Bottledandspilt - Bottled And Spilt

Wrong Timing

You asked for love but I got nothing to spare

And you begged for at least a little care

I tried, believe me, I did

I wanted to be what you need

But we're destined to fall apart

I lost my mind, you misplaced your heart

Now, we say our broken goodbyes

Between the two of us, I was the first to cry.

I watch the pebble skips in the water

As my heart flips, flips, flips

The ghost of your touch, my knees waver

And I weep, weep, weep.

I still love you

Maybe it's time to burn those unsent letters

Let my past go through smoke and embers

And the walls you breached should be once again fortified

Regain my dignity, my freedom, my pride

Though I love you and you'll always have a piece of my heart

It is time that I move on, move forward, and restart.

-D.G. Gir// 03/26/2018

Afloat

I'm in a perpetual state of numbness

Forgotten how to feel, how to be

I only have my pen as a witness

Stranded in this strange, bleak sea

I have been alone in this boat for so long

Plugging holes with paper

Coldness seeping to the pages and my bones

My oars swallowed by the water

Maybe I'd let this sink in the deeps below

Release the burdens of sorrow

And I'll be free, unencumbered by tomorrow.

Can't you love me again?

You loved me.

I didn't.

I love you.

You don't.

We keep on missing each other. Can we meet somewhere in the middle someday?

Disillusioned

Looking back, I thought you might have seen the good in me

And you tried to bring it out so I could also see

But that was only a flicker, something that flared your hopes up

And I knew that, so I asked you to stop

I'm broken that time and I couldn't trust anybody

Yet you insisted that it'll not be bad as I thought it would be

And for a bit of time, it seems okay

Until I can no more keep my demons in bay

I turned out to be a monster and you saw it

I punished you for the past I was burden with

I got you confused on with the truths and the lies

Having enough, you flee and bid me goodbye

And still, I wish I hadn't let you see,

That there's still good left in me

Maybe then, you wouldn't keep your hopes up

Saving us the time and pain, if you have stopped.

I want someone to look me in the eyes

To see pass through the lies

You did, you once knew

But you walked away, can't handle the truth

That I'm a monster, a bringer of pain

Something which uses people for my own gain

And I admit I have demons but I don't want to destroy

I might not be like you but I also crave joy

I only want some company, a friend

Someone to hold my hand 'till these storms end

But I guess you only want the one I pretended to be

The normal one with simple personality

You don't want the edges, the imperfections, the flaws

That I'm in pieces, what's real and raw

You never wanted who I really am

I can't blame you, even I can't accept my own name.

-D.G. Gir// 03/31/2018