Ee-1995 - ThinsAlwaysIn✨️

i want to get worse. i NEED to get worse.

how to not binge

first let’s understand why you’re binging…

you miss the food. you miss the flavor and you miss the freedom. that’s okay. restricting your diet is hard especially because you’ve had a taste for high cal foods and they taste great, i won’t lie. but i have been able to go about 2 months without binging, even though i miss the flavor.

my lw was at the beginning of the pandemic and i was eating like once every three days (because of my ocd). i got into recovery this year but i don’t think i was mentally ready for all the weight gain so i restarted my rexie journey about 2 months ago and i’ve lost a significant amount of weight (about 25 lbs)

now how to not binge!

actually enjoy your low cal meals. savor the flavor and really enjoy it. don’t eat them with the mindset of “this will make me skinny”, eat them with the mindset of “this is actually good food”. the more you start to look at these foods as delicious and tasty, the less you’ll want the high cal foods. look forward to the meals you cook. experiment with flavor and different textures. and remember it’s okay to miss that burger and that pizza, but there’s a whole world of different flavors you have yet to explore in low cal foods!

as i’m writing this, i’m having my breakfast: black coffee, a can of tuna with salt and pepper and some unsweetened applesauce. it might seem like bland food but i genuinely love the bitterness of the coffee and the sweetness from my saliva that follows after i’ve drank it, the savory and slightly spicy flavor of the tuna (i’ve always loved tuna since childhood so this one was pretty easy to like) and the applesauce, it’s like a treat and a fun little snack. i even consider it akin to candy, so i don’t feel the need to eat actually candy.

it’s a mindset to get into. just remember that you don’t have to suffer to be skinny, you can enjoy food while losing weight.

if u want that mcdonald’s burger and it fits into ur limit, go fucking get it!

-30 lbs by summer

-30 lbs by summer

-30 lbs by summer

-30 lbs by summer

all I’m asking for is a flat stomach!!!

This will be me!! I will never give up!!

i wasted all my favorite melodies

and watched best friends turn to enemies

for you.

Shout out to the 4n4 girlies (and guys) who ARENT anywhere close to societally presentable as 4n4.

The ones who go to the doctor and get told to keep losing weight

The ones whose family hasn’t gotten worried yet

The ones who feel like they can’t mention 4n4 without being disbelieved/told they should starve more.

I see you and I hear you and you’re valid.

After yesterday I weighed myself this morning well aware I may hurt my own feelings

And I have lost 2lbs since Wednesday like that should have cheered me up but it hasn't lol why am I like this why can't I have normal expectations and so I would be THRILLED as losing 2lbs in 3 days I have 4 days to lose more which will hopefully bring my weekly loss to like 4-5lbs