĂvel abandono. outras, irĂŁo socializar, mas vĂŁo fazer absolutamente tudo que elas pensam que irĂĄ garantir a presença da outra pessoa em suas vidas. isso pode ser problemĂĄtico, pois elas colocam as necessidades de outras pessoas Ă frente das suas."
"não acho que eu faça parte de nenhum dos casos. eu me socializo muito bem e sei respeitar meus limites."
"mas tem dificuldade para se abrir para outras pessoas." vocĂȘ pontuou enquanto rabiscava um desenho bobo no fim do bloco de notas. Enzo a olhou como se algo extremamente embaraçoso sobre ele houvesse sido revelado para milhĂ”es de pessoas. "estĂĄ tudo bem, Enzo. isso nĂŁo te faz uma pessoa melhor ou pior. estamos sĂł pontuando algumas caracterĂsticas sobre a sua personalidade."
um sorriso nervoso dançou nos lĂĄbios bonitos do paciente. ele voltou a relaxar, como se realizasse que nĂŁo tinha como mentir para vocĂȘ. de uma maneira ou de outra, vocĂȘ descobriria todos os segredos dele.
"acho que vocĂȘ tem razĂŁo. eu jĂĄ tive problemas relacionados Ă isso." ele confessou, um pouco receoso. "relacionamentos que nĂŁo funcionaram porque eu me abria muito pouco. amizades, romances..."
"entĂŁo vocĂȘ vĂȘ a necessidade de mudar essa sua caracterĂstica?"
"seria bom poder confiar mais nas pessoas. acho que melhoraria muitos aspectos da minha capacidade de socializar." vocĂȘ sorriu. Enzo era um homem muito inteligente, afinal. vocĂȘ gostava dos pacientes que se mostravam aptos Ă mudança.
"isso Ă© muito bom. Ă© exatamente o tipo de pensamento que alguĂ©m deve ter ao procurar a terapia." vocĂȘ o encorajou, voltando a olhar para a ficha dele. "vocĂȘ me disse que as freiras do orfanato nĂŁo eram muito solĂcitas. vocĂȘ lembra de algum episĂłdio em especĂfico que te faz pensar assim?"
[...]
seu corpo colapsou na cadeira do restaurante quando vocĂȘ finalmente achou a mesa ocupada pelo seu noivo. Esteban retirou os olhos do celular, te dando um sorriso caridoso como forma de apoio.
"vocĂȘ estĂĄ linda hoje."
"vocĂȘ Ă© um Ăłtimo mentiroso." vocĂȘ sorriu, um pouco exausta atĂ© mesmo para contrair os mĂșsculos faciais. depois de duas aspirinas, a dor de cabeça tinha atĂ© melhorado. agora restavam as dores musculares que tomavam o corpo de assalto. "vocĂȘ jĂĄ pediu?"
"sim. pedi aquele risoto que vocĂȘ gosta, alĂ©m desse merlot." ele apontou para a garrafa em cima da mesa. inclinou-se gentilmente para servir tanto o seu copo quanto o dele antes de brindar com vocĂȘ. "eu sei que Ă© dia de semana, mas vocĂȘ merece."
"de acordo." vocĂȘ nĂŁo se opĂŽs, dando um grande gole na bebida. o corpo contraiu em um espasmo de felicidade. "tudo certo para o seu voo amanhĂŁ?"
"uhum. vai ficar bem atĂ© lĂĄ?" a canhota encontrou a sua sobre a mesa, os olhinhos brilhando de preocupação. vocĂȘ sorriu.
"sĂŁo sĂł cinco dias, meu amor. acho que eu aguento." Esteban sorriu, deixando um selar no anel de noivado caro.
voaria para o Chile para performar algumas cirurgias cardiotorĂĄcicas em diversos hospitais do territĂłrio. o intercĂąmbio de saĂșde tinha sido proposto pelo hospital em que Esteban trabalhava e ele, como o homem empĂĄtico que era, nĂŁo conseguiu negar. embarcava na sexta e voltaria somente na quarta.
vocĂȘ sentia um pouco de chateação, mas nada alĂ©m do comum. estavam noivos hĂĄ pouco tempo e desde o noivado, as coisas estavam mais romĂąnticas do que nunca. era comum transarem mais do que o normal, sair para jantar mais vezes no meio das semanas turbulentas e passarem horas planejando o futuro juntos. vocĂȘ sabia que iria sentir falta dele enquanto ele estivesse em Santiago, mas seria por uma boa causa.
o jantar havia sido agradĂĄvel, como sempre. depois de algumas taças de vinho vocĂȘ estava relaxada o suficiente para aproveitar o resto da noite, esta que começou no elevador do prĂ©dio em que vocĂȘs moravam. vocĂȘ se lembrava dos lĂĄbios de Esteban correndo pelo seu pescoço e em poucos segundos vocĂȘ estava na cama sendo fodida impiedosamente.
vocĂȘ tinha as sextas livres, entĂŁo aproveitou para fazer tudo que podia depois de levar o noivo no aeroporto. participou de uma aula de pilates, levou os cachorros para passear e decidiu ir atĂ© o supermercado mais prĂłximo para repor a dispensa de casa.
estava carregando um saco pesado de ração quando os seus olhos encontraram os dele. era Enzo, o seu paciente do dia anterior. te olhava como se fosse proibido. alguns pacientes não se sentiam muito confortåveis em ver os seus terapeutas fora do consultório.
vocĂȘ sorriu timidamente antes de voltar a procurar pelo seu carrinho. Enzo, lutando contra o desconforto, se aproximou para ajudĂĄ-la.
"isso parece pesado." ele ofereceu os braços fortes e vocĂȘ colocou o saco de ração nas mĂŁos dele, agradecendo pela gentileza.
"e muito." vocĂȘ voltou a procurar pelo carrinho, achando-o um pouco distante de onde vocĂȘ o deixara. alguĂ©m provavelmente o tinha empurrado. "vocĂȘ mora por aqui?"
"nĂŁo... eu vim visitar um amigo que mora no bairro e pensei em comprar alguma bebida para nĂŁo chegar de mĂŁos vazias." ele colocou as mĂŁos nos bolsos, voltando ao estado de desconforto anteriormente. "vocĂȘ estĂĄ noiva?"
vocĂȘ olhou para as suas mĂŁos, sentindo-se pega. geralmente, tirava a aliança quando atendia os pacientes. gostava de deixar claro o limite entre razĂŁo-emoção quando atendia. nĂŁo queria que os pacientes ficassem envolvidos demais em detalhes sobre a sua vida pessoal.
"sim, fazem alguns meses." vocĂȘ brincou com a aliança. nĂŁo tinha muito mais sobre o que falar. "obrigada pela ajuda, Enzo."
"nĂŁo hĂĄ de quĂȘ." ele sorriu, gentil. vocĂȘ se afastou dele lentamente depois de se despedir.
Vogrincic assistiu enquanto vocĂȘ se afastava. estava tĂŁo linda naquele conjunto de academia, com os cabelos presos em um rabo de cavalo desleixado. podia ver a sua nuca muito bem, o que lhe causava arrepios. cada pedaço seu era tĂŁo perfeito quanto o outro.
nĂŁo pĂŽde descrever o sentimento que o tomou quando viu a sua aliança. exibia uma pedra oval solitĂĄria, o ouro branco reluzindo contra as luzes fosforescentes do supermercado. ele sabia que vocĂȘ era noiva, claro que sabia. mas ainda doĂa vĂȘ-la exibir o anel com tanta felicidade.
era uma tarde de agosto quando Enzo te viu pela primeira vez sentada em um café com algumas de suas amigas. estava bebendo café e comendo um bolo cheio de cobertura de chocolate. ele se lembrava como seus låbios envolviam a colher tão satisfatoriamente. como seu anel de noivado brilhava na sua mão esquerda. como estava linda na blusa de gola alta.
nĂŁo conseguiu evitar os instintos que hĂĄ muito lutava contra. tinha que saber mais sobre vocĂȘ.
a seguiu pelo resto do dia. passeou pelo shopping enquanto via vocĂȘ e as amigas entrarem em lojas e mais lojas. assistiu uma das amigas tirar uma foto do prato quando decidiram almoçar em um restaurante caro demais e nĂŁo tardou em abrir o Instagram, procurando pela localização do ambiente. nos stories que contavam com a localização, estava o prato da sua amiga. clicou no perfil, avançando entre posts e destaques atĂ© que achasse uma foto sua e, claro, seu perfil. vocĂȘ tinha o perfil privado e aquilo o fez gostar mais de vocĂȘ. nĂŁo era burra como as outras.
quando se certificou de que vocĂȘ estava de volta a sua casa em segurança, pegou um tĂĄxi para o prĂłprio apartamento. lĂĄ, a obsessĂŁo começou. passou horas procurando pelo seu nome. encontrou a clĂnica que vocĂȘ trabalhava, alĂ©m dos diversos trabalhos de iniciação cientĂfica que vocĂȘ jĂĄ tinha publicado. encontrou uma notĂcia em um site de fofoca de socialites que falava sobre o seu noivado. aparentemente, seu noivo vinha de uma linhagem de mĂ©dicos famosos em Buenos Aires. marcou uma consulta com a sua secretĂĄria. nĂŁo era nada barato, mas valeria cada centavo. poderia te conhecer melhor ou, atĂ© mesmo, fazer com que vocĂȘ se interessasse por ele. Enzo sabia que era bonito. nĂŁo era difĂcil conquistar nenhuma mulher se ele quisesse bastante.
Vogrincic recordou-se da Ășltima vez em que tinha mergulhado em uma obsessĂŁo daquele jeito. tinha sido em MontevidĂ©u. a garota era tĂŁo linda. uma colega de classe com quem ele tinha o prazer de dividir trabalhos e atividades. era sempre gentil, compartilhando suas anotaçÔes com ele e o incluindo nos grupos de seminĂĄrios. estava sempre cheirosa, sempre bem arrumada. ele tinha se apaixonado tĂŁo perdidamente.
começara a segui-la para as festas, jogos universitårios, bares e qualquer outro lugar que contasse com a presença dela. passara semanas e semanas enviando flores e poemas para o seu dormitório. às vezes, quando tinha medo de que alguém fosse machucå-la, ficava rondando o prédio de dormitórios femininos para que ficasse ligado em qualquer atividade suspeita. sentia-se como um herói misterioso.
até ela descobrir.
lembrava-se bem do olhar de descrença, do medo, de como ela nĂŁo queria que ele se aproximasse. implorou para que ele parasse de persegui-la, mas ela nĂŁo conseguia entender que era, basicamente, impossĂvel. ele estava envolvido demais e nĂŁo conseguiria parar. nĂŁo agora.
entĂŁo, seguiu com a loucura. nĂŁo conseguia se conter. quando tentava ficar trancado em seu prĂłprio dormitĂłrio, era como se uma crise de abstinĂȘncia o atacasse. o coração batia forte dentro do peito, as mĂŁos suavam e a cabeça doĂa sem parar. a garganta ficava seca e embora tomasse litros e litros de ĂĄgua, estava sempre com sede. nĂŁo conseguia dormir sem pensar nela. nĂŁo conseguia focar nas atividades da faculdade. nĂŁo conseguia nem mesmo respirar.
a odisseia durou atĂ© que a garota fora encontrada no seu dormitĂłrio sem vida. tinha tomado diversas cartelas de opioides e escrito uma longa carta culpando Enzo pelo seu suicĂdio. ela nĂŁo entendia que aquela era uma forma de carinho. um jeito de dizer que se importava, que queria cuidar dela quando mais ninguĂ©m queria.
foi obrigado a se mudar para Buenos Aires logo em seguida. se transferiu para uma nova faculdade para que pudesse terminar o curso e nunca mais teve coragem de pisar em Montevidéu. ainda se lembrava de como as pessoas reagiram quando o encontraram pelos corredores da faculdade.
âmonstroâ.
monstro? monstruosidade era abandonar as pessoas. deixå-las para trås com nada além de inseguranças e medos. o que ele fazia era amor. cuidado. estava ali para mostrar à ela que sempre estaria ao seu lado, que sempre cuidaria de tudo. que nunca a abandonaria.
durante o seu tempo em Buenos Aires nĂŁo encontrou ninguĂ©m que despertasse aquele interesse. Ă© claro, vez ou outra se apaixonava rapidamente por uma qualquer e era obrigado Ă descobrir tudo sobre a vida dela. mas, nenhuma o deixava preso o suficiente para que pudesse amar novamente. as mulheres eram tĂŁo fĂșteis e superficiais na capital.
atĂ© que ele encontrou vocĂȘ. vocĂȘ era tĂŁo bonita, mas, ao mesmo tempo, tĂŁo centrada. vocĂȘ era tĂŁo inteligente e empĂĄtica. tĂŁo humilde e tĂŁo trabalhadora. leal, viajada, sorridente. vocĂȘ tinha uma vida da qual ele queria fazer parte. vocĂȘ voltou a representar o ideal de felicidade na cabeça dele.
e agora ele nĂŁo podia mais viver sem vocĂȘ.
as primeiras sessĂ”es nĂŁo tinham dado em lugar algum. vocĂȘ era uma profissional muito boa e ele tinha que lutar para nĂŁo fugir do personagem. conseguia compreender que se dissesse certas coisas, acabaria lhe assustando como tinha assustado as outras pessoas. mesmo que uma vez ou outra ele pensasse que vocĂȘ o aceitaria por ser uma psicĂłloga, sempre se acovardava no final.
no entanto, estava se tornando impossĂvel ficar longe de vocĂȘ. se deu conta disso quando a viu cruzar as ilhas do supermercado de um lado para o outro exibindo o colo naquele lindo dia de primavera. era fisicamente impossĂvel nĂŁo te querer.
sabia que o seu noivo estava fora da cidade. lia cada notĂcia sobre ele, alĂ©m de acompanhar a rede sociais dos amigos do casal. ele estava no Chile assim como outros mĂ©dicos do hospital em que ele trabalhava. e vocĂȘ estava ali, abandonada.
isso o encheu de uma raiva crescente. se vocĂȘ fosse noiva dele, jamais te abandonaria. cuidaria de vocĂȘ dia apĂłs dia. vocĂȘ sempre voltaria para um lar cheio de amor e cuidado.
Enzo se deliciava com a imaginação de ser o seu noivo. o seu hobby favorito depois do trabalho era pensar em vocĂȘ. apagava as luzes do quarto, acendia velas, escolhia o vinil favorito dos maiores hits de Ray Charles para tocar e mergulhava nos pensamentos que envolviam vocĂȘ. como cozinharia para vocĂȘ todas as manhĂŁs e noites, como te daria massagens diĂĄrias quando vocĂȘ chegasse em casa cansada demais, como te foderia com paixĂŁo...
os sonhos sujos eram os mais vĂvidos. conseguia esculpir o seu corpo na argila que era a prĂłpria mente quase que perfeitamente. sabia de cor como eram as suas curvas, o formato e tamanho dos seus seios, como suas mĂŁos eram lindas e ficariam mais lindas o envolvendo. sentia-se mal por pensar em vocĂȘ daquele jeito. mas, era inevitĂĄvel. enquanto nĂŁo pudesse te ter completamente, sĂł restaria a imaginação. e aqueles momentos a sĂłs com a prĂłpria criatividade passaram a ser seus movimentos favoritos.
acordava ereto mais vezes do que o normal. sempre se aliviava debaixo da ĂĄgua gelada do chuveiro, como uma forma de punição por tal ato tĂŁo promĂscuo. raramente, quando bebia mais do que devia, o fazia na cama, pensando em vocĂȘ.
decidiu que aquele fim de semana seria o melhor momento para tentar uma aproximação. seu noivo estaria fora da cidade e ele sabia que vocĂȘ nĂŁo resistiria ao charme. podia ser um bom ator quando queria. havia aperfeiçoado a arte ao longo dos anos em que passara em Buenos Aires se relacionando com uma garota ou outra.
precisava escolher cuidadosamente. assumiu que vocĂȘ provavelmente veria as amigas em algum bar ou qualquer lugar onde ele pudesse se aproximar respeitosamente. se apresentaria para suas companhias, que ficariam embasbacadas por sua beleza, seria simpĂĄtico atĂ© que elas o convidassem para sentar. seria encantador. ela veria como vocĂȘ melhor que EstebĂĄn.
era esse o plano. estava comprometido a segui-lo e tinha atĂ© mesmo se liberado das tarefas do fim de semana para que pudesse te seguir para qualquer lugar que fosse. se vocĂȘ nĂŁo tivesse estragado tudo.
era sĂĄbado, um pouco mais de uma da tarde, quando vocĂȘ deixou a sua casa. estava linda como sempre. de camisa social larga, shorts jeans e um tĂȘnis confortĂĄvel. exibia a aliança ostensivamente com um par de brincos que combinavam. as mĂŁos de Enzo agarraram o volante do carro com certo desconforto. a primeira coisa que faria quando estivesse com vocĂȘ, seria destruir aquele pedaço de aliança insignificante.
a seguiu pela rua, parando o carro em frente Ă um cafĂ© metros da sua casa. um homem de cabelos curtos e sobrancelhas grossas esperava na porta por vocĂȘ. sorriu ao vĂȘ-la, a beijou no rosto carinhosamente e abriu a porta para que vocĂȘ entrasse. foi quando o sangue do uruguaio começou a ferver.
vocĂȘ estava tĂŁo confortĂĄvel com aquele outro homem. quem era ele? vocĂȘ estava traindo o seu noivo e Enzo nĂŁo havia descoberto? como vocĂȘ era tĂŁo estĂșpida de encontrĂĄ-lo em um cafĂ© tĂŁo prĂłximo da sua casa? e se alguĂ©m os visse ali? Vogrincic te amaldiçoou por minutos seguidos de minutos, se arrependendo por um dia ter te achado inteligente. vocĂȘ era desleixada, imperfeita, falha. e ele odiava ainda mais a si mesmo por ainda continuar te amando tĂŁo incondicionalmente.
deu partida no SUV para que evitasse mirar aquela cena constrangedora. nĂŁo seria testemunha dos seus casos ilĂcitos.
a tarde com Fernando tinha sido agradĂĄvel, como sempre. quando vocĂȘ e EstebĂĄn anunciaram a data do casamento na Ășltima semana para amigos mais prĂłximos, Contigiani nĂŁo tardou em entrar em contato. gostaria de organizar uma despedida de solteiro - com a permissĂŁo da noiva, Ă© claro - e comprar um presente especial para EstebĂĄn. eram amigos desde crianças e vocĂȘ estava extasiada em fazer parte da surpresa. Fernando e alguns outros amigos tinham escolhido presentear Kuku com uma viagem para sua adega favorita da ItĂĄlia e vocĂȘs tinham passado toda a tarde ajeitando os Ășltimos detalhes da viagem.
depois que alguns outros amigos se juntaram a vocĂȘs, a reuniĂŁo virou um encontro despretensioso que tinha resultado em diversos drinques no bar mais prĂłximo. eram sete horas da noite quando vocĂȘ finalmente se despediu dos amigos com a desculpa de que tinha que alimentar os cachorros.
quase como um mecanismo programado, pegou o celular na bolsa enquanto andava para casa. os passos eram lentos e a necessidade de ouvir o seu noivo a consumia durante todo o dia. discou o nĂșmero rapidamente, como se o pudesse fazer de olhos fechados.
"doutor Kukuriczka?" vocĂȘ fez a melhor voz manhosa que podia quando atendeu. "estou morrendo de saudades. o que vocĂȘ recomenda?"
"doses homeopĂĄticas do seu noivo." ele brincou do outro lado da linha. vocĂȘ sorriu, sentindo a saudade correr pelas veias. "eu estarei aĂ em alguns dias, nĂŁo se preocupe. como foi seu dia?"
encheu os ouvidos do noivo de fofocas e mais fofocas sobre seus amigos enquanto andava pela vizinhança, cumprimentando alguns vizinhos. assim que entrou no prédio, deu falta do porteiro, mas seguiu até o elevador sem maiores preocupaçÔes. apertou o botão do seu andar.
"endocartite bacteriana em uma criança? meu Deus, amor. seu dia deve ter sido difĂcil." vocĂȘ fez um biquinho. sabia como aqueles casos o afetavam, queria abraçå-lo e prometer que tudo ficaria bem.
"o prognĂłstico Ă© favorĂĄvel. nĂŁo se preocupe comigo, ok?" ele riu baixinho do outro lado da linha. "preocupe-se com vocĂȘ. eu sei que, quando nĂŁo estou em casa, vocĂȘ quase nĂŁo come direito."
"eu almocei hoje, ok? e teve salada e tudo mais." vocĂȘ brincou, descendo no seu andar assim que o elevador abriu. procurou a chave na bolsa, destrancando a porta com facilidade. era como se jĂĄ estivesse aberta.
"sei. faça o favor e peça um jantar, tambĂ©m. por via das dĂșvidas." vocĂȘ gargalhou, adentrando o apartamento. procurou pelos cachorros salsichas que, geralmente, vinham Ă todo vapor quando vocĂȘ abria a porta, mas nĂŁo os encontrou. "eu preciso visitar um paciente agora, ainda estou de plantĂŁo. prometo te ligar quando estiver livre."
"tudo bem, Kuku." vocĂȘ largou a chave na bacia de mĂĄrmore onde guardava outras bobagens, correndo os olhos pela sala de estar e a sala de jantar. um cheiro diferente enchia as narinas. "eu te amo."
"também te amo, mi prometida."
quando desligou o telefone, foi como se percebesse o silĂȘncio em que o apartamento estava mergulhado. procurou os cachorros por toda parte, os achando trancados no banheiro, batendo as patinhas na porta desesperadamente. nunca havia acontecido deles se prenderem ao mesmo tempo, o que quase lhe causou um ataque do coração (com toda a ironia que aquilo envolvia). depois que os serviu, foi para o banheiro da suĂte para tomar um banho.
ligou o registro, se despindo cuidadosamente enquanto a banheira ia se enchendo com o lĂquido tĂ©pido. pingou alguns Ăłleos essenciais de amĂȘndoas que tanto gostava, aproveitando dos vapores odorĂferos que embaçavam o espelho e a envolviam sutilmente. quando mergulhou o corpo na banheira, poderia jurar que ficaria ali a noite inteira.
esfregou os braços, as pernas, as costas. lembrou-se das vezes em que dividira aquele espaço Ănfimo com o noivo, sentada entre as pernas dele. EstebĂĄn era tĂŁo cuidadoso em lavar os seus cabelos e acarinhar a sua pele. quase o podia senti-lo ali. fechou os olhos, imaginando-o tocando o seu corpo com tanto clamor. jurando ao pĂ© do seu ouvido que te amava.
o cheiro estranho que sentira na sala de estar voltou a correr, desta vez, no banheiro. era um cheiro herbal, de frescor. um cheiro que vocĂȘ jurava conhecer, mas nĂŁo se recordava de onde. cheirou o prĂłprio corpo, procurando por resquĂcios de perfume dos amigos, mas nĂŁo era vocĂȘ.
quando saiu da banheira e se enrolou no roupão felpudo, escovou os dentes e seguiu para o closet. decidiu vestir uma das camisas de Estebån e uma calcinha confortåvel. ninguém a veria, então não tinha nada à esconder. perfumou o corpo com um hidratante corporal e pegou o celular para pedir o jantar. quando abandonava o closet para ir em direção à cama, o ouviu.
"quem era aquele cara com quem vocĂȘ se encontrou hoje?"
Enzo. seu paciente Enzo, sentado na poltrona que ficava ao lado da janela. a poltrona em que EstebĂĄn lia as notĂcias todas as manhĂŁs, a poltrona em que vocĂȘ pintava as unhas por causa da boa iluminação. seu paciente Enzo estava na sua casa.
o calor com o que o seu corpo estivera envolvido desde o banho parecia ter esvanecido. seu coração pareceu parar antes de voltar a vida com arritmias. suas mãos tremeram e o celular caiu no chão acarpetado. o que ele estava fazendo ali?
"o que vocĂȘ 'tĂĄ fazendo aqui?" a voz saiu trĂȘmula, frĂĄgil, desacreditada. a silhueta tremia de medo. as mĂŁos queriam se cobrir e as pernas, queriam correr. mas, vocĂȘ nĂŁo conseguia fazer nada. "como vocĂȘ entrou?"
"eu te fiz uma pergunta primeiro. é assim que nós conversamos, não é? através de perguntas." ele a encarou como se buscasse por sua afirmação. Enzo, que era, geralmente, muito tranquilo, estava uma bagunça. os olhos injetados corriam por todo o ambiente, em perplexidade por estar na sua casa. "quem era o cara?"
os olhos dele focaram um porta-retrato que estava na mesinha ao lado da poltrona. exibia uma foto sua e de EstebĂĄn quando ele tinha se formado na residĂȘncia. Enzo o pegou com delicadeza, o virando para baixo.
vocĂȘ decidiu que a melhor alternativa era respondĂȘ-lo. atĂ© que pudesse correr atĂ© a porta de casa ou pegar o seu telefone, responderia tudo que ele perguntasse.
"u-um amigo." vocĂȘ abraçou o prĂłprio corpo com temor. "pode responder a minha pergunta agora?"
"qual das duas?" Enzo voltou a mirĂĄ-la. agora, algumas lĂĄgrimas se formavam em bolsar na linha d'ĂĄgua dos seus olhos.
"o que vocĂȘ estĂĄ fazendo aqui, Enzo?"
"eu... eu tinha um plano, sabe? nesse fim de semana eu iria te mostrar que eu sou um cara legal. eu ia te conhecer melhor, ia te mostrar quem eu sou de verdade. jĂĄ tinha feito diversos planos para nĂłs." algumas lĂĄgrimas escorreram pelas bochechas avermelhadas. "atĂ© que eu te vi com outro cara. eu consigo aceitar o seu noivo, infelizmente vocĂȘ nĂŁo me conhecia antes de se comprometer com ele. mas, um amante? nĂŁo dĂĄ, nĂŁo dĂĄ..."
"Enzo... eu nĂŁo tenho um amante. ele era sĂł o meu amigo." seu corpo estava retesado, tenso. nĂŁo conseguia se mover nem mesmo que forçasse as suas sinapses ao mĂĄximo. estava amedrontada. "mas, vocĂȘ entende que isso aqui passa de todos os limites, certo? eu sou a sua psicĂłloga."
"nĂŁo... vocĂȘ Ă© o amor da minha vida." Enzo se levantou da poltrona, fazendo vocĂȘ estremecer. "eu sei que vocĂȘ Ă©. eu jĂĄ tive alguĂ©m assim na minha vida, eu me lembro da sensação. lembro de como era estar apaixonado. eu sĂł preciso que vocĂȘ me conheça melhor para que vocĂȘ veja que eu tambĂ©m posso ser o amor da sua vida..."
"Enzo, eu estou noiva." vocĂȘ o olhou nos olhos. era como um acidente: medonho, mas que vocĂȘ nĂŁo conseguia parar de olhar. "eu jĂĄ tenho alguĂ©m que eu amo. e vocĂȘ com certeza vai encontrar outra pessoa... se vocĂȘ deixar eu me trocar nĂłs podemos ir atĂ© o consultĂłrio e conversar lĂĄ."
"nĂŁo, eu nĂŁo quero ir pro consultĂłrio. eu nĂŁo tenho nada para falar na terapia. vocĂȘ nunca reparou? eu sĂł ia lĂĄ para te ver." ele sorriu, como se explicasse o Ăłbvio. seu sangue tinha se tornado gelo lĂquido, correndo pelas suas veias. "Ă© por isso que eu falava tĂŁo pouco... eu nĂŁo tenho nenhum problema, sĂł interesse em ver vocĂȘ."
Enzo se aproximou ainda mais. vocĂȘ nĂŁo conseguia recuar. estava com medo de que, se fizesse algum movimento brusco, ele faria algo terrĂvel com vocĂȘ. ele envolveu o seu rosto entre as suas mĂŁos de maneira terna.
"eu vi o seu apartamento hoje e fiquei pensando em como serĂamos felizes aqui." ele sorriu, ainda choroso. "aquilo que eu te falei sobre o abandono, isso era real. e eu estou aqui para te mostrar que eu nĂŁo vou te abandonar igual o seu noivo fez. eu vou estar aqui para vocĂȘ, sempre."
"Enzo, vocĂȘ estĂĄ me assustando." uma lĂĄgrima solitĂĄria escorreu pela sua bochecha.
"mas... eu te amo. eu te vi com aquele outro cara e vim pra cĂĄ imediatamente porque eu queria resolver as coisas com vocĂȘ. nĂŁo queria te perder para outro, de novo..." ele limpou a sua lĂĄgrima com o polegar. "eu estou aqui desde uma e meia. te assisti chegar, te assisti tomar banho e tudo que eu conseguia pensar era em como eu te amo."
nĂŁo sabia mais o que fazer. ele estava tĂŁo prĂłximo. conseguia sentir o cheiro herbal invadindo suas narinas. era ele aquele tempo todo. te observando, seguindo seus passos.
"por que eu nĂŁo pego um copo de ĂĄgua para vocĂȘ e a gente conversa com mais calma?" vocĂȘ colocou as mĂŁos sobre as deles, as segurando antes de guiĂĄ-lo de volta atĂ© a sua poltrona. Enzo assentiu, embora parecesse relutante.
foi necessĂĄria uma força tremenda para que vocĂȘ controlasse os seus passos e nĂŁo saĂsse correndo de imediato. ao chegar no corredor, pisou nas pontas do pĂ© atĂ© a porta da entrada, procurando pela chave na bacia de mĂĄrmore na mesinha ao lado. Ă© claro que Enzo havia a escondido. vocĂȘ pensou se seria uma sentença de morte gritar na varanda de casa para quem quer que estivesse passando. com certeza, seria.
seguiu atĂ© a cozinha, pegando dois copos e os enchendo de ĂĄgua. nĂŁo encheu atĂ© a borda porque, na tremedeira em que se encontrava, acabaria derramando o lĂquido por toda a casa. enquanto voltava para o quarto, decidiu que teria que pegar o seu celular.
Enzo estava sentado, com as mĂŁos entre as coxas. vocĂȘ entregou um dos copos Ă ele e sentou-se na beira da cama. vislumbrou o local onde havia deixado o celular cair, mas ele tambĂ©m havia sido confiscado. sentiu uma sĂșbita vontade de chorar.
"Enzo, eu entendi que vocĂȘ tem sentimentos por mim. e eu estou fazendo o melhor que posso para compreendĂȘ-los." vocĂȘ começou, dando um grande gole na ĂĄgua. "mas nĂŁo consigo entender porque vocĂȘ estĂĄ me fazendo de refĂ©m."
"eu jĂĄ disse. eu perdi a pessoa com quem eu era apaixonado antes... nĂŁo quero que o mesmo aconteça com vocĂȘ."
"vocĂȘ nĂŁo vai me perder." vocĂȘ encarou os olhos do uruguaio. buscou pelo seu celular na mesinha ao lado da poltrona, mas nĂŁo o encontrou. "mas, vocĂȘ compreende que nĂŁo Ă© normal aparecer na minha casa sem permissĂŁo, nĂŁo Ă©? isso me assustou."
"eu sei. mas tempos desesperados requerem medidas desesperadas."
"Enzo..." vocĂȘ se levantou, nĂŁo acreditando no que iria fazer. talvez estivesse jogando toda a dignidade no lixo, mas era melhor do que ser morta por um filho da puta maluco. andou em direção Ă ele, colocando o copo d'ĂĄgua na mesinha antes de se sentar em um dos joelhos do homem. "eu sĂł acho que hĂĄ situaçÔes melhores para que eu te conheça bem... nĂłs devĂamos marcar um cafĂ© amanhĂŁ, o que vocĂȘ acha?"
"e se eu te perder nesse meio tempo?" Vogrincic respirava fundo. nĂŁo tinha te tocado, o que vocĂȘ agradeceu mentalmente. estava nervoso, um pouco embaraçado pela situação. nĂŁo pensava em tirar proveito de vocĂȘ.
"nĂŁo vai." vocĂȘ negou com a cabeça, o tranquilizando. deu o seu melhor sorriso diplomata para acalmĂĄ-lo. "eu sĂł quero dormir depois de um dia longo. e te conhecer melhor amanhĂŁ. eu nĂŁo quero que vocĂȘ sinta que precisa invadir a minha casa para falar comigo... entendeu?"
Enzo assentiu. os olhos amendoados se tornavam menos manĂacos, mais compreensivos. o olhavam com tanta admiração que parecia ser palpĂĄvel. poderia jurar que, se pedisse Ă ele pelo seu coração, ele arrancaria do peito naquele momento. tambĂ©m jurou que ele nĂŁo a machucaria.
segurando o rosto dele com ternura, vocĂȘ depositou um beijo casto nos lĂĄbios dele. apesar de nĂŁo sentir nada alĂ©m de medo embebido em adrenalina, pĂŽde sentir os lĂĄbios macios de Enzo contra os seus. eram quentes, incertos, um pouco tĂmidos. ele segurou o seu corpo com ternura antes de corresponder.
"isso te faz crente de que vocĂȘ nĂŁo vai me perder?" vocĂȘ se sentia uma pĂ©ssima profissional. estava usando justamente da mente para que pudesse sair daquela situação. sentia-se como se estivesse o traindo.
ele assentiu com ternura, grato pela reafirmação. era a primeira vez que Enzo se sentia correspondido e o seu coração se enchia de amor. sabia que, amanhĂŁ, faria vocĂȘ se apaixonar por ele. vocĂȘ o tinha visto hoje da maneira que ele sempre quisera ser visto. tinha te compreendido como ninguĂ©m.
"por que vocĂȘ nĂŁo vai lavar o seu rosto antes de ir? vocĂȘ estĂĄ um pouco nervoso, nĂŁo Ă©?" vocĂȘ limpou as gotĂculas de suor que brotavam da testa dele. Enzo riu timidamente, assentindo.
vocĂȘ se ergueu do colo dele, indicando o banheiro com as mĂŁos. o seu plano era interfonar para o porteiro ou qualquer outro apartamento para pedir ajuda, mas o que vocĂȘ ganhou foi muito melhor.
o uruguaio puxou o celular do bolso traseiro da calça e entregou para vocĂȘ. com um sorriso carinhoso, vocĂȘ aceitou o aparelho enquanto ele se direcionava atĂ© o banheiro.
com os dedos trĂȘmulos, o desbloqueou e enviou mensagens de socorro para EstebĂĄn, alĂ©m do grupo do condomĂnio. lĂĄ, alguns moradores jĂĄ noticiavam que o sumiço do porteiro fora suficiente para chamar a polĂcia. vocĂȘ suspirou em alĂvio. pediu por socorro no grupo e descreveu Enzo o melhor que pode com o pouco tempo que tinha. quando ouviu a ĂĄgua da torneira parar de correr, desligou o telefone e o colocou sobre a mesa.
Enzo voltou, parecendo melhor. tinha retomado a compostura e os cabelos estavam elegantemente penteados para trĂĄs. vocĂȘ sorriu para ele.
"estĂĄ melhor assim." com cuidado, Enzo retirou a chave da sua casa do bolso da frente. "nĂŁo faça mais isso, ok? sempre que quiser conversar, vocĂȘ pode me ligar."
"eu nĂŁo tenho seu nĂșmero pessoal."
"ah..." vocĂȘ pegou um papelzinho na mesinha ao lado da poltrona, alĂ©m de uma caneta largada por ali. rabiscou alguns nĂșmeros aleatĂłrios no papel e o entregou, com um sorriso. "agora vocĂȘ tem."
"desculpa por ter te assustado." ele confessou. "nĂŁo era a minha intenção. mas, eu sei que vocĂȘ compreendeu. vocĂȘ sabe que eu queria somente o seu bem.
"eu sei..."
Enzo te entregou a chave. vocĂȘ o guiou pelo corredor e os seus cachorros latiram ao vĂȘ-lo. era uma presença desconhecida, e eles nĂŁo gostavam disso.
"desculpa por ter trancado os seus cachorrinhos... eu fiquei com medo deles me morderem." o uruguaio sorriu envergonhado.
vocĂȘ teve dificuldades para enfiar a chave na fechadura, mas quando o fez, girou com força para que pudesse se libertar da prisĂŁo que virara a prĂłpria casa. deu de cara com policiais no corredor, que a miraram em surpresa e a puxaram para fora de imediato.
Enzo foi detido, ali mesmo, no chĂŁo da sala de estar. suas mĂŁos foram algemadas e os seus direitos foram lidos. enquanto era culpado pelo assassinato do porteiro, ele pedia desculpas em um tom choroso. "eu nĂŁo bati forte o suficiente para matar, sĂł para desmaiĂĄ-lo..."
seu corpo tremia e os olhos se tornaram torneiras descontroladas que derramavam litros e litros de lĂĄgrimas enquanto Enzo se debatia violentamente para se soltar. os olhos dele encontraram os seus e vocĂȘ sentia a decepção correr pela feição dele.
estava tĂŁo perto do amor e aquilo fora tirado dele mais uma vez.
um policial se manteve na sua frente como medida de proteção quando o seu paciente foi levantado grosseiramente. os olhos estavam repletos de lĂĄgrimas, como os seus. ele ainda nĂŁo parecia compreender que vocĂȘ tinha guiado os passos da polĂcia para o seu apartamento.
"estå tudo bem, mi amor. eu vou voltar." ele assegurou com um sorriso triste. o policial o forçava para as escadarias do prédio, mas ele apresentava uma força descomunal enquanto resistia. seus olhos eram escuros, quebrados, cheios de uma força vil. "eu vou lutar pelo nosso amor."
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ââ PAIRING : Batboys x Fem Reader
ââ HEADCANON : How Do They Eat That Kitty?
ââ CHARACTERS : Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson, Jason Todd, Damian Wayne.
ââ NOTE : Minors DNI. Damian is an adult. English is not my first language. Hope you enjoy!
â BRUCE WAYNE â
Bruce eats pussy like itâs a goddamn art formâheâs precise, calculated, and maddeningly patient. He starts slow, always. Those big hands spread you open, thumbs keeping you vulnerable as he just looks at you, like youâre a meal heâs been starving for. Then, his tongue starts, slow and flat, dragging up from your entrance to your clit in one smooth stroke that has your breath catching. He doesnât rush, not at firstâhe builds you up so slowly that youâre practically begging him to stop teasing. When he gets serious? Oh, youâre fucked. Bruce focuses entirely on your clit, his tongue pressing firm and circling in ways that have your thighs trembling. He slides two fingers inside you, curving them just right to hit that spot, and he watches you. His dark eyes stay locked on your face, reading every reaction like heâs solving some complex puzzle. And god, he loves control. If you try to squirm or close your legs, he growls, low and dangerous, âStay still, or Iâll stop.â Spoiler: he never actually stops, but the threat alone keeps you in place. When you cum, he doesnât let up. His tongue keeps working you, dragging you through wave after wave until youâre crying out his name, completely wrecked.
â DICK GRAYSON â
Dick? Heâs a pussy-eating legend. You know how some people enjoy it? Dick fucking loves it. He dives in like itâs his favorite thing in the world, his hands gripping your thighs to pull you closer, his face buried between your legs as he moans like a man possessed. Heâs messy about it, tooâhis tongue is everywhere, licking and sucking on your clit like heâs trying to ruin you. But Dick knows exactly how to build you up. Heâll start with long, teasing licks, making you squirm and whimper, and then he focuses entirely on your clit. His tongue moves in quick, flicking motions, switching it up with soft sucks that send shocks through your entire body. And heâs loud. He moans into you, murmuring things like, âYou taste so fucking good,â and âI could stay down here all night.â His fingers? Fucking perfect. He slips two inside you effortlessly, curling them up in time with his tongue until youâre sobbing from the intensity. And Dick doesnât stop when you cum. Nope. He keeps going, even as youâre begging him for mercy, his grin widening against your skin because he knows heâs got you falling apart.
â JASON TODD â
Jason eats pussy like heâs got something to prove. Thereâs nothing soft or sweet about itâitâs raw, filthy, and absolutely fucking primal. He doesnât even bother teasing you. The second your legs are open, his face is buried between them, his tongue lapping at you like heâs starving. His grip on your thighs is bruisingâhe keeps you pinned in place no matter how much you try to squirm. His tongue is relentless, focusing on your clit with harsh flicks and sucks that have you seeing stars in seconds. Jasonâs all about intensityâhe groans against you, low and rough, sending vibrations through your body. And when he slides his fingers inside you, Itâs game over. He pumps them hard and fast, curling them to hit that sweet spot over and over until youâre screaming his name. Jason loves watching you lose control. Heâll pull back just enough to smirk at you, his lips and chin soaked, and growl, âCâmon, baby. Let me hear you.â And when you finally cum? He doesnât stop. He forces you to take every second of it, holding you down as he works you through the aftershocks, leaving you completely wrecked.
â DAMIAN WAYNE â
Damian is precise. He approaches eating pussy like a challenge, determined to reduce you to nothing but gasps and moans. He starts slow, dragging his tongue through your folds with maddening patience, watching your every reaction. His hands hold your thighs apart, firm but not rough, keeping you exactly where he wants you. Once he finds what works, Damian locks in like a man on a mission. His tongue circles your clit in perfect, rhythmic motions, alternating with soft flicks that have your back arching off the bed. He doesnât get messyâeverything he does is intentional, calculated, and devastatingly effective. His fingers join the party soon enough, sliding inside you with ease, curling up to hit your G-spot with every stroke. Damianâs all about control. If you try to move, he tightens his grip, growling, âStay still. Iâm not done with you yet.â Heâs also vocal in a way thatâs almost mocking. âLook at you. Falling apart for me already.â And when you cum? Damian doesnât stop. He keeps going, overstimulating you until youâre trembling, tears streaming down your face as you beg him to let you breathe. Heâll finally pull back, wiping his mouth with a smug smirk, because he knows no one else can make you feel like that.
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