How I've Been Feeling About Doing Coursework For The Essay-based Modules In My Engineering Degree:

trying your best does not mean putting an unbearable amount of strain on yourself.

When you’re going though something heartwrenching and you’re constantly between

Drowning in all-consuming emotion

and

Damn this is going to make such good art

i would get a lot more done if i spent less time faffing about . but i think 2 hours a day of faffing about is load bearing to my wellbeing. so its more of a "4 hours a day or 2 hours a day" thing

file -> phrases that are going to shift something in me forever

This is why I keep a notebook beside my bed. The issue is that then that idea remains in the notebook until I accidentally re-discover it weeks later. And by then I’m just ‘not feeling it anymore’. One time I actually gave in, sat up and wrote all night. It was glorious.

Me when I hit that Creative high at 1.00 am in the morning and come up with the greatest story ever conceived...

And then... by the time I wake up... I've FORGOTTEN ALL OF IT.

this show asks all the real questions like what if you adopted a kitten and it was a shark. what if you caught a corgi and she was the missing rich daughter that always sets a narrative in motion. what if you were a detective and there was another detective and there was an fbi guy and another fbi guy and your adhd induced sixth sense only made you aware of your position as a fictional character in an elaborately spun story. what if you were a piranha in the stream of the universe. what if you spent six years gaslighting your disabled sister to make up for a lie that you took too far. what if you broke up your band. what if your band sucked. what if you were scott pilgrim a little bit

A terrible habit i've picked up on is complementing advice.

I love advice, and when its good and relevant and in a format I can understand well, I genuinely appreciate and encourage it.

So in response, i'll be like, "that's a good one" or "ooh i wouldn't have thought of that", etc. and idk where the line when it starts to sound more condescending than grateful is???

It doesn't help that i have this tone of voice that i have been told multiple times sounds 'permanently sarcastic', which is a whole other can of worms...

I guess accepting advice this is just one of those skills i have to put conscious effort into improving whenever the opportunity arises, until one day it'll just become part of my good communication repertoire! Excited for that :)