I truly love how morally grey Hajime is.
Like in the beginning of the game, everyone’s talking and they’re all saying stuff like “we would never kill a friend to get off this island”
Meanwhile Hajime’s off on the side like “damn. I actually really wanna get off this island”
This happens multiple times, too: Imposter was like “I wont stand for anyone killing each other.”
And Hajime’s internal dialogue is just “I could and might do it”
Man considers murder so many times throughout the game and I am living for it
STOP PARALLELING THE HONEYMOON WITH YOUR OWN JAPAN TRIP THATS OUR JOB
this is literally orin scrivello💀💀
already posted her on tiktok but i wanted to share here !! mahiru koizumi cosplay :D my best girl
to be clear we got first meeting commentary for the first time and the verdict is, dan expected Phil to be hot and confident, Phil was nervous, and Phil thought dan was a version of Anthony he would pound. like. just to be clear
When the main manga doesn't have our backs Kunigiri stans, we can count on Episode Nagi 🔥
A little self indulgence for me
got really high last night and when i eventually fell asleep all i can remember from my dream is being in the bllk facility and chigiri was there we were hanging out we were chilling and then talking. reo also briefly was there. currently trying to figure out if the edible turned dream!me into second selection!kunigami .
i had a little too much fun with these
I don't even know if you're still in the Matt Engarde hype but oh my fucking god. holy fucking shit. I am obsessed with the thought that this man would rather create a whole persona as an amalgamation of the traits he doesn't see as "acceptable", one who can carry the blow of Celeste's suicide because he's bad and independent and dettached and everything he was never allowed to be, one who can carry the anger he bottled up for the sake of images; the anger rooted so deep, burning him inside out at every ounce fear and the self-hatred and the neglect and the betrayal of being left behind he encounter. I'm going insane.
He sees "growing up" as something bad, as if being a fully separated entity from who nurtured you is shameful, and how this somated with the grayness of Celeste's relationship with him (and the fact all the people in canon she was in a relationship with, romantic or not, borderline or straight-up codependent) heavily implies that she, consciously or not, made him fully rely on her for everything and fed into the image that things should be like that forever: that he would never be someone if not "part" of her. And not to be an Engarde apologist or anything but the knowledge that this is a common strategy for abusers, especially parents and caretakers; to "mesh" with their targets to a point they don't know who they are without them, and how this causes long-lasting identity and self-image issues, much like that dude Matt?? It's driving me nuts.
Just. The littlest, tiniest voice in my head saying that Engarde would rather destroy the already poor image he had of himself as a person and wear the "evil" label like an armor than to acknowledge he might have been a victim won't shut up and i'm very sorry for the lenght of this but i've been running up my walls all day brainstorming about this and i need to sleep. I know this may be far-fetched, so feel free to add any divergences from my biased conclusions if you'd like!
i am always and forever in matt engarde hype anon....thank you so much for this ask that has been on my mind since i got it. your point about his relationship with celeste being part of his urge to "mesh" and stay childlike is really fucking me up. i love it so much it makes different aspects of the whole puzzle click in my head. also "would rather be evil than a victim" i think describes engarde deeply. anyway i just love all of this thank you so much for sharing<333
"What they'll do to me is nothing compared to you. If you come for me, you're throwing away every last thing I'm about to go through." Fuyuhiko's hands trembled before he shoved Hajime away. "If I see you again, I'll never forgive it. You got that?"
I mean of COURSE I'm gonna draw stuff from this wonderful fill even if it kills my heart 💔💖
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