Try Seeing Through A Teary Face.. Too Blurred.

AMEN.

I’m wishing new homes and apartments on everyone that sees this post!!! It’s already yours!! CLAIM IT 🧿🧿🧿

“Wait, these are actually hella cute questions.”

— 1. Who was the last person you held hands with? 2. Are you outgoing or shy? 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? 4. Are you easy to get along with? 5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? 6. What kind of people are you attracted to? 7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? 8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? 9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? 10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? 11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? 12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? 15. What good thing happened this summer? 16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? 17. Do you think there is life on other planets? 18. Do you still talk to your first crush? 19. Do you like bubble baths? 20. Do you like your neighbors? 21. What are you bad habits? 22. Where would you like to travel? 23. Do you have trust issues? 24. Favorite part of your daily routine? 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? 26. What do you do when you wake up? 27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? 28. Who are you most comfortable around? 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? 30. Do you ever want to get married? 31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? 32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? 33. Spell your name with your chin. 34. Do you play sports? What sports? 35. Would you rather live without TV or music? 36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? 37. What do you say during awkward silences? 38. Describe your dream girl/guy? 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? 40. What do you want to do after high school? 41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? 42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? 43. Do you smile at strangers? 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? 45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? 46. What are you paranoid about? 47. Have you ever been high? 48. Have you ever been drunk? 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? 50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? 51. Ever wished you were someone else? 52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? 53. Favourite makeup brand? 54. Favourite store? 55. Favourite blog? 56. Favourite colour? 57. Favourite food? 58. Last thing you ate? 59. First thing you ate this morning? 60. Ever won a competition? For what? 61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? 62. Been arrested? For what? 63. Ever been in love? 64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? 65. Are you hungry right now? 66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? 67. Facebook or Twitter? 68. Twitter or Tumblr? 69. Are you watching tv right now? 70. Names of your bestfriends? 71. Craving something? What? 72. What colour are your towels? 72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? 74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? 75. Favourite animal? 76. What colour is your underwear? 77. Chocolate or Vanilla? 78. Favourite ice cream flavour? 79. What colour shirt are you wearing? 80. What colour pants? 81. Favourite tv show? 82. Favourite movie? 83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? 84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? 86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? 87. First person you talked to today? 88. Last person you talked to today? 89. Name a person you hate? 90. Name a person you love? 91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? 92. In a fight with someone? 93. How many sweatpants do you have? 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? 95. Last movie you watched? 96. Favourite actress? 97. Favourite actor? 98. Do you tan a lot? 99. Have any pets? 100. How are you feeling? 101. Do you type fast? 102. Do you regret anything from your past? 103. Can you spell well? 104. Do you miss anyone from your past? 105. Ever been to a bonfire party? 106. Ever broken someone’s heart? 107. Have you ever been on a horse? 108. What should you be doing? 109. Is something irritating you right now? 110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? 111. Do you have trust issues? 112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? 113. What was your childhood nickname? 114. Have you ever been out of your province/state? 115. Do you play the Wii? 116. Are you listening to music right now? 117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? 118. Do you like Chinese food? 119. Favourite book? 120. Are you afraid of the dark? 121. Are you mean? 122. Is cheating ever okay? 123. Can you keep white shoes clean? 124. Do you believe in love at first sight? 125. Do you believe in true love? 126. Are you currently bored? 127. What makes you happy? 128. Would you change your name? 129. What your zodiac sign? 130. Do you like subway? 131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 133. Favourite lyrics right now? 134. Can you count to one million? 135. Dumbest lie you ever told? 136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? 137. How tall are you? 138. Curly or Straight hair? 139. Brunette or Blonde? 140. Summer or Winter? 141. Night or Day? 142. Favourite month? 143. Are you a vegetarian? 144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? 145. Tea or Coffee? 146. Was today a good day? 147. Mars or Snickers? 148. What’s your favourite quote? 149. Do you believe in ghosts? 150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page?  (via itsgracesdrunkmametown)

things to let go of:

embarrassing moments in the past. things you should have phrased differently. people you wish you still knew. those tiny mistakes that keep you up at night - we are all made up of them. all we can do is move forward.

jealousy of others for already having the success you’re striving towards. as a writing tutor once said, “don’t piss on other people’s chips. because one day when you’re eating chips, you really won’t want them to have piss on.”

the phrase “i’ll be happy when ….” you won’t. the thing you think you’re after won’t satisfy you the way you expect. learn to stop striving and start appreciating.

the feeling that every minute not spent doing the creative activity you love (writing knitting art jogging journalling reading), or every minute not crammed with a form of media or entertainment (music tv youtube audiobook podcast), is “unproductive” or a waste. sometimes u can just sit and listen and experience what the world has given you in that moment.

the idea that someone has an intrinsically better life because they have the clothes or body or holiday or house or partner you crave.

the guilt of not being there for everyone all the time. it’s only our phones that have made us feel we have a duty to be 24/7 in touch. it’s ok to take breaks.

the need to photograph every meal or coffee cup or sunset or outing with friends. not because there’s anything wrong with keeping a record but because the pressure to get the “right” and “perfect” shot decreases the joy of living and experiencing the thing itself.

the phrase “i need to stop eating [insert essential food group here]”.

Dear Jesus, Please take this Wheel....

To being Woman.

I think about women a lot and the pain they share. I think about my mother's nights taking care of her sister, taking care of her mother's pain. I think about her cries when she miscarried the first time and how fifteen years later she still cries in the bathroom and barricades herself in a room when my father shouts.

think about my grandmother working in a factory fixing stockings for other women in the dark, talking to other tired women outside on the street. I think about her raising children and providing for the family, spending most of her life in the kitchen between pots and pans, riddled with cuts and burns and child bearing. I think about her abortion because she couldn't feed another mouth, because she was already starving.

I think about my great grandmother providing for a family with no husband around, carrying guilt, feeding the chicken, working two jobs, sleeping in a cold house with no lights on.

I think about the women I know who have blood on their thighs, from periods, from childbirth, from rape, from sex with violent men who don't care about them.

i think about the women in bathtubs filled with boiling water, drinking whiskey, using their own knitting needles and coat hangers and throwing themselves down the stairs.

I think about the women who get home and clean the house, wash the same dishes everyday, clean the same house everyday, raising the same children, crying secretly in their bathroom.

I think about the blonde woman on the street corner who I've seen being there for eight years now, waiting for violent men with violent fantasies, waiting for the next beating, the next police fine, the next chance to eat.

I think about a classmate who dropped out from sixth grade to go to Austria, to follow her mother, who went cried in the bathroom stall next to me, because she knew what is going to happen with her.

I think about the pain that women share, the pain they can't articulate, the pain that boils in them for all their lives, becuase it's never appropriate to let it out. wailing women at funerals burying what they made, wailing girls in bathrooms, wailing women alone in their houses.

their blood staining underwears, kitchen knives, bedsheets, thrown away condoms, being consumed from the inside out, because women's pain is natural, because there is greater pain out there, because only little girls cry, never adult women.

VIVA!

May your bookshelves be full and your tea always warm.

This is VERY relatable.

advice for giving my life to god and let him take over? I’ve been so worried about rejection and anxiety about making friends and just been happy in life. I’ve been obsessing over it,and I need to let it go and give it to him. Any advice and favorite bible verses?🤍

Tips on How To Give Your Life To God:

- Pray 3 times a day: morning, afternoon, and night (it is not going to be easy and you are going to get lazy, but that is what is expected of you because you are only human, but you MUST gain power over your flesh) this is your communication with God prioritize it because he hears you and knows his son/daughters desires 

 - Read your Bible: find out what the bible says for itself (not from a sermon, devotional, friends, family, society) the bible is actually very interesting, and again the Word of God is healing and transformative. He has made the impossible possible multiple times because I was using his word. Psalm is pretty easy to read so you can start out with reading one chapter from Psalm every day.

- Clean your environment: take a break from the movies, tv shows, books, and yes music that contains negative things in them. These things consume your mind and distract you, and they might be the reason why you are thinking about rejection and anxiety when it comes to making friends. Give it a break and when YOU ARE READY (if God gives you that conviction) take it out of your life.

- Worship Sessions: Find Christian music that you like! If you don’t know the words, look it up, and just shout the lyrics as loud as possible! Have fun, dance, and cry. Worshiping is so powerful and I always feel a connection with Jesus when I worship. It is so intimate. (I like to do this in my room alone lol I do not like people watching me, but I also worship hard in church too, but I really go all out in my room)

- Fasting: DO NOT fast if you are not spiritually ready. When I was younger I tried to fast when I was not ready and it was the worst thing ever for me. You have to be intentional! You do not have to do a food fast completely, fasting is just taking something away that you know your flesh loves and cannot live without, because by doing so, you are showing Jesus he is the only one that you need to live, and you can live on the Word of God! (I do a social media, tv, music, and tv fast to cleanse my mind) You can do a 5 hr fast, 6am-6pm, water fast, a full day, a week, whatever you feel comfortable with but just take baby steps. but GIIIIRRRL fasts are the biggest ways to grow closer to God and get big prayers answered (if it is His will for you), you feel untouchable coming out of a fast.

*Again these things will feel weird first starting out, its like eating vegetables, it feels weird, but its good for you plus growing closer to God is beyond being just good for you, its life-changing-- YOU ARE about to be on the winning team*

Fav. Verse when I am feeling tired, scared, discouraged: 

28 Do you not know?    Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God,    the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary,    and his understanding no one can fathom. 29 He gives strength to the weary    and increases the power of the weak. 30 Even youths grow tired and weary,    and young men stumble and fall; 31 but those who hope in the Lord    will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles;    they will run and not grow weary,    they will walk and not be faint.

(Isaiah 40: 28-31)

WHATEVER HAPPENED TO BEAUTY FROM WITHIN? #blackisbeautiful #blackisgenius#black_is_twice_as_good