Digital-dissociation-blog - Digital Dissociation

I hate when I get told this. Especially by my own mother, who knows I’m sick. And has the same thing because fuck genetics sometimes right? So..Its like...I have a chronic disorder??? My own existence is an exhausting painful battle???? You should know this as well as anyone??? Smdh

Conversations with abled people I'm sick of

Me, chronically ill: Gosh, I’m so exhausted.

Abled person: YOU’RE tired????? *I* worked all day!

Having a rough week after a longer period with low symptoms is really hard.

I’m feeling as if life was punishing my for feeling to strong and confident.

I dont want to come back. Let me fade into obscurity. Let the days tick by till my memory becomes stale and the color of my eyes is questionable. Forgettable, is what I am. Pull me from this world, leave me untraceable. Lingering like smoke from a candle, wisping into the air just enough until unseen. Until I am just a burning smell floating on the air, a quickly fleeting reality.

—Poetic Suicide

Im in so much fucking pain holy fuck i dont know what i did but jesus christ it hurts so bad I can’t stay still and id beg for pain medicine rn and i hate medicine but fuck please make it stop its fucking agony

I’ve let you all down.

I somehow managed to i think dislocate my finger joint and I had to fix it myself and it fuckin ghurt. All I did was open a stupi dplasic thing and my finger was like lol fuck you too 

I actually feel like I am in the worst low mood of my life and I feel utterly terrible and like I want to die. And It makes me so angry that one tiny little thing just fucking smacked me from the purest beautiful holy cloud nine onto the fucking cold heartless concrete without mercy. I literally have not stopped crying for like over an hour. I hate my life and I want to just throw myself off the stupid balcony fuck me.