"The Grief That We Both Know"

💫The Collapse of a Star💫

StevenxReader Rating: G Word Count: 4,904 Tags: Established Relationship, Anxiety, Emotional Hurt/Comfort A gift for the winner of my giveaway - the lovely @box-kun! It was so nice to meet you! Thank you for requesting Steven 💕

“Incoming call from diamond Steven blue heart diamond! Incoming call from diamond Steven blue heart diamond!”

You tore your gaze away from the computer display to wince at your new Rotom PokéNav. The screen flashed neon blue, only irritating your dry, bloodshot eyes further. Perhaps you shouldn’t have opted to stay up until 3am, glued to a glowing monitor. 

Perhaps you shouldn’t have put such an obnoxious name for Steven into your device, either. 

“Incoming call from diamond Steven blue heart diamond!”  

Your Aron squeaked in interest, waddling over from his bed in the corner of your office to peer up at the PokéNav with eyes as blue as the screen. Adoration spilled from his gaze, the same emotion squeezing your heart. Your little baby was so smart, yes he was!  

Reaching down to rub the sleek steel crown of Aron’s head, you praised his ability to recognize such a prominent name in your life, regardless of the speaker. You tossed him an iron screw from the jar of his “treats” on your desk.

“Incoming call from diamond Steven blue heart diamond!”  

“Yeah, yeah. I know,” With a dry chuckle, you accepted the call, turning the volume as loud as possible and triggering the speaker phone button. No one was in the office at this time, anyway. Your voice cracked from lack of use as you spoke, “Hello?” 

“Good morning.”

You could hear Steven yawn through the words. Your heart panged as you thought of him, groggily blinking in the morning sun streaming through the sheer linen curtains over the large window in his temporary room. Far too familiar with the way the light refracted through his irises, turning them to the warmest crystal, you wished you were there to run your fingers through his unruly bedhead.  

“Hey,” Despite your exhaustion, your smile came easy, “How did you sleep?” 

“Mmm,” His voice sounded muffled, and the creak of springs told you he had buried his head in his pillow, “Could’ve slept better.” 

“Yeah? Bad dreams?”  

“Is it a bad dream if you wake up and realize it’s not real?” He was pouting. You could hear it.  

“You’ve lost me.” 

The response was tagged onto a soft sigh. “You were here.” 

You thought your heart was going to break. “Ah.” 

Here. 

Hundreds of miles away. 

In Unova.

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Trainersona bc im lonely ><

i know everyone thinks caleb is a big sub especially with that crazy ass "command me" line. but caleb has always been two-faced and pretends to be a sweet puppy to mc in order to get her to soften up to him. he knows she'll forgive him no matter what:

bringing back this banger! she knows he's manipulating her, and she just folds to him anyways. caleb and mc are so interesting because they're so hurtful to each other all the time. i'm about to talk about the dynamic they have in the chinese text so if you're uncomfortable with that i implore you to not continue after this paragraph.

they were adopted by their abuser and had to learn how to be a family. caleb, in how i interpret the story, probably did most of the work raising mc. they find comfort in playing as "brother" and "sister", but they've never had a healthy understanding of what a functioning family looks like. how i imagine it is, they've created some strange fiction in their mind of this familial bond and convinced themselves that playing as these familial roles is the only way they can stay connected.

they are the only two people who have been abused and experimented on to such an insane extent that they latch onto each other. mc may not remember, but caleb does. holding onto the memories of his helplessness in those critical moments of mc's continuous deaths absolutely made him more possessive and protective of mc.

they need each other to validate their existence. what i mean by this is: if they are the only two people that they know of that have been through such a unique and horrific experience, then they need each other to survive. caleb is desperate to remember everything, the good, the bad, the depravity. he most likely understands his personhood as an extension of mc's, a container for her lost memories.

we have that crazy line in decoherence where he acknowledges they "come from the same source". and to get a little wacky:

infold posted this! caleb literally buying a dna gene ornament. he relinquishes his agency because he quite literally worships mc. whatever she desires is his command. and she accepts his love, i'll be it, in a demanding and somewhat passive way. his love for her is instinctual, she just accepts it habitually. a god and her angel, i suppose.

"from the same source" gives me biblical vibes. she is adam and he is eve. he was created from her, for her. in BOTH lives: in decoherence and in their current reincarnations. he happily indulges her, he eats the apple and carries the sin and in learning of her hesitant (but just as passionate) love that she returns back to him he asks her if she'd carry that sin too (she will!).

to bring it back to the original plot (because i know i lost it a little) caleb is a liar and a fraud and mc is really into that. he's a "sub" because she is his reason for being, but mc will fold to his will every time so really who's subbing.

Caleb would be relentless with this image btw. He sees sad ant with bindle one time in the wild and you can’t go a week without it in your message history. you tell him your mission is gonna run a little late and you’re not going to make it to dinner and its all he replies. still in uniform. in his fancy fucking office. he just finished telling an underling to kill themself.

I reached lvl 70 affinity with zayne which unlocked the secret times "Sanctuary" AND HE HELPS YOU THROUGH YOUR PERIOD. IM NOT OKAY.

THIS MAN IS SO HUSBAND CODED, I CANT HANDLE IT

Me:

And then there's this part, WHISPERING THINGS LIKE THIS IN MY EARS LIKE IM NOT A DELULU DEGENERATE

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posting here bc i rlly love this drawing > <

He knows that I’m thinking about those two gloved fingers

His entire outfit is so fucking good but please

Those two gloved fingers…