Sorry My Blogs A Mess

But I will let go of the sadness, and make myself whole again. Anger has a way of corrupting the way we view not only the world but ourselves as well, learn from the past but don’t let it make you bitter and stain your soul.

Everything just feels kinda hollow without your light in my life….. life goes on, but it won’t ever be the same.

I’d love to hear your voice and see your smile again. You’ve been on my mind a lot these last couple weeks, I found a few of your old notes and doodles as I was sorting through my storage preparing for the move. Even with the time that has passed and everything that has happened, they brought a much needed smile to my face as everything else in my life has seemed to be in an uncontrollable downward spiral. Even if I don’t hear from you, thank you for those moments. They have helped me through some difficult and uncertain times. You are missed more than I know how to express. I hope you see this and this message finds you in good spirits and doing well.

Glad to see you’re doing well, would have loved to talk to you but not the time or place. I’ll respect your wishes, and wait for you to ready to talk if you ever are. I really do still miss you, and hope things with your family and health are going better. I’m still confused and kinda struggling to find my way after everything, but I really do wish nothing but good things for you. I really hope you haven’t lost sight of the beautiful soul you tried so hard to hide, and realize that you do deserve to be loved and cared about. I still think you’re absolutely gorgeous, and I will always be here if you want or need to reach out.

God I miss you, I feel as if I’ve lost a part of myself and I’m not sure I’ll ever find it again. I can’t fix anything at this point because no matter what I do nothing feels right, it’s just empty……I’m so lost

Newish state, new to me car, new job; things were looking up then my dog goes and unsnaps his collar like he’s the next reincarnation of Houdini, runs out in the road and gets hit by a car. All of this happened about 5-10 mins before I got back from work. One week, 4k, and lots of ups and downs but he’s making a decent recovery and will hopefully fully recover.

Feel free to add to the playlist, no talking or explanation necessary. I’ve added a couple here and there

“Don’t ever think that everyone who leaves wants to.”

— Rachel Wolchin