Food Will Forever Be The Enemy And Nobody Can Talk Me Out Of It.

I DON’T WANT LOOK LIKE A CLEAN GIRL I WANNA WANT LIKE A CORPSE!! I WANT TO LOOK LIKE A SICKLY VAMPIRE. I WANT TO LOOK LIKE A 90S ROCK STAR WITH MASCARA RUNNING DOWN MY FACE! I LOVE LOOKING HALF DEAD AND ROTTED.

🕯️manifesting this mindset🕯️

The thought of eating disgusts me.

the urge to look like a monster<3

I want my body to look how I feel. It's rotting it should look like it. I want cuts. Deep cuts. Red lines all over. Deep purple and green bruises. Bones jutting out. Hollowed cheeks. Sunken eyes and dark eyebags underneath them. Black rot littering it all. Why do I have to still shine, look like I'm fine. The light is extinguished there is nothing left. I want my body to show its true nature, show how it really feels. Let me rot in peace.

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I can't stress this enough.

If someone's actively ⭐ving themselves and goes from 260lbs to 220-200, THAT IS DANGEROUS AND THAT IS SICK. No they're not ✨skinneyy✨ but they're severe disordered and it scares me cause are they getting help? NO.

So let's get this straight, someone weighs 145lbs, loses 45lbs = You're now sick and deserve help.

And someone who's 260lbs, loses 90lbs = "you're at normal weight you're doing good."

YOU.CAN.DIE.AT.ANY.WEIGHT.

It's not a weight disorder.

EVERY POUND YOU LOSE FROM DOING THIS TO YOURSELF SPEAKS FOR YOUR DISORDER. NEVER QUESTION IT.

You're valid, I see you and I really do hope my plus size sufferers are safe... Stay safe, ALL OF YOU.

loser idiot binges instead of starving

YOUR 3D IS STILL VALID IF...

- u have conflicting thoughts about how to go about ur 3d

- ur not making any progress / stuck in a plateau

- ur w8 is fluctuating

- you have not been diagnosed that you have one

- ur wanting to get better / thinking abt r3c0very

- clothes are fitting a little too well (iykyk)

- ur not taking any ð1ur3tics

- you are taking a temporary 'break' from everything

- u look completely 'normal'

- your hygiene is poor

- ur not underw31ght or in the l0w ßmi range

- ur still stuck at ur hw

- you don't like / do not 3xercise regularly

- keep rel4psing

- don't drink enough water

- not seeking any attention / doing it for someone

- haven't f4st3d in a long time

- cope w/ emotions through $h

- don't fit the norms

- avoidant of your own reflection

- dissociates occasionally

- enjoys food

- doesn't count c4ls

- u don't like to r3str1ct

- overshares / undershares abt your problems

- just starting ur w8 g0al journey

- needs constant reassurance

- not willing to wear tight fitted clothes

- never worn clothes that are aimed to s3xu@l1ze ur figure

- prefers baggy clothes

- u don't enjoy following d13ts

- you procrastinate

Your 3d is still valid.

i’m actually so disgusted by my body.