Chr0nically - 🤍🩵

when rest and "lazy days" stop being optional, you eventually stop enjoying it. i don't even know how to relax anymore. there's barely any relaxation in rest for me, it's all forced by a sick body.

Harry performing As it Was live at the 2023 BRITs - 02.11.2023

pleasing: Harry Styles wears Perfect Pearl from Pleasing at the 65th Annual GRAMMY Awards, February 2023.

favorite platonic relationships: jake peralta and rosa diaz “Wait, what? You don´t actually think that we won´t be friends anymore if the precinct gets shut down? Rosa, we will never not be friends”

Anyway, able bodied people need to stop blaming people’s chronic pain on their diets.

Like no mom, my hips aren’t in excruciating pain because I ate a couple cookies last night.

Living with a chronic illness be like:

"I feel like I'm going to die"

5 minutes later...

"Ok, let's see what movie I should watch"

Me: *wakes up from nap* hey body do you feel rested :D

Body: all our bones are frozen. Your muscles have withered. Your hands are numb. You have heartburn, and you're sweating.

Me: Body what the actual fuck.

the man who owns and runs the thai restaurant in my town knows me by name. he is one of the kindest and most thoughtful men i know. i started ordering from his place back in january, which was when i got my fibromyalgia diagnosis. back then i was using a walker, had limited mobility in my entire body but especially my hands, and was very visibly in pain. i always ordered the same thing: yellow curry with no meat, potatoes and carrots only (i have texture and other dietary issues). he always made it a point to make sure i could get out the door and carry the food safely. he had his workers package the food so that it was easier for me to open. as i kept coming back and i told him a little bit about my health status, he would always encourage me to keep going. he told me about how the spices he used were good for inflammation and began to edit the recipe just for me so that spices that were even better for fighting inflammation were used. he’d give me extra portions and despite the fact that i would tip every time, i realized later that he never charged my card for them. as time went on and my condition began to get better, especially with the help of a physical therapist, he would make encouraging remarks and tell me how happy he was for me. the day i came in without my walker, he practically jumped for joy, and despite my insistence, he gave me my meal for free that day. i continue to make progress with my conditions and i continue to go to the thai place. this man who does not know me personally and who i hardly know anything about is one of my favorite people. it’s interactions with humans like these that make loving life easier. and his curry really does help my chronic condition. it’s comfort food taken to the next level.