What Coming Out As Aroace Feels Like

All that I know about me is that I exist. To me I've always existed and the fact one day I won't exist anymore terrifies me.

Everything indicates I'll have to outgrow her, but I don't want to.

I don't like using Goodreads because the site layout is very unpleasant to me, so I'll do it here.

I stumbled with this book while scrolling through Pinterest and I decided to read because I needed a book to get me into reading again. It didn't really help me with my reading but I was able to finish it in three days.

The story is about a girl that has a relationship with an older woman and this relationship has a big impact in her life. Like a really HUGE attachment. And I loved it, really.

Everything about the MC screamed "me" and I love when I can see myself in characters. And sometimes I see myself in both characters (there's this parallel about them).

Anyway, I found it very intriguing.

Please if you're seeing this, recommend a book to me, I'm dying to read new books but none intrigues me 🥲

I guess my roman empire is my longest friendship.

Every day I think about us, every time I look at something funny I want to show it to my best friend. We met when we were 10 and she was my first friend ever, we grew up together at the same school till I were 15 and left to do high school in another state.

In those years we were together we've been in several friend groups that with time got separated, but we always stayed together. The problem was that even though we had each other, we would always be looking for a new friend because it seemed we weren't enough for each other, or better, I felt like I wasn't enough for her.

She has always been my best friend but I'm afraid I never have been her best friend, I was just there, I was her friend like every other person was.

After leaving for high school I came back to do college in the same city as her and we're different. Something feels off, she has another friend and I have other friends as well. Maybe I'm selfish but even though I have new friends she will always be my number one but for her I'm just like everyone. I'm not special and I know that she's not obligated to have me as her favorite person just because she's mine, but I guess I want to be loved the same way I love her.

She never starts a conversation, now we have a trio and she only does stuff if there's all of us. We (me and her) alone don't exist anymore.

I hate feeling like this.

Every Nico Di Angelo fan focusing more on the background of the episode than the actual plot

It's always "aros can still date!" "aros can still be in (any type of non-romantic or romantic) relationships!" "aros aren't heartless!" "aros can still love in different ways!"

Well, sure, you do you.

But not all of us. A lot of us are *completely* non-partnering. There's loveless aros. Aplatonic aros. Hell, even heartless is a label some aros use!

We don’t need to do anything to "replace" the romantic relationships we don’t have. People can be completely happy alone! Without a partner! (Shocking, I know!)

I'm just a bit tired of all the amatonormativity I still see under some of the trending aro-positivity posts...

Don’t go wasting your emotion Lay all your love on me

aro culture is wishing someone would prioritize you in the way romantic partners are prioritized

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Tell me if you think I'm boring or if you just take me for granted

I tattooed the color of your lips on mine because your kiss wasn't available