Brock08 - Untitled

On the way to see Black Sabbath!!! #me #IAmIronmannnnnnnnn #BlackSabbath #operationdarksunday

We all need this sometimes

That was short lived, but went about as expected, but I had to at least try one last time. Goodbye Father, I wish you had the ability or want to understand just how deeply what you’ve done for my entire life has affected me, but I will no longer dwell in that place, nor will you have access to or claim to my life or success. I will not continue the cycle like you have chosen to. I know that you will never read this, so please don’t mistakenly think that this is for you, it is simply me marking the place where a stone has been laid as I carve out my path in this journey.

Congratulations, you lost me 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼

I miss late night drives through the graveyard, joints with the headstones under the stars,late night pond power sliding with a stop at the waterfall, the little snorts, and forehead kisses. I miss feeling whole, and I miss smiling for no reason at all.

Today would have been three years, and I can’t tell you how much it’s saddens me to say it’s not. I hope you are doing well and that you’ve found the peace you needed. I still care, and I wish you wouldn’t have pushed me so far away. I’ll still always be there if you need a friend. All you have to do is reach out. You’re still never far from my mind. Until the atoms that make up my soul cease to exist.

God I hate myself for not having an outlet or friends that care because I fucked shit up. So I go to the bar because I don’t want to be surrounded by fighting between my housemate and her bf, and I don’t want to go back to drugs. It’s sucks to be off drugs, and trying your hardest to actually grow the fuck up and take care of shit for once only to be seen as what you’ve been in the past. Recovery is one of the hardest fucking things I’ve done, but it’s the best decision I have ever made, and I’m proud of myself for how far I’ve come.

Feel free to add to the playlist, no talking or explanation necessary. I’ve added a couple here and there

"Beauty comes from the inside, it's a willingness to be more than what you are.. to not accept life on life's terms but to forge new boundaries where things are brighter than they were."

That would make you beautiful cause you are always doing that - eUë