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City Elf Appreciation Week

A fan event to show your love and appreciation for all things City Elf. Beginning the first Monday of August.

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cityelfweek
9 months ago

And that's a wrap!

And That's A Wrap!

Thank you so much to everyone who participated and followed along! I've had a blast seeing all your amazing works and unearthing some oldies too. I really appreciate it!

If you create something for City Elf Appreciation Week a little late - tag this blog anyway! I'll check back every so often :)

And I'm always up for some more city elf appreciation, come chat with me at @breninarthur any time <3

See you again!


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Inspired By This Meme By Sweepswoop_ On Twitter

inspired by this meme by sweepswoop_ on twitter


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Dragon Age: Origins - Epilogue Drawings
Dragon Age: Origins - Epilogue Drawings
OFFSCREEN SPEAKER: But how did you sur-

ALISTAIR: The Maker!! Works in mysterious ways! 

WARDEN: [nod nod]

ALISTAIR: Who are we to question his will!
Dragon Age: Origins - Epilogue Drawings
ALISTAIR: That's the Bann... they say he used to.... WARDEN: (nod nod)
Dragon Age: Origins - Epilogue Drawings
WARDEN: This is new.

ALISTAIR: Ah, I didn't get a chance to shave.

WARDEN: I like it.

ALISTAIR: Do you?
WARDEN: Mhm. It's cute.

ALISTAIR: Is it?
ALISTAIR: Well, it's also very itchy.

Dragon Age: Origins - epilogue drawings


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Started Replaying The Dragon Age Series In Preparation For Veilguard And I Cannot Not Draw Tarot Cards

Started replaying the dragon age series in preparation for Veilguard and I cannot not draw tarot cards of all my player characters… lil wip of my warden’s card here🙂‍↕️


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Inquisitor “Ghilin’da” Lavellan
Inquisitor “Ghilin’da” Lavellan

Inquisitor “Ghilin’da” Lavellan

The “lucky little rabbit” who escaped Fen’Harel’s trap.

Finally started playing Dragon Age: Inquisition—I’m only 10 years late! I'm not done with the game yet but I'm getting there, and piecing together Lavellan's name and story as I go along. More below the cut.

As it stands, I got her name from the elvhen words ghilanas (to guide; create luck), oin (rabbit), and da (little). Ghilin'da, or Ghil'da, for short. Prior to the Conclave, she lived as a city elf and owned the human slur for elves: "rabbit". She rarely went by any another name until the Conclave.

Once she became Inquisitor, the nickname would have fallen away if not for Solas's use of it. Solas latched onto the name and called her Ghilin'da, claiming that she was lucky for surviving the Anchor.

When Solas's identity is revealed, the name is forever marked in elvhen folklore, and Inquisitor Lavellan becomes Ghilin'da, the foil to Fen'harel.

In the years that follow, elves wait with bated breath for the ending to the tale of the Lucky Rabbit and the Dread Wolf.


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Death • Rebirth

death • rebirth


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9 months ago
I REALLY LOVE ROMANCE WITH ALISTAIR

I REALLY LOVE ROMANCE WITH ALISTAIR


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9 months ago
cityelfweek - City Elf Appreciation Week

Leliana found her.


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9 months ago
Wake Up Babe, New Zev Art Just Dropped

Wake up babe, new Zev art just dropped


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cityelfweek
9 months ago

Day 7: Free Day

Decided to spend the @cityelfweek free day sketching an idea I had forever ago. For context, this is about a year before Inquisition, juuust before the mage rebellion.

They all smell the smoke before they see it— an unassuming plume that rises from Jenna’s window, belying the danger within. Cries ring out through the Alienages, followed by orders, and soon a line forms through the streets and to the banks of the river. Buckets with water spilling out the sides lead a trail to the danger. The faces of their young are wet with a sheen of sweat and fierce with determination, knowing that if help will come at all, it will come too late.

The fire burns around the water heaped upon it, gathering smoke and rising higher within the walls of Jenna’s home. The work continues, quenching a patch of flame before another can alight. It eats at the roof, thatched straw collapsing to the horrified screams of onlookers.

Then, all at once, it is a memory.

Panicked cries turn to confusion, questions ringing out as harsh as commands while Jenna braves the ashes to salvage what she can of the ruins of her life.

Some swear their last bucketful of water had been the one to quench the flames. Others know what they had seen: it had not simply been put out, it had been suffocated. Erased. Only smoke remains, rising harmless into the midday sky.

It does not take long for rumours of magic to rampage through the Alienage, cooler than the fire, but no less deadly. In the commotion, no one sees the stranger slip from their midst.

No one but Nessa, at least.

She’s lived in the Amaranthine Alienage her whole life, and there are few places in it someone can hide from her like. She catches him in an alley, the smell of a storm clings to his tattered clothes despite the bright summer’s day blazing overhead. It had been decades since she’s last breathed that scent, but she’ll never forget how it raises the hairs in your nostrils. The stranger tenses at her approach, but tellingly doesn’t reach for a weapon.

At least, none wielded by traditional means.

“I have no coin,” he tells her in a weary voice, “and little else to my name but the clothes on my back.”

“I’d say you have more than that, ser. A gift I hear only the Maker can give you.” He flinches, ducking his head so his hood hides his face. She steps forward with her hands cupped around her elbows. “You stopped the fire, didn’t you?”

“I don’t want to hurt you.” 

There it is again, she thinks: the sky, come to touch their little corner of the world.

“Neither do I, but I know some who would.” She smiles, despite the bitter taste that lies on her tongue just from speaking their memory. “You won’t be safe out here tonight, and I have a roof. Supper, too.”

The stranger regards her from a distance, as though trying to pry the truth from her words with a glance. Not an unfamiliar look. Those she’s helped before had been just as slow to trust. There are no words in the King’s tongue silver enough to undo that damage.

“You’ve been bit before. I understand, but we’re just two people, my husband and I. Out here, you put yourself in the whole city’s hand.” Nessa moves down the alley. One hand reaches out in welcome. “So come with me.”

Day 7: Free Day

The trip back home is less peaceful than usual. They take the back ways, skirting windows and doors before coming to Nessa’s. If she hadn’t lived her whole life, it’d be an easy place to miss. Little adorns the entrance save a potted plant and an awning painted faded yellow. “Here we are,” she says in a sing-song tone, like she were welcoming in any old neighbour.

She ushers him in first, the slide of the lock the sole indication that not all is as it seems.

Inside, the aroma of dinner rises first to meet them. Rosemary and onion overwhelm the senses, drowning out the dust and the dirt. “Looks like it’s pottage for tea,” she remarks. Looking to the stranger, she can’t help but smile at how stiffly he stands. “Well, go on then, make yourself at home. I’ll get you a little something to drink.”

“Bring home another stray?” her husband asks. He’s hunched over the pot like an old witch at her cauldron, flyaway grey hairs waving as if they had little minds of their own. They deflate when he looks over and sees who she came home with, cheeks fattening with a little puff of air as he tuts, “Oh, Nessa. We’ve talked about this!”

“What was I supposed to do, Tal? Edith’s probably got the Templars looking for him already.” It’s an argument that’s played out half a dozen times over the last half a decade. She can’t rightly say who had won the last one, though from the sigh that comes from the kitchen, she’ll say she can count this one hers. “Half the quarter’d be up in flames if it weren’t for him.”

Her tone softens for the stranger, rounding on him with a pleasant, “how do you take your tea?”

“Water would be preferable, please,”  he answers without a moment’s consideration.

“Coming right up, love.” Stepping into their little corner of a kitchen, she adds to her husband: “See? This one’s got manners, to boot!”

Tal’s response is reduced to a disgruntled huff, attention fixed upon the simmering pot. Like he’s watching the Queen’s dinner cook. Nessa grabs a mug from a peg and tilts it into the clean water, returning to find the stranger had taken her advice. Despite how he hunches in his seat, there is a proud set to his shoulders. His hood drapes around them, revealing a clean shaven head and a severe jaw. A man of some years, but still young to her old eyes.

“Sorry about Tal,” she says as she slides into the seat across from him. “He doesn’t mind, really, he has to protest only so he can be right if something ever goes wrong.”

“His concern is not unwarranted. They will not look kindly upon your aid, should they find me.” He palms the cup, a layer of frost forming under his fingertips.

“We’ve had some close calls, but we’ve managed alright in the end.”

“You’ve done this before?”

“Once or twice. More since the Mages’ Collective have caught wind of my sympathies.”

“Dangerous sympathies.” Ice begins to form in a thin film upon the water’s surface, moved by currents invisible to the eye. He drinks deep from the cup, voice lighter in the wake of it. “It is a wonder you would trouble yourself at all.”

Nessa smiles, a little pained. “I could say the same of you.”

“Perhaps I speak from a place of regret.” He’s looking at her again, like he’s trying to read a book. A stubborn line creases his brow, and she suspects he’s come away wanting.

“Well, it’s a shame if you do, though I can’t say I’d blame you either way.” Her fingers find the familiar grooves in the table’s surface, and work into them, thumb stroking the seam of the wood like an old cat. Pockmarks dot the table where a little hand had driven the prongs of a fork into the surface. Tal had always meant to fix them, but he couldn’t bring himself to anymore than she could bring herself to throw out the old toys gathering dust in the closet.

She supposes he’d be about the stranger’s age, now. Taller than her, with his father’s dark hair. If it hasn’t already started to go white.

Her hand fists on the table. A sigh carves through her chest.

“It’s the way the world is. Nothing the likes of us can do to change it, eh?”

“I would not discount your courage,” he says. “The world may yet change in our lifetimes.”

“A young man’s hope,” Nessa laughs, “but I’ll pray for it the same.”


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Local Elf Twice Divorced Despite Having Never Married Everybody Point And Laugh

local elf twice divorced despite having never married everybody point and laugh


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9 months ago

@cityelfweek has been going on all week. Seeing the new and old works on my dash has been absolutely fantastic!

I didn't think I would have time to participate, but all the love for city elves got me excited, so I whipped up a quick story with my OC Loran from his childhood in the Starkhaven alienage.

This story does include fishing and a brief mention of animal death.

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When he finally came home out of the rain, knees muddy and hands scraped, Loran went to hide with the only quiet person in the room. His grandmother had spent the storm next to the stove, swaddled under their best blankets. She’d grown so old that she looked young again; she resembled her newest grandchild, born only a fortnight ago, more than she did any of her black-haired daughters. Still, she smiled when Loran kissed her waxy cheek, and her bony grip was strong when she took his hand.

"Oi, Fish Fingers."

Caught, Loran met his brother’s bright eyes. He hated the nickname even though Ru always sung it out like a compliment. 

"We're going to the river tonight," Ru told him then went back to poking the cook pot. “Eels are out.”

Only Talea, looking up from the table where she was rolling biscuits, found room to argue with Ru. With long brown curls and an upturned nose that was now dotted with flour, she was called one of the prettiest girls in Starkhaven before she married Ru. He’d heard his brother call her beautiful every day since their wedding, but Loran always thought her face was too small. Whenever she looked at him, her eyes and mouth shrank tighter.

“Can’t you wait til morn?” she asked, voice pinched. “They’re so slimy.”

"Nay, this storm will have them all riled up.” Ru spoke with an easy confidence that matched his broad shoulders. Any elf could nail two boards together, but if an elf in Starkhaven wanted their home to be standing for their grandchildren, they put the work in Ru’s hands.

Loran watched his brother reach out and wipe the flour from Talina’s nose. Ru went on.

"The guard took all the traps up, broke 'em to bits, and said no more nets either. It's the blasted slow poles now. But Fish Fingers will pick them out of the water - won't you?"

He mimed a fast pinching motion and grinned at Loran. 

Sometimes, when Ru smiled, Loran wondered if he looked like their father. His cheeks were marked by the pox that had taken their mother and a sister, but there was plain handsomeness to his face; no one had doubted Talea’s decision to marry him. Her family was happy with the match too. With his good sense and unbroken promises, many understood that Ru was building a reputation worthy of a Haren.

Loran could imagine his brother among the Elders. When they first came to ask Ru favors, he had served them weak tea, and Loran was allowed to linger if he sipped his cup in silence. These days, when the Elders came through the door without knocking, Ru brought out a bottle and sent him away.

"I don't want to go for eels," he spoke up.

Ru’s look of disappointment, Loran knew, came from their mother. “I’ve got these lines all mended, food in eight bellies, roofs patched all the way up the hill – what’ve your fast fingers been helping me with lately?”

“I helped fix Karsi’s place.” Loran slowly began to work his hand from his grandmother’s grip. With her deaf ears, she’d already dozed off.

“That take all day?” Ru raised his brow, and Loran knew his brother was calling him a liar. “Go fetch bait.”

Loran answered with sullen silence, looking at the hot, half-made supper that would be cold by the time he returned.

“Now.”

-

After night had set in, the brothers put baskets on their backs and set off down streets swollen with water and filth. The storm had sent all of Starkhaven’s dirt spilling onto the doorsteps of the alienage. Come morning, when the sun broke through the gray clouds, the smell would be worse than the bag of chum in Loran’s hand. He kept his other hand on the knife tucked into his belt. Ru, carrying their old poles tucked under his arm, moved through the mess unbothered. Loran was careful to step in his footprints.

Not many people knew the old path they took to the river. Ru said their father had shown him the way; he kept some secrets for family. Tonight the narrow trail was slick, with the cool mud coating Loran’s toes, and he slid to his knees twice before they reached the bank. They didn’t stop until they were knee-deep in the wide, flat water.

Ru moved upstream in the shallows, but never so far that Loran couldn’t catch the glow of his eyes. He was right that they venture out tonight; the eels were quick to bite, and the brothers dragged their long, whipping bodies from the stillness of the river. After a short move with their knives, the wriggling struggles of the fish ended. Even in the dark, Loran could see that after each eel Ru put in his basket, his brother made the sign of thanks across his forehead like their mother had taught them. Loran tried to copy him until his hands became thick with eel slime.

When Loran’s basket was beginning to grow heavy, Ru waded over to him.

"Your fingers aren't feeling fishy, eh?"

"I've caught more than you." Loran mumbled, trying to thread fresh chunk onto his hook.

Ru peered into his brother’s basket. "All the wee ones, looks like."

When Loran only scowled in reply, Ru stretched his arms tall.

"You used to catch the big ones - bigger than you! With your hands." 

Loran cast his line with a sharp flick of his wrist. "I'm not a kid anymore."

"Okay, okay, if you don't think you can do it.” Ru pressed his palms together in a show of exaggerated sympathy. “It's a shame you got slow in your old age." 

“I’m not slow,” Loran snapped, although he knew his brother’s game. "I can do it. It's not hard."

"If you say so."

Loran shoved his pole into Ru’s hand with a glare, grabbed a handful of bait from the bag, then knelt down in the river. He reached his arms out in the black water. Even though Ru kept his smile, he seemed to understand the seriousness of Loran taking his challenge, and he stayed still. They waited.

After a time, when all he felt against his hands was the black push of the river, Loran began to worry. He worried no eel would come. Or if one finally came, with Ru’s eyes on him, he would miss it. The cold river ran faster around his neck. Ru believed he could catch one; what if he was wrong?

Then he felt a sliver flash over the back of his left hand. He held his breath. When it came again, he struck. He pulled the eel out of the water and it began to thrash, but it was too late. Loran had his grandmother’s grip.

Ru whooped. “Gods! You’ve caught a water dragon.”

Loran giggled as he juggled the slimy beast. The eel wasn’t the largest catch that night, he knew, but when Ru grabbed his shoulders and laughed, it felt like it could be.


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
I Think About This Item Description A Lot

i think about this item description a lot


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Shared Tarot For My Tabris And Surana Because They’re Cousins And In The Same World State

Shared tarot for my Tabris and Surana because they’re cousins and in the same world state


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9 months ago
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9 months ago
Emyr Tabris

Emyr Tabris

Alienage Conscript, Veteran of the Blight Champion Berserker


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
The City Elf Back Story Future Warden Commander Selvan Tabris
The City Elf Back Story Future Warden Commander Selvan Tabris

The city elf back story Future warden commander Selvan Tabris


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
I Keep Drawing Her In Nice Clothes Even Tho I Think In Some Respects They Would Make Her Uncomfortable

I keep drawing her in nice clothes even tho I think in some respects they would make her uncomfortable sometimes lmaoooo my musings do not reflect her actual fashion choices I’m sure


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
My Warrior Tabris, Milana ⚔️ Hey Was Anyone Going To Tell Me The Warden Is Baby When They're Conscripted.
My Warrior Tabris, Milana ⚔️ Hey Was Anyone Going To Tell Me The Warden Is Baby When They're Conscripted.

my warrior Tabris, Milana ⚔️ hey was anyone going to tell me the warden is baby when they're conscripted. this is my real first playthrough of da:o and i have a lot of feelings thank you


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
I Really Love Her Design 😳

i really love her design 😳


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9 months ago
Ferris Tabris (or A Mandatory Chest-up 3/4 Portrait)

ferris tabris (or a mandatory chest-up 3/4 portrait)


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
I've Been Playing The Dragon Age Series. It's Fun!

I've been playing the Dragon Age series. It's fun!


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cityelfweek
9 months ago

Redcliffe Conversations

Lysas

The Hinterlands Masterpost Related Quest: In Hushed Whispers

The PC approaches the elf outside of the Gull and Lantern

Lysas: You’re from the Inquisition. I didn’t think you’d still be here. Were you really looking to ally with us?

Dialogue options:

General: Yes. Mages should be free. [1] - Sera disapproves - Cassandra slightly disapproves - Vivienne slightly disapproves

General: You sound doubtful. [2]

General: No. Mages should be contained. [3] + Sera slightly approves + Cassandra slightly approves + Vivienne approves

1 - General: Yes. Mages should be free. PC: I want this war to end without sending you back to the circle. Lysas: There has to be a way, right? We’re not what they think: all blood mages and abominations. We just want to be normal. Have families. Use our magic to… help grow crops or something. We never wanted war. [4]

2 - General: You sound doubtful. PC: Is that so hard to believe? Lysas: Everyone blames us. The templars left the Chantry, too. That’s worse, isn’t it? They took an oath. Yes everyone calls it the “mage rebellion.” We’re the ones they hate. [4]

3 - General: No. Mages should be contained. PC: This rebellion is doomed. I offered your leaders a way to end it peacefully. Lysas: There was no other way! Do you think any of us wanted this? On the run, everyone hating us… What choice did we have? Stay and be slaves? [4]

4 - Scene continues:

Vivienne: There are better ways than war to affect change.

Solas: Sometimes to achieve the world one desires, one must take regrettable measures.

Lysas: I… I hope you can do something. Tying ourselves to Tevinter…? That can’t be the right way to end this.

5 - Dialogue options:

Investigate: Tell me about yourself. [6]

Investigate: You don’t like Tevinter? [7]

Investigate: When did the magister come? [8]

General: Be careful. [9]

6 - Investigate: Tell me about yourself. PC: You seem young to be part of this. Lysas: I’m Lysas. I came into my magic when I was nine years old. Templars came into the alienage and took me to the Circle. They didn’t even let me say goodbye. It’s not right. I studied hard, I passed my Harrowing, I sing the chant. But I’ll be locked up the rest of my life. [Back to 5]

7 - Investigate: You don’t like Tevinter? PC: You don’t approve of the Grand Enchanter’s decision? Lysas: I was there when we voted to leave the Circle. She really seemed to care what we wanted. She was ready to rebel, but she wasn’t going to unless it was the will of all mages. It’s hard to believe she’d go behind our backs and sell us to the magisters. [Back to 5]

8 - Investigate: When did the magister come? PC: How long has the magister been here? Lysas: A day or two after… after the Conclave, he arrived. Come to save us from the wrath of the templars, he said. But this doesn’t feel like safety. [Back to 5]

9 - General: Be careful. PC: Take care of yourself. There’s something strange going on. Lysas: I never thought the Grand Enchanter would swear to a magister.


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cityelfweek
9 months ago
Little Dragon Age Art Dump
Little Dragon Age Art Dump
Little Dragon Age Art Dump
Little Dragon Age Art Dump
Little Dragon Age Art Dump

Little dragon age art dump


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9 months ago
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo
The People Have Spoken So I Will Be Printing DA100 As A Zine Wahoo

The people have spoken so I will be printing DA100 as a zine wahoo

Here’s a preview of the updates you can expect in the final version, with the old art on the left and the revision on the right <3


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9 months ago

Stories of Thedas: Kallian

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9:31 Dragon

Grey clouds reflected perfectly off the surface of Lake Calenhad until Kallian couldn't tell where it stopped and the sky began. It was a gloomy, frosty day, but at least it was calm. A soft breeze would ripple across once in a while, making the sky dance in the waters until it blew past, and all was still again. 

Growing up in the alienage, she had never seen a lake. Though it wasn't her first time noticing one, it was her first time really looking. Redcliffe was a dim noise behind her; the news of Arl Eamon's sudden good health was rapidly spreading, and with it, hope blossomed. 

Kallian let herself sit there for a while. Orzammar was next, a sprawling underground city. There would be no lakes there, no rivers or waterfalls. They wouldn't be leaving until tomorrow, and so, she let herself rest.

"Kall?" A quiet voice called, and she turned to see Alistair stood nearby, uncertainty clear in the set of his brow.

She smiled and gestured for him to sit with her with a nod of her head. 

He did so wordlessly, knees drawn up to lay his arms across, and Kallian moved slightly to lean her head on his shoulder.

"You know, I think I might be the first person in my family to ever see a lake," she mused. "Well, apart from my mam."

"Really?" Alistair asked in surprise, before chuckling.  "I've always felt like I couldn't escape it."

Kallian laughed in return as he kissed her head, resting his own against hers.

"Just… I know there's a lot of crap," she began quietly. "Death, pain, dirt… but I used to tell stories of places like this. My dad painted them, even though he'd never seen them himself… I wish I could show him, y'know?"

"You will," Alistair whispered, resolute. "One day."

Kallian smiled, warmed by his own determination for her family. She laced her fingers with his, pressing close.

They stayed there, silent, basking in each other's presence as they watched the grey clouds slowly turn orange and pink, the setting sun peeking through until it disappeared beyond the lake.


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9 months ago
Arggh, It's ME! Self-Meet-Cute!

Arggh, it's ME! Self-Meet-Cute!


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9 months ago
She Cool, But–

She cool, but–


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9 months ago
cityelfweek
9 months ago

Happy Friday! For DADWC, how about "Sing for me?" from the Dragon Age Inspired Prompts for Warden/Leliana?

Thank you for this prompt! For @dadrunkwriting

My Warden in this one is Rose Tabris, who uses she/her pronouns.

The day has been exhausting and Rose is at the end of her rope. Her body’s sore and her head is full from the day’s events. All she wants is to curl up in a bed and go to sleep. 

But of course she can’t even be that lucky. She doesn’t have a bed, she has a bedroll on the floor of a tent. She can’t even have a nice fire to warm herself by because it decided to rain as soon as they started making camp. So she gets to be exhausted, sore, and drenched on top of everything else. 

She wants to scream. She wants to curse the Maker she doesn’t believe in for putting her through such an overwhelmingly shitty day. Instead, she sits in her tend and stews in her frustration, annoyance radiating off of her in waves. 

“Are you alright?” Leliana asks, her voice honey-sweet with concern. “I know today was tough for you.” 

Rose rolls her eyes. “No shit,” she mutters. “Did I do the right thing?” 

“With the werewolves?” Leliana cocks her head to the side. “Do you think you did the right thing?” 

Rose swallows. “I don’t know,” she admits. “When Zathrian told me what those monsters did to his children, I was so angry.” She still is, can still feel the way her heart thrums with her rage at the knowledge of what humans have always done to elves — to her people. She may not have been raised among the Dalish, but that gives her even more insight on the cruelty of humans. 

She doesn’t know what to do with her anger. It’s always been a part of her, living deep inside of her heart for so long that she doesn’t know who she would be without it. She’s always known herself to be an angry person because she’s had to be to survive. What purpose does that anger serve now when her decisions cost lives?

“But you did not kill the werewolves,” Leliana points out. “You let them be cured despite your rage.”

“I didn’t want to. I wanted to let them suffer forever.” Rose pulls her knees to her chest, her hair falling in front of her face. “But they weren’t the ones who actually did those things. They were just the children of those monsters and their children’s children. The descendants of horrible people who did horrible things.”

Leliana sits beside her, placing a hand on Rose’s knee. “I think you did well in recognizing that.” 

“But I still– I still wanted them to suffer!” Rose can’t keep it to herself anymore. “There was a moment when I still thought they should keep their curse, that they should suffer for all time. What their ancestors did was so unforgivable I thought– I thought what’s to stop their children from being the same as them? Humans have done so much harm and have hurt so many people that just the thought of it makes me so– so angry.” 

“You have the right to be angry.” Leliana says in the same patient tone. “But not all humans are the same as one another.” 

Rose wants to snap that most are. That most humans she’s known have been cruel and selfish monsters who deserve no less than the fate Zathrian gave those original humans who hurt his clan. But she doesn’t know how true that is anymore, if the bad humans still outnumber the good. 

Even the good humans have gaps in their knowledge of how things are for those like her. Even the good humans don’t understand their own privilege and they say things that to them sound perfectly acceptable while making Rose cringe away. Even Leliana — quite possibly the love of Rose’s life — doesn’t always comprehend that the things she says can be harmful.

Rose just sighs, the war in her mind making it difficult for her to think clearly. “I’m too tired for this,” she says. “Can you just… sing for me? Please?” 

Leliana smiles and nods. “Of course.” She wraps an arm around Rose and pulls her close. Her lips part and she begins singing in that soft, sweet voice. Rose relaxes in her arms in a way she’d never thought she’d be able to relax for anyone and she allows that voice to carry her into sleep. 


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