If I Think Too Long About Parker Constantly Poking Eliot's Wounds I Go Insane. Something Something He

stating the obvious here but 35 portland row is so beautiful as a whole.

i mean theres death and misery and reminders of what's lost soaked into the very floorboards, stained carpets and horror stacking up, tragedy you can touch and something you can't look in the eyes waiting with your blood under its nails. but there is also sugar on the table.

there are pictures on the wall and dishes in the sink and beds with extra blankets and laughing you can hear from the stairwell, and i mean you know who it is because you've heard it enough and you know hes throwing his head back because that's how he sounds when he laughs that hard, and I mean sometimes youll still take a blanket from your bed and sit under it with her because it feels even more like home that way. sometimes youll find your clean laundry on your bed and it's still warm.

I mean it is so so so cold outside and its cold inside here too, but ours is a different cold. cold like a hand in yours right before you grab it with your other to bring warmth. it's a gentle kind of thawing when you feel boiling waters steam on your cheeks and it's a gentle kind of thawing when you start to hear the house creaking as a contented sigh, and then you'll sigh too, and i mean theres death and misery and reminders of what's lost soaked into the very floorboards, but when its spring again we'll do spring cleaning together like those happy families on tv. there is sugar on the table for you because someone remembered how you like your tea.

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When thinking about CC3, there’s one thing, in particular, I’m hoping for.

(No, that’s not true, there are many many many things I’m hoping for, but that’s beside the point...)

I'm hoping for the redemption of Danika and her friendship with Bryce. I loved their relationship; friendship but more, love but not romantic or sexual. I want to see more examples of these. That it's possible to have your friend as the most important person in your life.

It guts me whenever I think about how this friendship was undermined by all the secrets Danika kept. So what I'm hoping for is an explanation, something to set this right. No idea how, but just... please...?

oh uh. scuse me. just a lil snail crossing your dash

There’s an underlying bitterness in Percy’s tone in this scene, despite the fact that he’s making a “joke,” that couples with the way he doesn’t look at his mom while he says it but kind of just stares distantly. And also the way his eyebrows go up and down in a quick, wry — and almost judgmental, even — way.

This one singular line hit me so hard as a neurodivergent person because it’s all you need to see the way that Percy feels about his own inability to do “basic” things, like pay attention. He’s making a joke that’s also a dig at himself for “screwing up” in some way and it felt so relatable.

And the fact that it’s basically setting up him the next scene when he tells his mom that he thinks there’s something “broken” in his brain?

It hurt in all the best ways that seeing an accurate representation of yourself in a series that’s been your comfort series since the moment you picked it up 🥲

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The part I appreciate the most in the Lockwood and Co show is how it handles depression and suicidal thoughts in teenagers. As a theme, it’s not often (ever) done well. Lockwood and Co is the only story I can think of that depicts it in a nuanced, realistic, non-romanticized way

but first, before I get into it: [if you’re in crisis or need someone to talk to and don’t want to/can’t use your national hotline, highly recommend Samaritans, genuinely saved my life] okay, let’s go

Lockwood is the most obvious, with his general disregard for his own life and admitted suicidal ideation. Lucy struggles with her self-worth and the intensity of the emotions she’s subjected to. George worries that he doesn’t belong, that there’s something useless or wrong about him. The show depicts these thoughts and feelings in a way that isn’t overblown or dramatized, it’s all but casual. Which is how it happens. Depression or suicidal thoughts don’t crash into you all at once, they creep into your life without you noticing

But more importantly (and again, something I’ve never seen anywhere else), the show also offers counterpoints to those thoughts and feelings. It shows that there is a way out, even though you may feel trapped and hopeless. This is crucial for the show’s target demographic. Bad media depictions of depression or suicide get internalized, contribute to the stigma, and make it harder for people to ask for help. This show doesn’t do that. This show tells its audience that, yes, things are scary and painful and it fucking sucks, but it’s not hopeless. And it says it so well

In the second episode, when Lucy wants to quit, she admits something that I’m almost certain she’s never told anyone

“sometimes I just think I’d be better off dead”

And when I watched this the first time, I expected Lockwood to react the way I’ve seen people react in my own life; with silence or panic or downright dismissal. But he didn’t. He stays calm and he says something that is so so important to hear when you’re struggling under the weight of feelings like this

“I understand that”

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I love it on Leverage that Eliot is so gruff and grumpy all the time and you think he's so serious about his job but then occassionally he makes a joke or a quip after punching someone out and he grins to himself and gives a little chuckle and then you're like oh, ohhhhhh okay i get it now, he is enjoying himself. This is fun for him. And in that moment he becomes both a bit more normal and a bit more fucked up at the same time. My guy, Eliot Spencer.

The Rundown Job was really the OT3 episode, uh?

I knew they worked well together, that's been obvious for a while. But in an episode of just them, it really hits how in sinc they are.

Hardison and Eliot doing their little handshake after watching Parker do her acrobat thing through a lazer grid.

Eliot's first concern being to get Hardison and Parker to safety. Them refusing to let Eliot go up against a terrorist attack. Parker's line about how they change together, for better or worse.

Eliot not being scared of the terrorists attack because he has Hardison and Parker on his side and he believes in them more than anything.

Also when Eliot put his hand on the back of Hardison's neck and looked into his eyes? That was so intimate. The tension was serious with undertones of sexual. It had the same tension as Parker diffusing the bomb.

The silent communication. The celebrating each other's victories.

Eliot throwing down the crutch in favor of leaning on his partners.

I'm sure other stuff I missed, it being only my first watch through and all. But that's the stuff that stood out the most to me.