Dreimehrparsec - The Light Like Lead

running on a different operating system

to brush most people's probing aside

is effortless, deflecting blows so they never see you - I've had to catch myself noticing people in weak moments. they make you feel like some unfathomable pillar

created by something ancient or alien, or maybe just yourself.

I despise the predatory element,

a weakness seen

that could blend in better -

now it’s something kind,

learning what makes people tick. I wonder if other people like me exist

building fortresses of knowledge

no one suspects we possess -

I catch myself studying people,

watching from outside the circle

of normal human interaction.

it’s not malicious,

just different -

a compulsion maybe, or just curiosity distilled into methodical observation.

it started as survival,

now I notice the pause before a practiced lie,

the subtle shift in posture when someone feels threatened -

all these blaring, bright neon signs I used to try to mimic.

sometimes I wonder if they can tell

I’m building libraries of their expressions,

cataloging their reactions

and how they signal belonging - it’s exhausting work.

sometimes I catch someone watching me,

an eye-meet, wonder-if they’re like me moment, or if they just sense something off

and wrong -

we were constellations once,

maybe now there’s just a slight delay

in recognition,

while I wonder if they’re like me

collecting a moment for too long.

Sergey Shigolev- Morning Stars, 1928.

Lene Lovich and Nina Hagen

Naum Gabo, Translucent Variation on a Spheric Theme,1937

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Anne Truitt, from a diary entry featured in Daybook: The Journal of an Artist

Debbie Harry with her cat 'Sunday Man'

Photo by Bobby Grossman.

Enough with bedrotting and also enough with living your life through the veil of Routines and Habits. What u need is to live ur life like it’s a bizarre 1969 avante grade art film documenting the life of an 18th century poet and musician through abstract visual-poetic representations

Lucien Hervé (László Elkán, dit) Unité d'habitation, Nantes-Rezé (Architecte : Le Corbusier)

The Angel, Standing in the Sun

Joseph Mallord William Turner

oil on canvas, 1846