Mesmerized

Anne Yvonne Gilbert

📸: Valerie Phillips

“I had been right, I was still right, I was always right.”

Albert Camus, The Stranger

I want to write poems on my bedroom walls

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Naum Gabo, Translucent Variation on a Spheric Theme,1937

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TANZ DEBIL

Blixa Bargeld and F.M.Einheit, Moers, Schlosspark,1990/06/02

photo edit by eleonore nitsch (rgnrkzdk)

"Thou Shalt Not", 1940 photograph by Whitey Schafer, made in protest of the then-current motion picture censorship Hays Code. The photograph deliberately breaks many of the "rules" of the code, listed in the upper right corner.

You had to let go of something great Of something that could have been Worth the wait But I dislike For you have always been right That we did need this break Since realizations have come to the surface That we deserve not to tolerate

It was indeed for the best of us. One should not sacrifice their dreams and lean too much on uncertainty. The other should not let their uncertainty be molded, sacrificed as a pleaser, or become too influenced into the dreamer’s dreams. None deserves the extent of pain. So, beloved, may you find a person whose dreams align with yours and form a bond so covalent that it won’t ever equate to the pang of our heartbreak. I will be rooting and cheering for you in the tiny corner of your heart, mind, body, and soul. For our mere platonic love is a rarity—a gift. Perhaps, in due time, when our hearts mend and stop the search of our lost potentials—our could’ve been’s—and our hearts learn selflessly nothing but the true happiness of one another, then our friendship can be restored.

Because I would love to just have a conversation with you about existence and other insane topics that late poets have talked about.

— The Final Apology and the Chance of Reconciliation

it is winter everywhere inside you

Claude Monet, Jennifer Chang, Sara Lefsyk, Joseph Fasano, Kaveh Akbar, Mahmoud Darwish