Its Messy, But I Couldn't Get The Thought Out Of My Head

Its messy, but I couldn't get the thought out of my head

This is based off of @spudinacup 's AU Gone Wrong. I headcanon that Pink Steven is Steven's logical half, helping his human half complete the 'missions' he chooses (heal the cracked gem, fuse with connie, shield his family, etc). But he doesn't have the need to analyze his own emotions. Human Steven gives Pink Steven meaning, the ability to process the feelings they share, and not only understand them, but experience them in a way he can only dream of doing while he's incomplete. Steven really does love himself, and when he can just exist as as a whole, everything makes sense. When he's incomplete, he can't even mourn himself properly.

Pink Steven, on his own, might be seen as the previous definition of a 'perfect' gem. He doesn't acknowledge or take note of how he feels, only what he needs to do. What weapons and powers he needs to activate. Who's in danger. What's his priority. For Pink Steven, it had always come from Steven, his whole. He doesn't know what that purpose is now. He doesn't understand his sudden lack of empathy, or his inability to "grow and change," as Rose had put it. He knows he isnt organic anymore, but he still asks himself that question, vaguely remembering the real meaning behind it. He's incomplete, going through the motions -play with the cat, sit with the people- and he doesn't know why everything's so different now that he's lost his body. He's only aware of what he's missing, what he needs, and what he can't get back. But he doesn't know how it worked in the first place. He doesn't know what he's supposed to do now that he's gone. He doesn't know what he is if he's not Steven. He doesn't know why he acts the way he does when he's alone. He can't tell why he quit smiling (he tried once, memorizing the movement during a particularly quiet day. Nothing changed. He isnt sure why he tried it in the first place.) He doesn't know why everything seems so stiff, so quiet, or why he found it bothered him so much. (He reminds himself that it can't. That it shouldn't.) He doesn't know if he misses music with his dad. He doesn't know why he sits and waits in front of the warp pad. Whenever the gems come home, staring at him with something he can't comprehend, he doesn't know what he'd been expecting either. Why he thinks they're.. 'underperforming.' When they leave, wordlessly, he certainly doesn't know why he's crying.

if aizawa erased nedzu’s quirk...?

it’s an mutant quirk as far as i’m aware, but aizawa is apparently able to at least ‘partially’ erase mutant quirks (eg. paralyse a mutated extra limb or something)

if he could erase high specs: would nedzu retain his knowledge and just be unable to communicate it? mouse brains aren’t built for that much intelligence - so what if he isn’t able to hold it all without his quirk being active?

so let’s say one time, aizawa uses his quirk on nedzu by accident for like 5 seconds. nedzu lost a lot of his memory - not about practical things like his job or his history, just obscure facts he used to know, calculations that he used to have in the back of his head. so ever since nedzu has referred to ‘that one time aizawa used his quirk on him’ with the same attitude as scholars talk about the burning of the library of alexandria - if he still had that lost knowledge, he could’ve gotten humans to mars by now! aizawa just rolls his eyes every time it comes up.

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cherokeeboo

6 years ago

When people say “you’re going to regret that in the morning”, I sleep in ‘till noon because I am a problem solver.

Tony

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cherokeeboo

6 years ago

the catalyst for the qpp realization

@pitviperofdoom

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cherokeeboo

2 months ago

One of my favourite brain rotting tcf ideas is Cale having some tremor disorder. Basically, he has hands that randomly tremble without any reason.

It may be genetic to him, or he developed it as Cale because of not eating his meals properly and inevitably developing some vitamin deficiency.

Now comes the best part.

Imagine Cale, perhaps in some really gruesome battle, with blood of enemies and allies mixed around him. Imagine his family seeing Cale's stoic face, wondering how a person so young can be so brave, and then they see his hands shaking under his raven coat, even as they're curled tightly into a fist.

Imagine Cale looking at Jour's portrait, admiring her beauty and her alike face with his own. But then his family sees him, his gaze fixated on his mother's image and his hands trembling slightly.

Imagine him, standing at the forefront of some battle with his shields raised, with his hands trembling uncontrollably, even though he is not straining himself. The people protected under him can only tear up at his selflessness.

Imagine Cale after attacking the enemies with a wave of firebolts, but his hands again started shaking badly, even if he has them covered under his sleeves. His family misunderstands that as Cale hiding his pain.

Imagine Cale, resting on a couch after some battle, and when Raon, On and Hong excitedly climb upon his lap, he only smiles slightly and pats them with his trembling hands. The kids then worriedly inform Ron of this and Cale recieves sweet lemon tea for a whole week.

Imagine Cale talking about territory matters with Alberu, and Alberu is once again amazed by his dongsaeng's witty and almost experienced approaches to problems like war. But then he sees Cale's hands shaking while holding the tea cup, and he realises how absolutely not normal it is to not be nervous in such a situation. (Alberu later pledges to himself to give Cale the slacker life he always wished for.)

Just imagine Cale in any situation with trembling hands and it literally creates the most hilarious misunderstandings with some really wonderful angst.

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cherokeeboo

6 years ago